Im Okay Now

**Gerard's pov**

I was in an after school meeting when I got a text from Mikey that said that he saw Katy, who was clearly scared as shit, hop into a car that then sped off with a man behind the wheel. When I read that text my mouth dropped to the ground and I quickly stood up from my chair and rushed out of the room without saying a word knowing that everyone's eyes where on me but I didn't care, the only thing on my mind was Katy's safety and that's all I cared about right now. I practically ran out of the school and to my car with my keys in my hand and hopped over the door and into the drivers seat of my convertible. I began speeding down the streets going as fast as I could without getting caught by the police, that was the last thing I needed. My Ming started to run wild and It suddenly hit me. It all made sence now, how she was so scared last night, whenever I passed her in the hallways today she didn't even bother to give me a smile, how she ran away from Mikey when he was going to taker her back to our house. Had she known about this? Of course she did! But who took her and why? Then it came to me. It was her dad, who els would kidnap a girl in front of a school where many people where. I took off hoping to find her house.
After about five minutes of driving I realized I had no idea where I was going, after all I've only been to her house that one time and I begain to become very aggravated when I couldn't find her house after 39 minutes of searching. I could feel tears build up in my eyes just thinking about all the things that the monster could have done to her already, the women I loved was gone, I almost had her and now she slipped away from my grasp so quickly. It's like it was just yesterday when I first laid eyes on her in my classroom and I stared into her beautiful green eyes as they stared back into mine. I miss her already and I won't stop searching for her, even after the world crashes, I will find her. After another few minuets of searching around the neighborhood I decided to give Mikey a call, maybe he would know something. The phone rang three times which felt like three weeks to me, but he finally picked up. I could barley here his voice over my sobs, but I told him what was happening and he gave me the name of the road of where he thinks she lives. I quickly hung up and and drove off in that direction ready to save my Katy.
As I drove down the quiet road I noticed that my surroundings started too look familiar, I must be close. I continued to drive and I could feel my body start to become very stiff, but having the wind blow in my hair calmed me down a little bit, but not enough. I could feel my heart do a little dance When I saw the small blue house that I remembered Katy entering that first night when I realized that I felt something for her, I emmidetly pulled over on the other side of the road and ran up to the front door. I heard a loud, blood piercing scream coming from the top floor, this man was going to regret ever laying a hand on Katy. Without hesitation I slammed the front door open and ran upstairs guessing my way around the small house until I found the room I was looking for. The house grew quiet and the only sound anyone could hear would be my heart bound to jump out of my chest. I violently shook the door handle but fuck! It was locked. I could feel myself start to panic even more then I was before just thinking about all the things he could have done to her in the past hour. My mind started to grow crazy and I could feel myself start to break down. Using all my force I slammed my foot against the door and was relieved to see that it worked, I broke down the door and entered the small room and the first thing I noticed was a man standing over Katy's body. The only thing I felt was my heart shatter.
Her once perfect body now torn apart. She wasn't wearing any pants so you could see all the bruises and cuts that lay on her skin covering both of her legs. I could see blood pouring out of the new cuts that where formed on her arm. Even tho I could see her stomach moving showing that she was still breathing, all color has been completely removed from her face

I couldn't take this anymore, knowing the person that did this too her is still living and breathing well wail this perfect girl suffers every second she is in this house. Anger filled my should as I looked up at the monster of a creature that was standing by the foot of the bed looking at me with wide eyes knowing what was gonna happen. I did something I have never done before, something I haven't even thought about doing. I could feel my brain grow hot and I lifted myself off of the ground and leaped at the hideous creature knocking him to the ground creating a huge thud and making the floor shake. I could see that hurt him a lot by the tears that fell from his eyes but it will never be enough to make up for what he did to Katy. I bet he never cried as he cut her beautiful skin as she begged him to stop. I began to punch him multiple times all over his face, feeling the blood that got on my knuckles and it felt good getting out all my anger for him. My legs where on either side of his body keeping him pinned down to the floor. With all my strength I hit him hard in the noes causing a big crack. I could feel sweat build up in my scalp and When I looked down I noticed that His whole face was now covered in blood and his bone was sticking out of his noes. I smiled at my successes for screwing him up but no matter how long I did this, It seemed like he will never feel enough pain too make up for what he has done to my gourgous Katy. All the physical and mental pain she has felt because of him will never be enough for a fist to make him feel. For fucks sake she has cut herself over the words he made her believe! I slowly roes up from my squatting position and started to kick him in the stomach harder then I could ever kick anyone. Oh how much I wanted to kill him right here and right now but I don't want to be filed in for murder and it would hurt Katy knowing what I've done. Then I remembered that Katy was in the room still in pain so After I did what I needed to to him I picked up Katy as carefully as I could trying my best not to hurt her as I carried her out of that hell house that she once called home and laid her down in the back seat of my car as I drove off to her new home.

