The Light Behind Your Eyes

Frank’s POV

I woke up lying next to Gerard, his arms were wrapped tightly around my waist and his hair was mopped over his face. My body still ached from my beating yesterday but I could care less. Lying next to Gerard was all I wanted at the moment. A few seconds later his eyes fluttered open and I looked away awkwardly.

“Morning Frank” Gerard smiled and kissed my nose.
“Good morning Gee” I said sitting up slightly. Gerard still had a slightly purpley-blue mark around his eye. I was guessing I didn’t look so hot either.
“God, I’m starving we should go get breakfast.” Gerard said.

I got changed quickly and we sat at the table eating our cornflakes in silent. So far I think we are the only ones up so really we could talk about anything we wanted but we were too hungry and shy to say anything. Mikey came downstairs not long after us and sat down while staring at the toaster that he put bread in. The toast popped and Gerard stood up, pushing Mikey out of the way.

“You do remember what happened last time when you tried to get your toast out” Gerard said.
Mikey groaned and of course I had to ask what happened cause I didn’t know.
“He tried to get his toast out with a fork and he electrocuted himself” Gerard replied

I burst into laughter and Mikey slapped my shoulder as Gerard carried over a plate full of burnt toast. After breakfast was over, we walked to our bus stop like normal. Mikey and Ray of course met up at the corner and Gerard and I just shared headphones and listened to music. Soon though the school bus pulled up and we hurried onto it and sat in our regular seats near the back. I continued to listen to music with Gerard and I rested my head on his shoulder, after all it was still early and I was still tired. When we got to school I had to be helped out by Gerard to get off the bus because one, I was still in pain from yesterday and two, I had almost fallen asleep on the bus. Our first class was science and when we both walked in a few people asked stuff like “Oh my god are you okay?” or “What happened, who beat you?”

We both sat in the back of the class like usual and kinda goofed off during class. I’m so going to fail science this year it’s not even funny. In the middle of a thumb war the bell rang and we started to go to our next classes. We were split up so we weren’t together for this class. I had math. I’m not terrible at math but today I decided to just put my headphones in. I have a way that you can wear them without teachers noticing so I use that method often. I stared at the board during class while listening to the Misfits so I was somewhat paying attention. I could barely hear the bell from the amount of volume that was blasting through my headphones but when I heard the bell I was overjoyed, the next class was music.

I groaned as I stood up from my seat because my legs were still in pain. I don’t get why those jocks didn’t leave us alone, we weren’t bothering them. I ran as fast as I could to music and met up with Gerard in the classroom. As we walked in we held hands and went to go take a seat at the back like usual. We were some of the last people to get into the class and all the questions started flooding in again.
I was about to tell them why we looked like this and I noticed the group of jocks gathered in a corner in the large room. So I chickened out but Gerard did it for me.

“We got beat up by them” Gerard said motioning to the jocks.
“FAGS” One of them yelled. I casually scratched my forehead with my middle finger in his direction.
“For us just being us. And when I say us I mean us” Gerard added gripping my hand tighter.

The jocks all started calling us names and ‘eewwwing’ like two year olds but some people were actually smiling. I was smiling too and when Gerard leaned in and kissed my cheek I smiled even wider, my face began to hurt. Not from the beatings but from smiling way too big. We decided to take a seat in the back of the class and I played chords on my guitar as Gerard wrote song lyrics to match. I did feel like everyone was looking at us, they probably were. Knowing that this would spread around excited and worried me.

“Can I see this for a second?” Gerard asked. I passed him my guitar and he played an Em, G, C, then D.
“I suck at guitar” He said handing it back to me.
“No you don’t that was actually really good, lets add it into the song!” I suggested.

In the short class time we had we finished an entire song. Gerard and I walked to the cafeteria, holding hands. Probably the first time we ever did that, not caring what people would say. I was still smiling, like a smile had been plastered on my face or something, but it was still such a great feeling. Gerard and I sat at our usual table with Mikey and Ray.

“Why are you two smiling so wide?” Ray asked when we sat down.
“Well ummm..We just came out to our music class” I said gingerly. “And not everyone took it bad, most people were actually kinda happy.”
Mikey started choking on his water that he was drinking and Ray had to slap him on the back to stop him from coughing.
“Holy shit are you kidding? That’s going to spread, everyone will know you two are umm dating” Mikey said, trying to avoid the word dating.

So many people kept looking over at Gerard and I and some even came over and asked if we were a couple. We nodded and then they went back to their tables. Soon more and more people turned heads to us and more and more kept coming over. So to clear things up I pulled Gerard into a quick kiss. We heard the occasional wolf whistle, most people’s reactions were “ew” or “Fag” or just terrible things and then there were the ones who were awwwing and cheering. There weren’t that many of those.

Suddenly it hit me as to what we did. Some kids were happy and supporting, but most weren’t and those would be the ones to make our last few months at school a living hell. And our main bullies aren’t even here right now. Just thinking about this made my stomach turn and not feel well so I ran out of the cafeteria without any explaining and curled up in a corner in the hallway.

Notes

Thanks for reading, to every single one of you!
I hoped you liked this chapter I had to rewrite it multiple times cause it never turned out exactly how I wanted it, but I think I like it now!

I feel like sharing something but I have nothing to share cause my life is boring at the moment.

-shay