New teacher

*****hannahspov****
-1 month later-
i glared at my therapist, if she asked me on more fucking cryptic question. "Honey, I just think you need to address your feelings." Fuck. You. So things havent gone completely as planned since i awoke.

*1month ago*
"hannah come on." He sounded exasperated, i hated that I did this to him. "Gee i cant." I looked into his eyes. They were cold. "Well you come talk to me when you make your mind up." He whispered something after that before storming out. We had been fighting everyday. Its because I knew he couldnt love me and I was right.

*present day*
i hadnt spoken to him since then, probably because the only time I have left a hospital was when I got moved back down south. I dont know what he expected me to do? When I arrived everyone from school came to see me and pretty much the whole town. But not Gerard. Frank came every other day and Mikey came whenever he could. Jenny came with Frank as they were now official and pretty serious. I like it. but no Gerard. I ask about it every time I see them but its the same. Nothing. I wasnt allowed to leave. I had severe depression, anxiety, panic attacks and night terrors. What my therapy was for. Over the time My skin had managed to return to normal however bones were very much visible and scars would always be there. I had a 25% of being infertile. But that was my least concern. I was definitely getting better. My depression was slowly going and panic attacks happened more rarely. But anxiety and night terrors still haunted me. It didnt help that I had minor anxiety before the incident. My night terrors were mainly based off Andy. He was in prison for life but he still hurt me through my mind.

Today my therapist was trying to completely block out my depression. She knew the key, it had slipped out one time, Gerard. "if your relationship was not official and you were only seeing for about 3 weeks, how is this so difficult for you?" No, I don't like these."he was/is the only person to love me." She sighed. "Mikey loves you, frank loves you AND jenny loves you." But not like him. "Its different." She twisted her mouth. "Your not going to like this. But you need to talk to him." I glared at her. "HOw?! If im not allowed to leave this fucking hospital then how." She grinned up at me. "Ahh but Hannah you can, we have organised this to be your release date, you will be living with Jenny." Of course not home, not since my family broke down. But i thought about my sister. I must help her, the rest of my family is too far gone.

This was the happiest iv been in weeks. Free, at last. "On one condition, you need to keep coming to therapy once a week and if any signs of suicidal problems come up we will be checking you into hill-rise." Oh god, not the mental asylum. jenny appeared at the door with a smile as wide as possible. "Lets go roomy." I ran towards her and leaped into a hug.

***gerards pov*****

it had been a month and I didnt know what to do. She hadnt contacted me, but Frank said she was still in hospital. I was so jealous of Mikey, seeing her all the time. But what could I do? She didnt love me anymore and she would contact me if she did. i wasnt sad. I just didnt feel anything anymore. Any access to blades alcohol and drugs was restricted by Mikey and Frank so I was fucked, the only way iv learnt to deal with it is by having no emotions at all. I hated myself though. Scars forever on my wrists from my suicide attempt. I was an awful teacher. Mainly because I hated the job but also because I didnt fucking care anymore.

It was weird, I was friends with Jenny now that she is seeing my best friend. She tries to not bring up Hannah but sometimes she cant help herself. Whenever she does I smile weakly. But she is a good person and it isnt awkward at all. god. A whole month without her is so hard

Notes

Sorry i cant do long chapters, i much prefer short ones. Iv got no clue where im headed with this, input would be gratified (i dont even know id thats the right word)