The World Is Ugly But Your Beautiful To Me

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‘Shit!’ it was the first day of school. Great. Its September. my mother, my sister and I spent the whole summer packing. I moved from my lovely sunny home in California for New Jersey. Moving meant new school, new subjects, and new people staring at me and of course new bullies. Joy.
I am a bit of an outsider. I always pushed people away and never wanted to make friends, which wasn’t hard because no one wanted to be friends with me anyway. I was what they called a ‘emo’. I had always thought of myself as normal and everyone else was the weirdo’s. Obviously not.
‘You ready Roxy?’
‘Yea I will be down in a minute!’
Shit! First day of school and I’m already late.
‘Mom? How am I gonna get to school?’
‘Oh yes! The neighbour’s son, Gerard is in your class. He will be taking you to school every day’
I ran into the kitchen, furious that I didn’t get this told this earlier.
‘What? And you just randomly forgot to tell me this? What the hell mom?’ I screamed at her.
She looked shocked. She clearly didn’t understand how hard and awkward this will be for me. ‘don’t talk to me like that Roxy, now I’m done talking go sit in the garden or something and wait for Gerard!’
Ugh. This is awful. Sometimes I honestly think my mother is retarded. I walked out of the kitchen staring at my feet, fed up with everyone.
‘hey fucktard. Where you going eh?’
I jumped back , a bit startled. It was my sister Vikki.
‘whats it to you? I don’t remember you being made my personal bodyguard’ I stared at her coldly.
‘oh ha ha you little shit’ she kicked me and I fell
‘WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? JESUS CHRIST VIKKI’ I screamed at her face. My leg really hurt now.
‘fight me then if your so fucking hard you piece of dog shit! Haha does the little babies leg hurt hmm? You pathetic little cunt fuck!’
I tried to walk past her but as I did she pushed me, making me trip this time.
I sat in my garden, tears streaming down my face. Vikki was always so horrible to me. Before my mother adopted me everyone loved Vikki so much. She blames me for her being so misunderstood. It was my fault. I ruin everyone lives. I’m that phone ringing in the middle of a funeral. The crying baby in an art gallery. A fuck up.
I sat on my garden wall waiting for this guy Gerard.
In the middle of thinking of how Gerard sounded like a creepy old man’s name, a car pulled up outside my house.
A tall young boy stepped out of the car. No creepy old man. He turned around and I saw his face.
OH. HOLY. SHIT.
He is beautiful.
He is about 5’9, with jet black hair he was wearing a smashing pumpkins shirt and black skinny jeans
‘Hi. Are you Roxy?’
His voice is angelic. I started to stare at him, hoping I wasn’t dreaming.
‘Oh, yea. Yea I’m Roxy’ I said while flicking my hair out of my face. Our eyes caught and all of a sudden I was in a large black room. It was messy and had posters everywhere. I was lying on a small bed with black sheets on it. I was wearing a midnight blue bra and panties. I rolled over on the bed and I was facing Gerard.
‘I love you rox’ he smiled at me and we started to kiss. It was so intense. The feeling of his tongue in my mouth was amazing. I started to kiss back. Our mouths moving together in a perfect motion. Before I knew it his hands were undoing my bra and my hands were sliding down his back and into his boxers. My bra was now lying on the floor. Gerards hands had moved from my back to my the inside of my panties….
I was back to reality. I was sitting on my wall again.
‘what the fuck just happened?’ Gerard whispered. Did he see what I just did?
‘err Gerard? Did you just have a vision?’ I really hope he said yes or I would sound like a idiot.
‘yes…I had a vision we were in my bedroom and we..’ he swallowed and rubbed the back of his neck. This was getting awkward.
‘emm, I think we should get going..’I said, breaking the silent.
‘best idea I have heard all day’ he said as he walked towards his car.

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