Gives You Hell
Save Me
~~~Mikey's POV~~~
I woke up to Gee nudging me.
"Maybe you'll be better in the back."
I glanced around to see Brendon saying goodbye to Frank. I scrambled into the backseat and curled up in my hoodie, Gerard having to bribe me into my seatbelt. I closed my barely open eyes and listened to their conversation when they thought I was asleep.
"Gee.. Brendon and Justin.. They swore that Mikey was high the day he called you."
"He doesn't do drugs."
"They were sure of it Gee.."
"Shut up. My little brother isn't a junkie."
Frank sighed.
"They also said they hadn't seen him eat in about two weeks.. Since they broke up."
I heard Gerard swallow hard and then sleep reclaimed me.
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I woke up in unfamiliar sheets and peeked an eye open. The first thing I saw were the bright red digits of a 24 hour clock. 3:30am. I groaned and sat up. I could hear Mama's voice from next door and got up, pressing through the dark hallways to her room. I knocked and peeked my head around it.
"M-Mommy?"
I hesitated as she fell silent. She was normally quite.. Hell, maternal in the early hours of the morning.
"What do you want, Michael?"
"Mommy c-can I get in bed with you..?"
"Oh Mikey baby not right now."
I heard a groan and the light flicked on. I stared at the guy that had turned it on. He wasn't Papa. I swallowed as he came over to me.
"Come on kid, back to bed."
I frowned as he hurried me down to my room. I knew I was small for my age but come the fuck on.
"Now, then, Michael."
I noted the sarcasm in his voice as he said my name. The back of his hand collide with the side of my face and I fell to my floor. His foot collided with my stomach and I coughed hard.
"Stay away from Mommy's room whilst her and I do business."
He smirked and slammed my door shut as he left. I lay on the floor and cried myself to sleep.
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I went downstairs for breakfast, taking a slice of toast from the stack on the table and curling up on the window sill.
"Michael sit at the table."
I just looked at her. Gerard nodded at me as he walked past before staring at the bruise on my face.
"Fell over trying to piss in the dark."
He chuckled and ruffled my hair before sitting next to Frank, half cuddling up to him. I stared out the window at the busy streets.
"Mama... Where's the nearest music shop?"
"Over on fifth and seventh. Half an hour to drive. Hour and a half to walk."
"Cool. I'm going out."
I grabbed my jacket and ran out the door, throwing the toast in the bin outside as I did so.
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I slid around the back of the music store, peering into the alley. There had to be one here. There was always one outside a music store. I spotted him and walked over.
"Aren't you a little young?"
"I'm 17. You got any or what?"
"What you want?"
"Heroin."
He pulled a bag out and I slipped him the money, sliding the bag into my pocket. I went into the music store and looked through some albums. I had to go back with some. I shoved some Joy Division albums on the counter and handed them Gee's card. Huh, I still had it. I grabbed the bag and started the trek home.
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I looked at the map, completely lost. I groaned softly and tried to navigate down the street through the mass of people. I got pushed onto the road and screamed seeing a car coming straight for me. To my amazement, it braked and stopped before hitting me. The guy that was with Mama last night got out.
"There you are. We've been looking everywhere for you. Get in."
I scrambled up and dived into the car, making sure the bag was still in my pocket.
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I put on the Joy Division Greatest Hits on and settled down on my bed. I strained my ears but there was no one coming. I pulled my needle out of my bag and loaded it up, before pressing the needle into my arm. I stared at the plunger, just sitting there. My door opened and I started.
"Michael can you tur- WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?"
I fell back on my bed and screamed as she yanked it out of my arm. She grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and dragged me downstairs. I struggled against her.
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE WITH THAT FILTH!"
"HEY HEY"
I fell into Frank's arms as she threw me out the door, sobbing. Gerard went running in.
"I'M NOT HAVING SOME JUNKIE IN MY HOUSE."
I broke free from Frank and sprinted off.
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No one was looking for me. I'd been gone for three hours according to my phone and I was curled up in the same place. No one cared. That little old voice pricked up again.
'I told you all that time ago that no one cared and they just proved me right.'
I felt the blade I kept around my neck on a chain. I whimpered and got up to find a more secluded place when I heard someone yell my name. I spun round and got engulfed by Gerard's arms.
"B-Bubba..."
I broke down and clutched at his shirt as he held me tight.
"I've got you Mikey and I swear I'm not going anywhere."
He just held me as I broke down in the middle of public until I blacked out from exhaustion.
I woke up to Gee nudging me.
