The Light Behind Your Eyes
Headfirst For Halos
Today, no sunlight hit my room. As I opened my eyes more, I realized there were no windows at all. I had moved into a different room over night or after Helena gave me my pill. The only light was above my bed, giving the rest of my room may shadows. I wished to have the slightest beam of sunlight.
This new room was cold. It made my skin form tiny bumps, making my tattoos look three dimensional.
The light. It wasn't that well. Every now and then it flickered on and off. Sometimes I would just stay off.
The room was giving me the creeps and made me feel extremely uncomfortable. I wished I wasn't here. I wished I wasn't scared. I wished I had...
Gerard...
I honestly couldn't tell if I hated him or if I loved him. I kept having the same nightmare, over and over again. It made me hate him. I made me wish I had never met him, and I wanted him to feel it. I wanted him to feel every ounce of pain that I did when he entered my nightmares. But then I would wake up, wanting and pleading for him to be at my side. Overall, it made me feel insane, and extremely burnt out.
I jumped when I saw a shadow, It's presents made me feel calm and comfortable, something I hadn't felt in a long time. I must be dreaming. It knocked something over and cursed under its breath.
"Fuck.." It muttered.
"Gerard?" I asked, feeling slightly hopeful yet anxious.
"Fuck Iero. I was really trying to be quiet." He whispered softly. "I'm sorry I woke you."
"I was already awake, just resting..." I said, not excepting his apology.
"Oh." He sighed as he moved onto my new bed. "Still..."
The light above us flickered off and I heard Gerard give a small gasp. I couldn't help but laugh softly. I felt him scold me as I tried to hold it in.
"Where's the light?" He asked.
"That was the light..."
"Oh right..."
I felt his hand move across my body. He wrapped one arm around my waist and laid his head on my waist line. He found my hand and squeezed and sighed loudly.
"Frank," He started in a low tone, "I don't want you to hate me."
I replied with silence.
"I don't know what I did, that made you hate me but I-"
"I don't hate you..." I sighed. My head fell down in the darkness. I felt his head look upward as unnoticeable chocolate brown strands fell from my face.
His body sat up and scooted back. "But I-"
"I just don't know why you're trying to scare me..."
"What do you mean, Frank?"
My head shot towards his voice. "Don't play dumb, Gerard. You know what I'm talking about." I said with slight doubt.
"Frank, I haven't visited you in about two weeks." Two weeks. That's how long my dreams had been happening. "I was surprised when I could finally sleep.." He chuckled.
"Well, I didn't take the pill Helena has been giving me after my shower today. Maybe-"
His whole body shook "Pill? What Pill?"
"T-this little blue pill Helena has been giving me. She said-"
"How long have you been taking it, Frank?" His voice was deep and slightly angry. I didn't know what to say. My heart was racing and my body fled with guilt. "Frank?!"
"About two weeks, the same as my nightmares... Gerard?"
"What's it named?"
"I think she called them Halos..."
This new room was cold. It made my skin form tiny bumps, making my tattoos look three dimensional.
The light. It wasn't that well. Every now and then it flickered on and off. Sometimes I would just stay off.
The room was giving me the creeps and made me feel extremely uncomfortable. I wished I wasn't here. I wished I wasn't scared. I wished I had...
Gerard...
I honestly couldn't tell if I hated him or if I loved him. I kept having the same nightmare, over and over again. It made me hate him. I made me wish I had never met him, and I wanted him to feel it. I wanted him to feel every ounce of pain that I did when he entered my nightmares. But then I would wake up, wanting and pleading for him to be at my side. Overall, it made me feel insane, and extremely burnt out.
I jumped when I saw a shadow, It's presents made me feel calm and comfortable, something I hadn't felt in a long time. I must be dreaming. It knocked something over and cursed under its breath.
"Fuck.." It muttered.
"Gerard?" I asked, feeling slightly hopeful yet anxious.
"Fuck Iero. I was really trying to be quiet." He whispered softly. "I'm sorry I woke you."
"I was already awake, just resting..." I said, not excepting his apology.
"Oh." He sighed as he moved onto my new bed. "Still..."
The light above us flickered off and I heard Gerard give a small gasp. I couldn't help but laugh softly. I felt him scold me as I tried to hold it in.
"Where's the light?" He asked.
"That was the light..."
"Oh right..."
I felt his hand move across my body. He wrapped one arm around my waist and laid his head on my waist line. He found my hand and squeezed and sighed loudly.
"Frank," He started in a low tone, "I don't want you to hate me."
I replied with silence.
"I don't know what I did, that made you hate me but I-"
"I don't hate you..." I sighed. My head fell down in the darkness. I felt his head look upward as unnoticeable chocolate brown strands fell from my face.
His body sat up and scooted back. "But I-"
"I just don't know why you're trying to scare me..."
"What do you mean, Frank?"
My head shot towards his voice. "Don't play dumb, Gerard. You know what I'm talking about." I said with slight doubt.
"Frank, I haven't visited you in about two weeks." Two weeks. That's how long my dreams had been happening. "I was surprised when I could finally sleep.." He chuckled.
"Well, I didn't take the pill Helena has been giving me after my shower today. Maybe-"
His whole body shook "Pill? What Pill?"
"T-this little blue pill Helena has been giving me. She said-"
"How long have you been taking it, Frank?" His voice was deep and slightly angry. I didn't know what to say. My heart was racing and my body fled with guilt. "Frank?!"
"About two weeks, the same as my nightmares... Gerard?"
"What's it named?"
"I think she called them Halos..."
Notes
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6/27/14