You're Never Just A 'Nobody'

About two weeks have past since my birthday party, in which I very much enjoyed. Gerard, Frank, Maggie and I spend a lot of our free time together, whether it be going to basketball games or to the movies, anything in general, we all do it together.

Gerard has been, a bit distant between me. Sometimes I get the feeling he's seeing Serenity. He will skip classes, not text me and sometimes he won't join our outings. Frank notices too, not as much as me as him and Maggie are in a relationship. Yep. It's official.
Anyway, Gerard has just been, different all the sudden.

With Franks birthday coming up, we all planned to go Trick or Treating, and then going back to his dorm to party. He said he doesn't want a casual party, he wants a massive one.

But back to reality, I'm actually in Franks dorm having a cup of tea. He texted me a couple minutes ago saying that he needs to talk, which I get nervous at and arrive looking like I ran a marathon. He pulled me into the dorm room, looking around curiously before reentering.
And now we're here just sipping tea. Hmm. Very suspicious Frank.

"Is this all I'm here for? Because you needed someone to drink tea with?" I question him. He gulps his remains of his tea down and looks at me. Studying me, like I'm his book he doesn't understand anything about.

"No, I just wanted your opinion on something," He stops and looks away from my face, "something about Gerard."
The way he says his name has a hint of annoyance in it. None of us know where he goes or what he gets up to, not even Mikey.

"Oh.. Okay. Talk to me then." I reply, wanting to know everything he thinks about Gerard.

"Okay.. well, I think he's drinking again" He says, scared.
"See, he came back the other night at like, 2am. He asked if I was awake, which I was, but I didn't say anything in response, wanting to know what he was up too." He pauses for a while, "Anyway, I woke up when I knew he had fallen asleep. He had changed into some pajamas, I found the clothes he had on previously. Ava, they smelt like fucking vodka. Gerard never drinks fucking vodka" He looks at my face again, searching for hope.

"What are you suggesting?"

"Ill tell you the one thing I want your opinion on, Serenity drinks vodka, Gerard drinks beer. Whenever they used to hook up, Gerard would start on the vodka. Does that seem funny to you?" He replies. Waiting for him to speak up again, we just sit there in complete silence.

Of course he wasn't going to drop Serenity. Of fucking course he wouldn't. Of course he doesn't like me the way I thought he did. No one has even been like that towards me, why would you think it would happen with some fucked up ex-drug addiction in your art class. I don't notice it, but tears burl my vision and pour down my cheek. Frank runs over to me and takes me in his lap, soothing me.

"O-o-of fu-fucking course I w-was j-j-just some fucking t-toy to hi-him. He n-n-never sh-showed any in-interest in me. F-f-fucking hell F-frank." I sob something like that into his jacket, he strokes my hair and calms me down.

"Shhhhh, Ava, that's what I think. I'll talk to him okay? I'll let him know you came around and that-"

"No, no no no, don't let him know I was here, talking about him and Serenity." I say. I don't want him to think I'm some jealous girl that's worried sick about him. No. Not any more.

"Are you sure?" Frank asks.

"Positive." I reply. He nods and continues stroking my hair. I'm not crying anymore, but I still enjoy Franks company. We sit there for about another 20 minutes. The door swings open to reveal, Gerard.

He looks between Frank and I, huddled up in the dining room chair. One of Franks arms are around my waist and the other is rested on my head. Gerard stands there, his mouth dropped open.

"I think I'm going to go. Thanks Frank. Tell me if anything happens" I turn back to face Gerard, "Close your mouth, you're going to catch fucking flies." I reply, not even looking him in the eyes. He shuts his mouth and begins to talk, but I'm out of the room before he can even get a word in.

I march through the halls and take the elevator down to ground floor. I run out of the building, tears flowing down my face. I find myself at the park I was in a couple weeks ago, I find the rundown bench and sit at it, letting the pain get to me.

Letting the feelings I thought Gerard and I had for each other, just leave me.

Notes

A/N

HEEEYYYY YOUNG BLOODS!! I re-wrote this chapter bc I wasn't happy with it previously,, sorry D:
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