Ghosts In The Snow

i woke up laying across Gerard's chest, he was so warm. i didn't want to get up but i knew i had to get to school. i slowly sat up not wanting to wake up the beautiful man i had spent the night with (unexpectedly). he groaned a little as the space between us got less and the air cooled, i went into the bathroom and looked in the slightly cracked, slightly dirty mirror when something caught my eye.

a needle?

i was confused, i picked it up and examined it carefully. i'd seen one of these before...my mum had them when i was little, before she left me for the 'man of her dreams' she would go into her room and not come out for a long time. now i'm older i realized what she was doing.
i ran into gee with tears swelling in my eyes, i pushed him hard to wake him up. he jolted and jumped.
"frank?! why'd you do that?!" he said in his oh-so-sexy sleepy voice. i started to cry as i pointed to the needle, his face dropped.
"no! no, please say..." i managed to squeak out before loosing it and breaking down. "why?!"
he shrugged and looked down obviously shocked and feeling terrible.
"i-i don't know Frankie...i'm so sorry...i should've said..." i ran out the house all the way to school. i knew if anyone saw me cry they'd hit me again. they always do. so i wiped away the tears and tried hard to 'suck it up' like my dad always told me to. that's before the accident...
"aww is Frankie crying?!" SHIT! i spun on my heals to see Mikey. stood with his arms crossed over his chest and a smirk forming on his face. there was always something i found mysterious about him, i don't know what...i just did. i shook my head and looked down.
"what was that you worthless midget?!" here we go with the midget jokes again! he walked over slowly so he was now only a few feet away from me.
"i-i wasn't crying...i yawned..." my excuses were never great, but i tried to pull the most honest face i could.
"don't lie to me!" he scrunched up his face and jammed his fist into my stomach, making me wince with pain and fall to the ground.
"i-m n-not!" that's all i could get out after being winded.
"your all lies! everything about you is a lie! your an attention seeking emo fag!" sometimes i believed him myself. another punch the the side of my face and i kick to the ribs and he walked off. everyone saw, but no one cared. not even Ray! my best friend for two years until he got bored and went off with the jocks of the school.
"your a faggot frank. no one likes you. just go die already?!" Mikey mumbled his last word to me before disappearing into the group of 'popular' kids.
i wish i'd stayed at home today...

Notes

sad scene...im sorry! the next chapters worse...please check out the link below to my friends story! its amazing! i'll love you forever!!!
anger issues.
~JadeWay XO