The Light Behind Your Eyes

Frank’s POV

"Fuck" I heard Gerard mumble as he buried his head in his arms and tried to hide from everyone. His relatives eyes widened and now everyone was looking at him and I. I tried to comfort Gerard by putting my arm around his shoulder but his reaction to it was different than normal Gerard.
"Gee?" I said as I threw my arm over his shoulder.
"Frank just fuck off for a minute" Gerard growled as he flinched, attempting to get me away from him.
"Gerard can we talk?" His Aunt Marie said.
"No I'm talking to Mikey now. Not you. Not Frank. Not anyone but Mikey." Gerard snapped as he stood up.
"How could you? You fucking knew not to how could you?" Gerard yelled at Mikey.
"Gee, I'm sorr-" Mikey started
"Save it." Gerard snapped and marched his way to his room.

I looked shocked as I watched my boyfriend leave the table and now everyone was looking at me.
"Frank" Donna said, motioning for me to go follow Gerard. I excused myself and ran to Gerard's room where he was sitting on his bed, curled up under a mass of blankets. I quietly made my way over to him when he realized there was someone in his room.

"Fuck off" he said.
"Hey it's just me" I said. He pulled the blankets off of his head and looked up at me.
"I know how this ends. I’ve seen it, passing gay couples in public, they cringe. I did have a cousin who was gay and their family were disgusted with him and ignored him and oh god..." Gerard said. "I don't want that to happen to us”
"Neither do I" I replied. “Gerard it will be fine, let’s go back to dinner, you don’t have to talk to them if you don’t want to.” I said, extending my hand, trying to lead him to the dinner table. “I’m hungry, please Gee!”

He laughed and grabbed my hand as we walked back to the dinner table. We sat down and immediately his relatives started staring at us. Of course, his mom, dad and brother were totally cool with it after all they’d known probably since the first day I had stayed here but his relatives didn’t take it so well. Grace and Emma kept whispering and making disgusted faces and giggling. Peter looked so uncomfortable and his Aunt and Uncle were talking amongst each other and looking at us every two seconds. After dinner was finished Gerard and I went back to Gerard’s room where he piled under the covers, but with me this time. Making a tent with both of us sitting under it.

“So we stay under here until they leave within the next day or so?” I asked.
“Thats the plan” Gerard replied.
“Fuck, it’s boiling in here” I said. Immediately when I said that I heard giggles coming from the doorway. Gerard and I tossed the covers over our head and Grace and Emma were standing in the doorway.
“Are you two kissing?” one of them asked I really couldn’t tell them apart, so... “Are you two actually dating?” The other asked.

We looked at them and then each other and then pulled the blanket over our heads again. We could tell the twins left by the noise their sandals made, jingling as they walked down the hallway. We started laughing and threw the covers back off of us. Gerard and I stayed in his room for mostly the rest of the day.

“Night Frankie” Gerard said as he planted a quick kiss on my lips and layed down beside me.

Later at night we could hear all the adults talking, and disagreeing, about something but I decided to ignore it and fall asleep with Gerard instead.

When Gerard and I woke up we walked to the kitchen to get breakfast and everyone was up before us. His relatives rolled their eyes when we walked in, acting really happy together. Gerard and I tried to ignore them and went to go eat our breakfast in our own little bubble, ignoring anything anyone else had to say about us. Both of us were living in a no-fucks-given world. After breakfast we left to go sit in the living room with the rest of his family who were watching TV.

“Gerard I know this girl, she’s one of my really good friends, you actually might like her.” Peter said.
“I’m happy with Frank thank you very much” Gerard said.

Throughout the rest of the time we were sitting on the floor in the room with his family they kept bringing up opportunities for Gerard and I to go on a date with girls. We obviously denied and protested every time.
Until his uncle said something.

“Gerard why don’t you ever think of what’s best for you?” David said. I was about to lose it, but Gerard did before I could say anything.
“This is what’s best for me! I fucking love Frankie and he loves me too” Gerard yelled. “We’re both happy can’t you see that?” This reminded me of when Gerard’s parents weren’t entirely supporting and we had to yell at them to get our way.

After Gerard finished yelling he tackled me and pinned me down, placing a long kiss on my lips. I immediately kissed back and I could hear comments from his family and them walking away in disgust. I was lost in the moment with Gerard but all I could hear was his relatives complaining about us to his parents.

“Do you see this!? This is sick!” His Aunt Marie yelled to his mom.
“They’re both happy why can’t you see that?” Donna questioned back.

After Gerard pulled away from the kiss I could finally get up off of the ground. Gerard suggested that we go out to the city so we walked out the front door and went into the city. By now it was early spring but we still wore hoodies and Gerard wore that one grey and black scarf he always seemed to wear.

The first stop we went to was Starbucks, we got our usual drinks and parked the car and then started walking around. We went in and out of a few stores until we got to the music store, where I spent a lot of time looking at instruments as Gerard just watched me and laughed.

“Hey Frankie, you already have like two guitars, lets go!” He said.
“I know but I’m looking at basses!” I groaned back to him.
“C’mon!” He said as he grabbed my hand and led me out of the store. When we got out of the store I decided to start pouting like a two year old, hoping to get my way. Instead Gerard just stared into my pouty eyes for a second and pulled me in for a kiss.
“There all better?” He asked me while cocking his head to the side.
“umm..” I trailed off, hoping for a second kiss and he did just that. Gerard pulled me in for a second, longer kiss which would have been heaven if it wasn’t for the dick who was behind us clearing his throat to get us to stop.

Gerard and I continued to walk down the street holding hands and living inside our own bubble. Soon it was later in the day and Gerard and I decided to go back home as it was after lunch. We drove the long drive back to Gerard’s house. On the way back we blasted the stereo to play The Clash.

"Well I'm running
police on my back
I've been hiding
police on my back.”

We both screamed the lyrics and when we got to Gerard’s we were both sad our jamming session was over.

I ran inside followed by Gerard. For lunch we had left over food from last night and brought that to Gerard’s room. All we did for the rest of the day until we had to go for dinner was continue rocking out to music and eat pasta. Pretty fun. We hid out in Gerard’s room until Don called us for dinner and we ran to the dinner table.

At dinner everyone sat where they were sitting yesterday, this time people weren’t staring at Gerard and I and they weren’t talking about us either. This time they were talking about sports, which I didn’t really follow. I didn’t mind sports but I didn’t ever pay attention to them. Gerard and I listened on the conversation but we talked about other things. Like the songs we were writing in music or the science homework neither of us did. We talked about that all until Gerard’s uncle David turned to him in the middle of our conversation.
David swallowed for a second and then said something I didn’t think would ever come out of his mouth.

“So, Gerard, met any nice guys?” His uncle said with a slightly uncomfortable face.

Gerard simply nodded and leaned in close to me to kiss my right cheek, a huge smile spreading across my face. Don and Donna were smiling. Mikey continued to eat his food and acted like this was a normal thing and Gerard’s Aunt, Uncle and cousins cringed for a bit but Gerard and I were happy.

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