The Light Behind Your Eyes

Patrick and Pete were super nice for saving me. I was thankful that they did too. They didn't ask a lot of questions too. It made me feel more comfortable. Monroe on the other hand, was like any other five year old, curious as hell.

"Where is your family?" She asked with her innocent, beautiful eyes.
"Uh-"
"Monroe! Don't be so nosey!" Pete said as he scolded his daughter. He cocked his head towards me.
"I'm sorry Gee.." She said softly, putting her head down.
"It's fine." I smiled.
"Who is Frank?" She asked. Out of the three of them, she was the first one to actually ask. Even though they all wanted to know.
My stomach flipped. "Frank is my.. Friend." I said painfully.
"Where is he?"
I swallowed hard, "somewhere he shouldn't be."
"Why is he there?"
"Because someone took him from me. It's my fault he's there." My eyes quickly started to burn and the car fell silent.

"We have to get some gas. Me and Pete will run in the store to get some snacks, Gerard can you watch Monroe?" Patrick said.
"Yeah." I said quietly. He nodded and left.
"So," Monroe started, "Where is your family?" She asked again.
I hesitated. "I'll tell you if you promise not to tell your daddies, okay?" I said holding out my pinky. She smiled and nodded. "Okay. The truth is, I don't have a family."
She shot me a confused look. "What do you mean?"
"My 'family' lives in a place called the Middle." I proceeded to tell her about me being a Fallen Angel.
"I don't believe you Gee.." She glared at me.
"Okay Monroe," I chuckled, "think of your favorite thing, place, or song and I'll tell you what it was you were thinking." She pictured a garden, rose bushes covered the area, they were white, with red paint, dripping from each petal.
"Okay. What was I thinking of?"
"Wonderland." I said with a smile. Her jaw dropped.
"How did you do that?"
"Like I said, I'm an Angel. Shh.. Your dads are coming back. Remember, don't tell anyone."
"I promise." She smiled again.

A few hours past and it was getting dark.
"Gee?" A sleepy Monroe asked.
"Yeah?"
"Do you love Frank?"
"Yeah..." I sighed.
"Does he love you like my daddies love each other?" She yawned. I saw Pete and Patrick smile at each other. Pete put his hand on Patrick's thigh as he drove into darkness.
"I don't know. But that's okay.."
"Why?" She asked.
"Because, all I care about is his happiness." I smiled and looked down to see a sleeping Monroe, laying on my arm.
"Uh Monroe-"
"Let her sleep Pete. I don't mind." I smiled at him. I looked at the car clock, 11:30pm. I didn't realize it was that late.
"We should find a hotel or something.." Patrick chimed. Pete and I nodded as we drove.

We found a hotel off the highway. I carried Monroe into my bed.
"We can take her if you want, Gerard." Patrick suggested.
"No, it's fine." I said with a smile.

The small corners of Monroe's mouth went up slightly, as I laid her into the bed. "Gee?"
"Yeah, Monroe?"
"My daddies always sing to me when I go to bed. Will you sing to me?"
"Yeah." I chuckled. I laid next to her and she quickly snuggled up to me, laying her little head on my chest. I was surprised by her comfort and smiled. She wiggled her body as she came closer, just like Frank.
"You surrendered your heart,
I surrendered every dream.
Every weapon you've got,
Every secrete that I keep.
You can fight this all want,
But the night belongs to me." I sang and before I knew it, Monroe was asleep again. I watched her tiny chest rise and fall. I wrote down the lyrics I had sang and left the room as quietly as I could. I walked up to the roof so I could feel the warm midnight air.

I realized I wasn't that quiet as I left, because someone followed me. "It's really nice out here." It was Patrick
I turned. "Yeah, it's perfect." I sighed.
"Pete would love it out here."
I sighed. I tried to hold it all back but I didn't care any more. I felt tears forming and my cheeks burn. "So would Frank..."

Notes

Short stuff. Or at least that's what it feels like..
More stuff to come.
Remember I'm on spring break now.
We all know what today.
Killjoys will never die.
My Chemical Romance will live on forever. They're music is eternal and so are the messages. They will always be in my soul and I can't wait to see you all at the reunion tour.
Just remember, besides the music, there's things living for. Don't give up on any dream.
Don't let them get you down.
Keep your head up, no matter what.
Keep living.
Keep burning bright.
Keep the light behind your eyes.
Keep running.
KND.
We all carry on.
I love you,
Stay Ugly.