Found Another Way

"So, sweets, what's your decision?"

SERIOUSLY?! I JUST FUCKING MARRIED THE MAN OF MY DREAMS AFTER YOU PUT ME IN A ORPHANAGE. WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK DO YOU THINK?!

God I wish I could say that to them. What should I do though... during the Party Bob said he's leaving the band to start a family...

"um, dad, could you call the guys in for me?" "Sure" he went down stairs and left me alone with my mom. I haven't seen mom in months, and she's changed. She looked like a model when I was a kid, but now she's just a regular mom.

"i always told you not to stare. Say a compliment or look at the floor." I look at the floor and mumble that she lost weight while I was away. She calls me a compulsive liar and I call her skinny Jane. I know it send off, but those were our Nicknames for each other when I turned 6.

when they all came in, I asked Bob about his family. The guys looked surprised as Bob explained his fiancee (holy fuck) was pregnant.

"so, I sorta gotta quit the band." "And that's where I chose in. Bob told me before he's leaving so I told him that I can play for you guys."

everybody just started and then bust out into laughter at my apparently insane idea. "Blanca, you can't be in the band." "And why the fuck not gee? I can play all the instruments you guys do, and the drums! This would be my reason to stay here!!!"

both my parents looked uncomfortable as the guys thought it over. "Ok, you can be our drummer. BUT ON ONE CONDITION: BEHAVE"

Ray gave me this look of mistrust. "Oh dear Raymond, it's like you don't even know me." Both my parents and foster parents laughed at that last part considering at who I married.

~ the next night~


"ya know mikey, technically this is our honeymoon. I've been told this is the fun part."

after having an entire day of band practice, me and mikey decided to watch a movie and relax in our room. Mcr is supposed to go on a huge tour next week, so this really is our honeymoon.

"you sure you want this?" Mikey gives me this look add I just nod slowly. I was about to lose my virginity to the man I deeply love, so who gives a shit? Sure, I have him a bj once, but this was sex.

he kissed me slowly as I straddled him in rhythm to his favorite song. He smirked halfway though realizing what I was doing. I'm such a musical freak I have to have sex on beat

he started to kiss me deeper as we removed clothes. I started to grind on his dick to tease the shit out of him, but it didn't work. He dug his nails into my hips and flipped me on my back so he could take over. He bit my lip and moved his hands to my back to start playing me like his bass. I was a moaning mess since he was playing "take off your clothes" by morning wood. Oh, the irony.

"just fuck me already asshole." "Horny, aren't we?" "YES!" he laughed and reached for the condom. As he entered me, his eyes began to sparkle. He moved slow just to drive me crazy, but it was the kind of rhythm in a love song. Speaking of love songs...

"are you f-fu-fucking me to the beat of dem-olition lovers?" He laughed and nodded as I began to feel myself getting closer to a climax. I f frantically searched for his hands and we both came as we linked together.

"never in my life have I made love like that! Wow" I giggled at his amazement and kiss my husband good night. My true love...

~2 weeks later~

we played a local show in Chicago, and we were killing it!
halfway through the show, Gerard tells the crowd that and mikey are going to switch. I hop in front of the drums as mikey hands me his bass. We kiss, the crowd awes and we begin.

after I played a couple of songs and go nuts, I start to feel nauseous. I try to hide it and keep smiling, and then I fall. I managed to keep playing as Gerard and Frank picked me up, then I just sat on the floor. Gerard said well keep me in front the rest of the show, and I almost panic.

before we played Helena I casually ran to the side if the stage and throw up in a plastic bag Lynz brought me. Halfway through I happen to fall again and can't get back up.

"alright, well I think blanca might be drunk, so goodnight!" Gerard says as Frank and Ray pick me up to the side. Someone called a doctor as they layed me on the table to examine me.

"have you been drinking?" "I'm underage" the doctor looks at me as though I was lying. I shrug as he continued.

"did you eat anything that could have possibly given you nausea?"
"No" "are you sexually active?"
i shook my head as Ray Glared at me and mikey. He had one rule, and I know he's gonna lecture me about it later.

"well, young lady, it appears as though you have the symptoms of pregnancy. You should probably check with a OBGYN." "WHAT?! NO NO NO I CANNOT BE PREGNANT!" I looked at mikey to see his reaction, but he looked as though he wanted me pregnant.

~9 months later~

so, I really was pregnant. With a little girl too. The entire tour I stayed behind the drums and nobody seemed to notice I was getting bigger.

i played almost the entire show perfectly fine, but it wasn't until Helena that my water broke. I panicked and just stopped playing. I grabbed the nearest mic and interrupted Gerard as I said " ladies and gentlemen, kitty of mindless self indulgence is going to finish this song!". The guys looked at me in shock as I ran away and she took over.

i made it to the side stage and sat down. I was exhausted and didn't want to move, but I should've gone to the hospital because my contractions were getting closer.

"blanca, are you ok?" "Mikey, the baby's coming!" Everybody Began to freak out as I stood up and clutched a wall.
"lindsey, you know how to deliver a kid?!" She says yea as I prepared myself for what was about to begin.

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"one last push blanca!" "She's here!" I fell to my knees since I heard a baby cry. I turn around to see everyone smiling at mikey holding little Alice way.

"blanca, thank you. You gave me a baby, true love, everything. Thank you for marrying me, giving me hope, just thank you."

i got up on weak knees and went over to him. I looked at my little girl and her big Brown eyes. I looked at mikey and kissed him not with lust, but with an indescribably warm feeling in my gut

"thank you for loving me. I hated everything- including myself -until you came along. You gave me a daytime, nighttime, and a eternity in one kiss. I couldn't imagine my life without you. Jesus, it should be illegal for living someone this much! But I'm glad it's not, because I'll love you until my last breath In heaven. Loving you is the only thing I know how to do correctly, because You taught me to love myself."

we kissed as people awed in the background and took Alice home.

Notes

Final chapter! This was fun, hope to make more stories. If you don't want more of my writing, go check out my Ray toro fic, " the only hope for me is..."

bye!!!!