How the misery begins

I heard the door creek open, and a slightly scared looking Gerard walked slowly in.
"what did you need to talk to me about?" I asked, feeling more comfortable around him.
"uh, I don't wanna do this here, can we go to my car?"
"i don't know, I skipped yesterday, so it's probably not the best idea" I mumbled.
"Don't worry, I'll talk to miss Norbert at reception tomorrow and explain that you were with me, she'll let you off."
"you promise?"
"i promise" he held out his hand, and I took it.
We walked through the empty hallways and out to his car. He climbed into the drivers seat, but I hesitated outside. I felt uneasy for some reason.
"what's up" Gerard poked his head out of the window.
"oh, uh...nothing, it's nothing."
"you sure?"
I opened the door to the passengers side and got in "yeah, I'm sure" I smiled.

we drove in silence, the only noise coming from an old smashing pumpkins CD Gerard put in when we left the school. I felt like my head was going to explode, there were so many emotions and unanswered questions, it was driving me crazy. I looked over at Gerard, he didn't look that good either, his hands were gripping the steering wheel a little too tightly than normal. I searched my brain, trying to figure out what it was that he needed to talk to me about so urgently. I guessed it was something to do with him freaking out all the time lately, but he refused to tell me until he'd stopped driving. Twenty minutes later, he stopped the car on a deserted road outside the woods. I panicked, thinking he was going to murder me or something. He saw the look on my face and finally spoke.
"calm down, I'm not going to hurt you or anything." He laughed lightly.
He got out of the car and opened my door for me, I stood up wearily and followed him through the trees. I kept my gaze planted on the floor, until I walked straight into Gerard. I looked up to see why he'd stopped, and I was met with the most magnificent view I'd ever seen. We were at a beautiful clear blue lake that stretched out for what seemed like miles, it was surrounded by tall green trees and small white mountains. It was so completely different from the smog and pollution of the New Jersey streets, it was perfect, and I felt something so warm and familiar about it.
"My grandmother Elena used to bring me and Mikey here all the time when we were kids, we'd spend hours just sat here, taking in the view. It was our place, just the three of us...our own secrets paradise. When I was ten, she said that some day I'd find someone special, someone I could be myself around, someone who would love me for who I am. She said once I'd thought I'd found that person, to bring them here." I looked him in the eyes and saw that he was crying, but he carried on "seven years ago I thought I found that person, so I brought them here, but the next day, they left."
"who was it Gerard" I mumbled sympathetically.
"you still don't remember, do you?"
"remember what?" I asked as he wiped away the remaining tears falling down his cheeks.
"It was you. You were my best friend. You were the boy I loved. You were the boy who left. You were the one I spent years crying over. It was all you." His voice sounded full of hatred and remorse, the worst part was that I didn't know if it was me that he hated.
I was so shocked I couldn't speak, I just stood there starring at him. After I regained my senses, I spoke again.
"what are you talking about? W-what do you mean I left?"
"you know that day you moved, when you couldn't remember anything? Well I know what happened. I brought you here, and we spent hours amazed by how great this place was. I brought you because I thought you were my special person, but I didn't tell you that because I chickened out. We were about to go home when you invited me to your house, so I agreed and we walked to yours. We were in your room, just talking and messing around, we thought your mom was out at the bar. We were both sat on your bed watching a movie, and then you moved closer to me because you got scared, so I hugged you close. You looked up at me, and I remember thinking about how incredible you were and how I was so lucky to have such an amazing best friend, but I wanted to be more than your friend. So I leaned in closely, and I kissed you. It wasn't the best kiss I'll admit, probably because we were ten and I had no clue what I was doing. Anyway, that was when your mom walked in and saw us. She started screaming and hitting you, and you were screaming at me to leave. You said it was all my fault, and that you hated me. You told me you never wanted to see me again, so I left. The next day I told my mom what happened and she spoke to the police, but when they went to your house, you were both gone. My parents told me you'd moved, but apparently I refused to accept that and went to your house after school every day waiting for you to get back. The police said that it would help me get over you if they told me you'd died, so that's what my parents did. They told me you were dead, and that you were never coming home.

Notes

This is kind of a dramatic chapter, so now you know what gee was hiding!