New teacher

******hannahs pov******
i don't know what had happened. My plans didn't work as I was alive. i was safe though and that made me somewhat happy. Apparently some sort of miracle had happened, but I dont like doctors. I havnt liked doctors since they told me I had social anxiety and depression. I didnt go back once they told me that. They don't get to tell me that my brain is in some way fucked up. But i had then gone into a coma and I had woken up. They did tests and i have pretty much slept since then. I had extreme night terrors mainly about that dick Andy. But at that moment I was having a sweet dream about Gerard. He was telling me what I mean to him. A tear fell down my cheek as I wished this was reality.

"i love you too." I whispered. Suddenly there was silence. "Hannah? HANNAH?" My eyes shot open. Wait, was that Gerard. No it couldnt be I was miles away from home and he doesnt care for me anymore. But he looked so real. I looked down at my hand, i could feel his holding mine. "Gee?" I must looked stunned. "Yeah honey?" I started to cry. He ran over and hugged me. "I thought you didnt care anymore." He looked shocked. "Hannah there is nothing in the world that could stop me caring. I live you with every thing in my body. You mean the world to me. i never gave up searching for you. Im just so happy I can hold you in my arms once again." I was sobbing loudly into his embrace. We stayed like that for I dont know how many hours but I wish I couldve spent eternity in that moment.

when we released I saw Frank Mikey and Jenny in the doorway. They all rushed over and hugged me. This is possibly the happiest iv been in a while. But something was picking at the back of my mind. Something hanging over this special moment that they didnt notice. Why would anyone want to be with someone as broken as me? Why would you be my friend if you had to deal with all my shit. And how could you love someome so scarred and bruised and disturbed. How could anyone want me? Especially Gerard, he wouldnt want me. No one will want me. Maybe what Andy said was true.

Notes

Ahhhhhh guys im stressing out. It was gard for me to write this as im pretty sure iv got social anxiety but i dont want to tell anyone incase they think badly of me. Iv done my research and Its pretty obvious I do? Guys help me out, what do I do?