"Maybe you'll be better in the back."
I glanced around to see Brendon saying goodbye to Frank. I scrambled into the backseat and curled up in my hoodie, Gerard having to bribe me into my seatbelt. I closed my barely open eyes and listened to their conversation when they thought I was asleep.
"Gee.. Brendon and Justin.. They swore that Mikey was high the day he called you."
"He doesn't do drugs."
"They were sure of it Gee.."
"Shut up. My little brother isn't a junkie."
Frank sighed.
"They also said they hadn't seen him eat in about two weeks.. Since they broke up."
I heard Gerard swallow hard and then sleep reclaimed me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up in unfamiliar sheets and peeked an eye open. The first thing I saw were the bright red digits of a 24 hour clock. 3:30am. I groaned and sat up. I could hear Mama's voice from next door and got up, pressing through the dark hallways to her room. I knocked and peeked my head around it.
"M-Mommy?"
I hesitated as she fell silent. She was normally quite.. Hell, maternal in the early hours of the morning.
"What do you want, Michael?"
"Mommy c-can I get in bed with you..?"
"Oh Mikey baby not right now."
I heard a groan and the light flicked on. I stared at the guy that had turned it on. He wasn't Papa. I swallowed as he came over to me.
"Come on kid, back to bed."
I frowned as he hurried me down to my room. I knew I was small for my age but come the fuck on.
"Now, then, Michael."
I noted the sarcasm in his voice as he said my name. The back of his hand collide with the side of my face and I fell to my floor. His foot collided with my stomach and I coughed hard.
"Stay away from Mommy's room whilst her and I do business."
He smirked and slammed my door shut as he left. I lay on the floor and cried myself to sleep.
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I went downstairs for breakfast, taking a slice of toast from the stack on the table and curling up on the window sill.
"Michael sit at the table."
I just looked at her. Gerard nodded at me as he walked past before staring at the bruise on my face.
"Fell over trying to piss in the dark."
He chuckled and ruffled my hair before sitting next to Frank, half cuddling up to him. I stared out the window at the busy streets.
"Mama... Where's the nearest music shop?"
"Over on fifth and seventh. Half an hour to drive. Hour and a half to walk."
"Cool. I'm going out."
I grabbed my jacket and ran out the door, throwing the toast in the bin outside as I did so.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I slid around the back of the music store, peering into the alley. There had to be one here. There was always one outside a music store. I spotted him and walked over.
"Aren't you a little young?"
"I'm 17. You got any or what?"
"What you want?"
"Heroin."
He pulled a bag out and I slipped him the money, sliding the bag into my pocket. I went into the music store and looked through some albums. I had to go back with some. I shoved some Joy Division albums on the counter and handed them Gee's card. Huh, I still had it. I grabbed the bag and started the trek home.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I looked at the map, completely lost. I groaned softly and tried to navigate down the street through the mass of people. I got pushed onto the road and screamed seeing a car coming straight for me. To my amazement, it braked and stopped before hitting me. The guy that was with Mama last night got out.
"There you are. We've been looking everywhere for you. Get in."
I scrambled up and dived into the car, making sure the bag was still in my pocket.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I put on the Joy Division Greatest Hits on and settled down on my bed. I strained my ears but there was no one coming. I pulled my needle out of my bag and loaded it up, before pressing the needle into my arm. I stared at the plunger, just sitting there. My door opened and I started.
"Michael can you tur- WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?"
I fell back on my bed and screamed as she yanked it out of my arm. She grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and dragged me downstairs. I struggled against her.
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE WITH THAT FILTH!"
"HEY HEY"
I fell into Frank's arms as she threw me out the door, sobbing. Gerard went running in.
"I'M NOT HAVING SOME JUNKIE IN MY HOUSE."
I broke free from Frank and sprinted off.
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No one was looking for me. I'd been gone for three hours according to my phone and I was curled up in the same place. No one cared. That little old voice pricked up again.
'I told you all that time ago that no one cared and they just proved me right.'
I felt the blade I kept around my neck on a chain. I whimpered and got up to find a more secluded place when I heard someone yell my name. I spun round and got engulfed by Gerard's arms.
"B-Bubba..."
I broke down and clutched at his shirt as he held me tight.
"I've got you Mikey and I swear I'm not going anywhere."
He just held me as I broke down in the middle of public until I blacked out from exhaustion.
@trini47
Not to sound rude or anything, but we've been incredibly busy lately and fan fiction takes a backseat to the real world. I'm not sure when it will be updated, but it will (eventually) be updated.
6/20/14