The Light Behind Your Eyes

It has been a few weeks since I found out Frankie self harmed. He has been good with it and yesterday we flushed all his blades. Today I refused to get up and go to school. Nothing was going on there just today I felt like sleeping in and doing next to nothing but of course that wasn't on my classes list. All was good at the start of the day. We had English which I'm not great at but it wasn't math or anything.

"Frankie what the hell is an onomatopoeia?" I said, struggling with the word. Frank gave me an I dunno look and shrugged. The look on his face was worth laughing at so I chuckled just a little but the teacher managed to hear.
"Gerard. What are you two laughing about?" She asked.
"I..um was laughing at the face Frankie just gave me" I replied.
People started giggling and Frank tapped my shoulder which made me laugh a little more.

Well I made it through the entire day. I was about to get on the bus until I looked around and Frankie wasn't there. I waited around for awhile and I even waited until after the busses left. There was no sign of Frank. Pretty soon I went home thinking he could have possibly got on the bus before I was even there. The walk back to my house want long but it wasn't a short walk either. It was around thirty minutes. When I got home I greeted my mom who was sitting in the living room and I ran to my room, thinking Frank was most likely going to be there. I opened the door but there was no sign of Frank.

"MOM?!" I called out.
"Yes?" She replied.
"HAVE YOU SEEN FRANKIE?"
"No, why?" She yelled back but this time she was near my room. She walked into my room and looked at me. I was sitting on my bed tugging at my hair.
"Frank didn't come home and now I'm worried" I replied.

She he patted my back but soon after that she left and left me to sit there trying to piece together everything that happened. Soon I had the idea to text Frank.

Hey Frankie.
I was wondering where you are I'm worried text me back real soon! Thanks! (:
-Gee

I waited for awhile longer but I still got no reply. Soon I gave up and fell asleep for the night. I would be able to see Frank at school right?


This entire week I only saw Frank once. Music class on Wednesday. He wasn't talking a lot like usual but he did interact with me a little just not as much as usual.

"Frank what's going on?" I asked that day.
"I can't really talk about it." He mumbled. "I'm so sorry Gerard" Frankie said burying his head in his arms.

Frank what's going on where are you?
-Gee

Frank I REALLY miss you if you would please come back. Or please tell me where you are I'll come get you, just please.
-Gee

please tell me your okay, please tell me your not hurting yourself or no one is hurting you. I really need you to be okay. My anxiety is going through the roof, text me back please.
-Gee

Those are only a few things I had texted him over the week. But now it was Saturday and I hadn't gotten any reply. I decided to lay in bed all day with my phone beside me, hoping for Frank to text me. This method didn't work. I marched my way to Mikey's room so I could have someone to talk to.

"Mikey" I said knocking on the door.
"Come in." a voice replied.
"Mikey what do I do?" I asked. "I have no fucking clue where Frank is and it's all my fault if he's hurt."
"Gerard stop worrying. It's okay he will be back on Monday alright?" Mikey replied. I nodded and hugged him.

I walked led my way over to my room and fell down on my bed. I pressed the button on my phone which made the lockscreen light up and something showed up which couldn't have made me happier.

Frankie
Text Message (2)

I practically jumped with excitement and unlocked my phone, looking at the texts I had received.

Gerard! I'm okay please don't worry!

I'm at my house, my dad is out, you can come over now I will be sitting on the porch.
xoxofrnk

I smiled and ran out of my room, not caring I was in pyjamas. I grabbed my car keys and hopped in the silver vehicle. I drove down to Franks house and he was sitting on the porch. He had multiple bruises on his face and a couple on the small space of arm that was showing.

"Frank what happened?" I asked as we were driving to my house.
"Well, my dad didn't like I was spending every second at your house so he picked me up from school and then things got bad when he found out you were my boyfriend."
"I'm glad you're okay" I said
"I'm glad I'm alive" Frankie replied.

When we we got to my house we stepped in the door and the first thing I did was kiss him.

Notes

Ooo a title that doesn't come from mcr. I believe I have two of those yay

im tired but I decided to update for you (: thanks so much for all the reviews and great rates (:

alright i'm going to take a 5 hour nap goodnight everyone! Also this was written on my phone so sorry for careless autocorrect mistakes