You're Never Just A 'Nobody'

Getting into the touring van was extremely awkward for me. Despite our attempt to keep the pregnancy a secret- Mikey obviously knew, Frank was told when we were practically kicked out of Gerard's house, honestly I couldn't care less if Ray and Bob knew, I was too busy stressing.

Maggie had offered to let me stay with her during the situation, but she would have no idea what to do, and I couldn't bring myself to give her all the difficulty.

"Are you okay?" Gerard asked. We were currently squished together in the back of the van.

"I'm fine," I whispers, "I just think we're growing up too fast,
I mean, one moment we're students at NYU and the next we're touring in the back for a van carrying a baby." Gerard sighs and nods in agreement,

"Growing up is a good thing." He beamed, "Just don't worry about it okay? I'm still here, I love you and our baby, nothing will change that okay?" His smile brightens up, causing me to do the same. I rest my head on his shoulder and fall asleep during the rest of the ride.

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The tour went on for another three weeks, just touring around the East Coast. It was constant car rides and performances. It was unclean and annoying but we were making money. Each gig drew a bigger crowd and more CDs were getting sold.

By the time we got back to New Jersey, I had noticed I had a slight baby bump appearing; which was strange-yes- because I hadn't been pregnant for long.
Gerard thought this was the best news ever. I personally think he's the only one that's excited about the baby.

"Are you happy to be in a real bed?" Gerard asked me, smirking slightly,

"Fuck yes." He laughed at my response, kissed my quickly and went down stairs to grab some food.

I sat in bed and wondered about the baby. What gender it would be, who it would look more like. I rested my head on the soft pillow and closed my eyes. A couple seconds passed and I felt a painful twinge shot through my body. I started to feel a bit dizzy and decided to go to the bathroom, only then did I realize I was bleeding.


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Gerard had dropped everything and raced me to the hospital. We had waited for a while but luckily got checked earlier then I had imagined.

The doctor had run some tests that were all over by 10 minutes. We were currently waiting in a hospital bed, Gerard on one side with my hands in his and his head down. A couple minutes had passed and the doctor came back,

"Gerard and Avalon...Way?" He asked,

"I'm Gerard Way, she's Avalon Jones." Gerard replied quickly,

"Okay..." He sighed before starting again, "Well, it seems as if you've had a miscarriage. You're not pregnant."

"W-What?" I stuttered.

I looked over at Gerard, he was staring right at the doctor, looking... angry.

"How did this happen?" He asked through gritted teeth.

"A miscarriage can be caused by many things, drugs, cigarettes, DNA, blood supplies.... things like that." We understood and were given the chance to leave, which we gladly took.

"Ava, is this my fault?" Gerard asked, clearly blaming himself.

"It's no ones fault, Gee. It's alright okay? You can't blame yourself, you can't blame me. I don't blame anyone. But all I need you to do is to support me and not play the blame game." I said firmly.

He out his arm around my shoulder and hugged me tightly.

"I love you, Ava."

"I love you too Gee. Any guy would have run a mike by now. You're one of a kind."

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