You're Never Just A 'Nobody'

* Gerard's P.O.V. ooooo *

I wake with a horrible headache, it doesn't affect me that much as this has happened over the past 2 weeks, constantly. But this morning, I feel a lot guiltier. I flick my eyes open to see a body wrapped up in the sheets and my arms.
Ava.
She smells like her strawberrie shampoo. Her breath is slow, she looks as if she's floating on cloud nine.
She's gorgeous. With her back hair spread out amoung her pillow, her leg is wrapped about one of mine. This all feels like we're in a movie, ya know, acting all 'in love'.

I take my arms away from her, the headache coming back to me as I stretch. I try my best not to wake Ava as I climb over the top of her, making my way into the kitchen and finding the the painkillers. I take some and put them in my mouth, reaching out for a glass and filling it with water to wash them down. I fumble around the kitchen. I decide to make Ava some breakfast, just for the fun of it.

Taking out the bacon, eggs and pancake mix, sorting everything out and start cooking, I hear the bedroom door open and shut. I turn my attention to Ava, walking into the kitchen. She smiles at me, her smile fading when she lays eyes on the breakfast,

"Did you make this?" She asks, her eyes beaming at me, for a second in afriad to answer her, i give her a simple nod.

"You didn't have to, Gee," She says it again, everytime she calls me by 'Gee' it gives me goosebumps, I smike for a second, "- But thankyou. How long have you been up for?" She continues, taking out a mug and making herself some tea.

"About 20 minutes." I reply, finishing the breakfast off, handing her plate over, she thanks me and walks over to the table with her tea and breakfast; not long after I join her.

We sit there in silence, eating. I think more and more as the time passes by, I think about what happened last night.
When Ava told me she hated seeing my face, how she slapped me. Honestly for a second there, her getting all angry was a total turn on.
Gerard, keep it in your pants.

I can't stop myself before asking her,

"I-uh, you don't still hate me.. right?" I ask, looking up at her. She stops for a little bit. Just freezing. She gives me an unsteady look,

"No. I don't hate you. I just, very disappointed. You told me how amazing you thought I was, took me out on dates and acted as if we were a couple-" She was thinking the same way?! "- you even told me you weren't seeing Serenity again. And thats what exactly happened. You started disappearing and drinking again, we were all worried, ya know. Frank and Maggie were upset, but not as bad as me. I would sometimes blame myself for your absences, thinking I had said or done something to you that offended you." I can tell she knows I know where she's going.

I stand up, taking her in my embrace. She sniffles into my shirt, I stroke her hair while we stand there, together, hugging.

"I'm so sorry Ava. I had no idea. I just thought I couldn't please you enough, to show you how much I care about you. Because honestly, it's a whole fucking lot." She looks into my eyes, I lower my hands down her back and grip her hips,
"Ava, I really like you, I just wanted you to know-"
Im cut off by her lips coming in contact with mine, Her lips are sweet and soft, like her. She shuffles closer into me while I kiss her back, showing affection back to her. I slip my tongue into her mouth, exploring it. She runs her hands up my chest, making me moan against her lips, and tangling her fingers into my messy black hair. Pulling her closer, I pick her up, her legs wrap around my waist.

I walk over to the couch, setting her down on it. We part for the slightest bit before I kiss her again, this time with a lot more passion. I reach for her pajama shirt, not waiting any longer. I rip it from her body as she does the same with mine.
I rub her stomach while trailing kisses down her neck to her breasts.
She start to pant a little. I stop and look at her, not wanting to force her to do anything she doesn't want to. She has a worried look in her eyes as she looks down at me.

"i-I'm sorry," I fumble over my words. Grabbing her shirt and placing it back over her head, doing the same with mine after.

"No, no. It's fine." She says, smiling, "Like I mean, I just don't like being in this situation witch a guy when we aren't in a relationship or anything" She finishes off. Looking down playing with her fingers.

"Does this mean I have an excuse to ask you to be my girlfriend?" I ask.

"I-I, W-we can't. Not yet, at least. Just wait for things to settle, please." She begs, looking back up at me,

I understand where she's coming from. I can't just waltz in here, make her breakfast and almost demand her to do me and then expect her to be my girlfriend. I think old wounds have to heal before we deicide further arrangements.

I take her hand in mine, I bring my face close to hers,

"I would wait a lifetime for you, Avalon."

Notes

A/N

a quick chapter bc it's 10:30pm and me being a loser and having school tomorrow I'm going to bed early.

sorry for the bipolar-ish chapters. Another big thing will happen soon, and yes, maybe one day I will grow the balls and write some smut for you guys.

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