If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see, you can find out first hand what it's like to be me

Frank’s POV

I sat through the whole of maths just watching the clock and not paying attention. The teacher was droning on about drawing ‘detailed graphs’ and shit. I mean, what are we going to need graphs for in the future? Nothing probably. All I could really think about was Gerard. His floppy hair, his perfect, hazel eyes, his perfect figure, his smile, his adorable little pixie nose, everything. I’ve only known him for like a few hours but I could honestly say that I think I’m in love. I tried not to get my hopes up about anything though, he may also be gay, but I doubt he’ll ever look at me the way I look at him, and it hurts knowing that, but you get used to it after a while.

As soon as the bell went, I was the first out, eager to get to my next lesson with Gerard, physics. I actually really hate physics, but knowing I’ll be with Gerard gets me hoping it’ll be okay. I found my way to the science rooms by myself, and was actually quite proud, seeing as it is my first day. Then I saw Gerard’s messy black mop of hair in the hallway and ran up to him. He greeted me with a genuine smile, and asked how maths was.

“Absolute shit,” I said.

“Aha, who’s your teacher?” He asked out of curiosity.

Oh God, I’m awful at remembering names! I got my schedule out and looked at where I had maths. Mr. Shamsher.

“Ermmm, Mr Shamsher,” I read out.

“Oh right, I had him last year, he’s a right bitch,” Before I knew it, Gerard was marching right ahead of me. I caught up with him to see that he had a scared, pained expression plastered on his face.

“Move,” I followed his orders and walked quickly behind him, his long limbs striding him forward with ease, while I almost had to jog to catch up. His face relaxed as soon as we entered our classroom, and we sat together at the back. I got out my book, and Gerard done the same, flicking through to find the right page. We listened to the teacher, I don’t know her name, drone on and on about something like quantum physics, whatever the fuck that is. I soon zoned out and started doodling in my notebook.

“Mr Iero, do you mind reciting what I have just said to the class?” She snapped, clearly knowing I wasn’t in anyway listening.

“Er, sorry miss, I wasn’t listening,” I apologised, hoping not to get a detention on my first day.
“I’m going to let you off, but just this once, Iero. I catch you not listening again and you go straight to the detention room,” She threatened, causing me to turn a shade of pink. I heard Gerard sniggering, not so discreetly, next to me, so I elbowed him in the side. He let out a squeak, which led to the teacher sending a death glare our way. I can tell I’m going to have a fun year!

The lesson ended quicker than expected, so Gerard and I darted outside, neither of us particularly hungry.

“Not hungry?”

“Nah, you?”

“Neither.” We sat in silence on a bench under a tree out of sight of anyone else, just watching the cloudless, blue sky above us.

“You know those woods over there? In the distance, I don’t know if you can see them, but they’re there,” Gerard pointed out. Sure enough, I could see them.

“I see them.”

“I live in a house right next to them, have done for as long as I remember,” Pretty cool having sort of a mini forest right next to your bedroom window, I’ve always wanted one of them!

“I could show you my little hide out after school if you like?” He said in a hushed voice. Clearly this was one of his little secrets yet to be revealed. I grinned in response, and he returned. I gently rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes, just taking in the moment. I felt Gerard’s head on mine, and I let out a soft sigh, causing Gerard to chuckle slightly.

“What’s so funny?” I asked.

“Haha, nothing. Well, apart from the fact that we've only known each other for like four hours yet we’re already acting sort of like a couple,” oh, right.

“Oh, erm, sorry, I couldn't help myself,” I apologized awkwardly and sat up, staring off ahead of me, trying to think of something other the Gerard.

“No no, it’s fine,” He replied with a gentle smile, which then turned into that look of panic which he wore on our way to physics.

“Oi fag! Who’s your new boyfriend?!” I heard a familiar voice call out, and spun around to look behind me, standing so I can run if I need to. Instead they ran up to us, a really tall, blond dude, Bob, I think his name is, grabbing Gerard, and a smaller one with a huge ‘fro grabbing me, and slamming me into the wall, knocking all the air out of me. I winced in pain and horror to see Bob beating the shit out of Gerard. He was nearly crying, which shattered my heart knowing what he’s going through right now. All I could do was watch in horror as the guy holding me had an iron grip, so there was no point in trying to run off.

“Well?! Ray? What are you waiting for?!” Bob yelled at the guy holding me, Ray apparently. Soon enough I felt a sharp pain across my right cheek, and Ray kicking my stomach, bringing back every single memory of being beaten at my old school. My eyes pricked with tears, but I refused to let them fall.

Thankfully the pain didn’t last that long for me, but for Gerard, it must’ve been years. They eventually let us go, and walked off, probably to fuck the girls that must’ve been watching us being abused the whole time.

I looked over ahead of me to see Gerard, head between his knees at the bottom of the tree sobbing. I gently made my way over to him to see he had a black eye forming and a bust lip. I softly wiped his tears away with my thumb and whispering soothing things like “Shh don’t worry, two more years and this will be over,” and “no, it’s not your fault, they’re just jealous because I think you’re amazing.”

I honestly do think he’s amazing. He’s funny, sassy, talented, and just overly gorgeous. He doesn’t deserve this pain he’s being inflicted upon, instead, it should be me, but I don’t think they know I’m gay… yet. When I was certain everyone around us had cleared off, I kissed his cheek. His face turned a shade of pink and looked away.

“S-Sorry,” I said as I stood up quickly.

“D-Don’t worry about it. It-It’s just no-one has ever really liked me the way-the way you do…” He trailed off at the end, clearly embarrassed about what he might say next.

“But I think I might like you too.”

Notes

Oooooohhhhh! Sorry I didn't upload yesterday, had school and homework and procrastination and I just generally forgot about this sooo yeah :)

It's so hot outside today like seriously its just 50 degrees like ughhh but on a good note, our form won the interform netball! YAY I mean seriously if we get something other that last that is actually quite a big achievement! WOO

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-Axx