Remembrance

"Frank!" I yelled as the shorter man walked into the hospital room. I was going to jump off the bed and run to him, but I remembered the IV's hooked into my arms that Gerard hated so much to see.

"Skylar!" Frank smiled as he ran to my bed side and pulled me into a giant hug. I couldn't wipe the huge grin off my face - and I really didn't want to. I felt suddenly emotional because I really didn't want any of these men to see me in such a condition. i looked horrible, and felt it too, but for the people I love most to brace my pale skin and dry lips every day with courage only made me admire them more.

"Thank you for coming." I said quietly, to avoid hearing my own voice wavering from holding back the tears.

"Anytime." He replied, pulling from the hug to look at me. I self-consciously looked down. After a second he looked away and pulled a seat up to my bed with the rest of the guys. I laid my head on the pillow, facing the window overlooking the polluted sky.

"Am I done all the tests now?" I asked no one in particular. Gerard sighed and I suddenly felt like a burden on all of them. i was keeping them here - wasn't I?

"We are just waiting for the results now. They said they were lucky they got your shoulder back in place before it got any worse, but they didn't know why you were having such extreme headaches, so they did tests for everything - even cancer." Ray told not only me, but himself and the other guys too. " I'm sure your fine though."

"I hope so." Mikey said, joining my gaze over the hazy horizon.

I drifted off into a deep sleep before awakening to the sound of knocking at the door. i sat up with a start as the other guys rubbed their eyes and looked around while yawning. The knocking came again and Ray walked to the door and opened it.

"Skylar Verisity?" The doctor asked, face pained as he stood in the doorway.

"Mhm?" I hummed nervously. He walked in and looked around the room.

"And who is her guardian?" The doctor asked, looking around the room at the guys.

"I am." Ray volunteered.

"If the others could please exit the patients' areas, visiting hours are over. You can all return at 9 AM tomorrow or sleep in the waiting room provided just outside the limitations of the patients' designated area." The doctor informed them. Frank, Gerard and Mikey sighed, walking out the room and to where ever they were to stay while Ray walked over to my bedside and took the seat, stroking my hair softly.

The doctor shut the door before stepping into the room more and smiling at me in a childish way. "How are you feeling today?"

"Honestly, the worst I have, and obviously since you are treating me as an infant and late for telling me the results to the countless tests I've been through today, you don't want to be here with me, so if we could speed this along please?" I spat at him. He looked shocked for a second before looking at the papers he has carried in with him then to Ray.

"She has the earliest stage possible of Brain Stem Glioma. It will be easily treated with few medications and maybe one surgery and luckily her insurance is impeccable and covers everything, so no need to worry about that. She'll be stay in in the hospital for at least one month for all this then you are free to take her." The doctor said quickly. Ray's eyes widened and he clasped his hand over his mouth. it didn't matter that the doctor had false promises of an easy way through this cancer, we all knew this was going to be a shitty path.

"May I please invite back in my other friends?" I asked in a small, wavering voice filled with emotions as i stared as the sterile hospital sheets that covered my small legs.

"If you must." The doctor sighed in some kind of disgust. "I'll send them back in for you. I hope you feel better."

"Thanks, you too." I replied in his same smug tone.

I narrowed my eyes at him as he left, shutting the door quietly behind him.

I sighed as his presence left and looked at the oddly tiled ceiling. I felt Ray's constant gaze on me and felt a little nervous before finally meeting it. Tears I hadn't seen from far were rushing down his cheeks. I crawled closer to him and wrapped my arms around his shoulders as best I could. I kissed away the tears on his cheeks as my own began to fall. I didn't even notice that the guys had walked back in.

"Aw, that's so cute." Frank giggled at me kissing Ray's cheeks before we both looked at him with tear filled eyes and sadness. They all walked over slowly and I didn't want them seeing me in my weakest moments, so I buried my face in Ray's neck and sniffled back my sobs.

"Ray..." Gerard cautioned. "What did he say?"

"She has cancer." He whispered through my hair. I sobbed into Ray's shoulder loudly before stiffing the sounds again.

"Oh my god." I heard Mikey gasp. I pushed back my emotions and stopped crying completely before pulling my face from Ray's shoulder.

"I-I'm so sorry." Gerard said, his voice going high and eyes getting teary as Frank rubbed his eyes and Mikey just stared at our pity party in disbelief.

"Th-The doctor said i-it could be a fast tr-treatment." I encouraged with too much sadness in my voice.

"I'm just so sorry." Gerard said, walking over to Ray and my hug and joining in. Frank and Mikey joined and soon we were just a sobbing mess around my hospital bed.

We all pulled from the hug and I individually kissed all of their cheeks and wiped their tears.

"You know, I love all of you so much it scares me." i said weakly. They laughed soflty.

"We love you just as much." Frank replied with a small smile.

"If not more." Ray added, hugging me and laying me back in my bed. "Now sleep. Please."

Notes

I'm so sorry, too. Forgive me. please.