You're Never Just A 'Nobody'

Before I start this chapter I just want to say I'm really sorry for a lot of time lapses, I just re read this whole story and realized I'm taking it slow ((sorry)) so there will be millions of them in the next few chapters. Thanks ^.^
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* Three Weeks Later *

Once I walk out of that exam hall my time at NYU will be over. Completely finished. I will no longer need to be here. And when June arrives, Maggie's and my dorm room will be expired, as both of us will be, done.
It fascinates and yet upsets me that we'll be out of here, Maggie and I had bought a nice apartment for the both of us to live in when we graduate. Simple setting, similar to our dorm actually. Gerard had also bought an apartment, but this time living with Mikey.

Gerard and I were still upset about my vacation after I graduate, but we promised if worse comes to worse, I will be back in two months.
Gerard still didn't think he could last that long, because like I said; we weren't that couple that could handle long distance,
its impossible for us.
My mother had gotten me a simple job in a cafe, she also spoke to the owners about setting my artwork on display around the shop, which they kindly agreed on letting me do.

After 30 more minutes of the exam, I was complete. I was finished. I smiled to myself as I walked over and handed my sheets in, and practically skipped put of the room.
Gerard stood opposite the exit, and when he saw me, he had a smile across his face just as big as mine. He raced up to me, hugging me and spinning me around and finally bringing his lips down to mine.

"Congrats loser, you've graduated!" He said, hugging me once again.

"God Gerard, I can't believe it, I'm not a NYU student anymore.."

"Oh please, once a NYU student, always an NYU student." He replies, brushing my hair out of my face. We kept our stare with eachother for a long time; I knew he was thinking the same thing, I could see it in his eyes.

Now that I'm graduated, I'll be leaving.

The sadness in his eyes engulfed me, making guilt wash over my body. He kept quiet though, obviously trying to act fine about us being away from eachother for a long time, but I knew he was dying inside; and so was I.

"Come on, let's go back to your dorm and celebrate!" He bursts out, breaking the awkward silence...

------------- 2 days later --------------

"Avaaaaaaaaa"

I heard Gerard's voice come into the room as he enter the dorm. I was up at the kitchen making my tea. Yeah maybe I like drinking tea at 5pm.
His arms went around my waist as he came closer to me, his nose pressed up against mine.

"You didn't come around last night!" He wines, his breath on my face. I laugh and push him away from me,

"Sorry Gee, I fell asleep at 9pm last night." I say, taking a sip of my tea,

"Can I take you out for dinner? It was the first night in forever I didn't see you yesterday and I wanna make up for it,"

"Umm, Gee it's fine, don't worry about it-"

"Are you trying to ignore me because you don't want the goodbye to be so hard tomorrow?" He cuts me off, a serious tone on his voice.
My face softens. He knows exactly what I'm trying to do. Fuck it.

"What? No, Gerard no." I say, crossing my arms in front of my body, walking over to my room,

"Avalon, please don't make this hard for me, I love you for fucks sake, I don't want our last night to be spent like this!" He pleads, following me into my room.

"Gerard, I love you too, I just need to be alone right now, iv gotta sort things our for tomorrow." I reply, not giving him any pity even though I want to.

"Fuck it, how about you sort out your head first-" He pushes past me in anger, "- Call me when you do."

"Gerard, are you breaking up with me?" I ask, now my voice full with sadness and a pleading tone,

"Just call me when you've made up your fucking mind" And with that, he slams my dorm door.
Hes gone.
Youve fucked up.

All you wanted was an easy goodbye and now the best boyfriend you've ever had as possibly broken up with you.
Fuck.

----------------- The Next Morning -----------------


Arriving at the airport that morning alone was very depressing.
I guess you could say depressing. I was so close from stopping at Gerard's room and apologizing, but I couldn't do it.
I just couldn't fucking do it.
I remembered his words he said to me
'call me when you've sorted your head out'

Have I sorted it out? Was I making a mistake of not spending time with Gerard?
I feel like fucking shit.

When my plane took off, I say there and thought a little deeper.
You have ruined it, Ava. You dipshit.

I made the most of my plane ride by just sleeping. Sleeping and forgetting everythin that's happened and hoping the next two months go fast as fuck so I can go back... Back to Gerard...

Notes

A/N

HEEYYY YOUNG BLOODS ^.^
i lost my netball game today so have a sad chapter.

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