**Katy's pov**
I was too scared to open my eyes, after what happened I wanted to keep them shut forever and never look at my father again, knowing that once when my eyes open, he will be standing right at the foot of my bed ready for round two. Something was diffrent, my bed seemed to be a lot bigger and comfier, too bad it was just my imagination talking. I was still scared about what happened and I wish right here and now I could just kill myself.
"I think she's up!" I heard a familiar voice say from down the hall, it sounded like Mikey but considering I hit my head really hard I just imagined that it was my dad getting ready to come back and--- do what he did to me again. I was right when I said that I was going to receive the worst beating of my life, oh I would rather be in hell then where I was. I still refused to open my eyes, it would be easier this way then too look at my dad ever again. I continued to lay in the bed not moving as I felt all the bruises and cuts that sat on my skin, I wondered how they got there but then I remembers I passed out so he could have done a lot to me wail I remained unconscious. It hurt to move and the headache I was feeling hurt like a bitch! I probably got it when he slammed my head against the bed, or maybe when-
"He katy are you up?" Shit my father found me again, this time he probably had the hammer with him and I couldn't bare to watch. I shut my eyes as hard as they could and sucked in all the tears that where falling, with only one thought on my mind: this is how it ends.
"PLEASE DONT HURT ME" I yelled through my sobs. I couldn't take anymore! One more beating and I would be dead! I know it! I felt a hand touch my shoulder and I completely lost my shit. I began screaming at the top of my lungs hoping that someone would hear and come save me.
"Katy it's just me!! Open your fucking eyes! It's me Gerard! And Mikey is right next to you open your eyes and see for yourself!" The voice said, I must be dreaming. I am still at my dad's house and I'm probably dying right now and this is my heaven.
"Katy please open your eyes" another voice spoke, this must be the angles talking trying to lead me towards the light. Well since I am dead nothing els can hurt me so I decided to do what the angles said and open my eyes, . I could see a little bit of light shine through the crack of my eye lids and once they where wide enoughf I noticed I wasn't at the gates of heaven or on the highway to hell, I was just lying in the guest room in the Ways house.
"Is this what heaven really looks like?" I asked really confused, but to my surprise the angles where no other then Mikey and Gerard. They both started chuckling as I laid there on the bed still utterly confused.
"What's so funny" I asked. they both exchanged smirk and sharing some small laughs until Mikey looked at me and started to speak. I could tell that the laughter was fake and they just wanted to somehow make me feel better but right now that would be impossible.
"Honey, your not in heaven, and thankfully your not dead. You just passed out before Gerard came and saved you from your dad" Mikey said in such a kind tone, it took me a while to take in what was happening and to be honest once I did I was kinda disappointed. I would have been nice to end this all, to never worried about a single thing ever again. Maybe I will do it, it's not like anyone's going to miss me. Sure maybe Gerard and Mikey but I just met them, They could easily replace me in a heartbeat. And yes I would miss them but hey, maybe if I get to heaven I will forget about ever meeting them. Maybe just maybe I could end it all.
I begain to cry as I looked down at my watch that read 8pm
"Have I really been asleep for that long!?" I thought out loud.
Mikey replied "Ya, if your hungry I can ju-" but I cut him off
"No it's fine I kinda just want to get some sleep right now, I'm really tired." I lied. I wasn't tired at all I just wanted them to leave so I could kill myself. I know I sound really heartless saying that but at least Gerard and Mikey will have all the troubles of having me live with them and cause them so much drama. Now I had one last decision to make, how. I considered hanging myself but after realizing that their was no place to do it I quickly scratched it off my list. The next bullet on my list was overdosing on Advil, it seems good to me but I remember my ex-boyfriend telling me about his suicide attempt using Advil. I could still hear his sweet gentle voice in the back of my head telling the story all over again. He told me that after taking 10 pills it didn't hurt him as much, and all he remembers is throwing up all the acid in his stomach and he fell to the floor unconscious. The story ended with him being disappointed to find himself waking up in a hospital where his older sister brought him after discovering his dying body. If you are wondering what happened between us, I broke up with him. I found out that he wasn't dating me for the love, he was only doing it for sex which didn't surprise me after hearing all the fake 'I love you's'. everyone tells me I'm good at scenting lies and I have too agree with them, I never let a lie slip past me. Knowing his words saying that it didn't hurt that much to take the pills I decided not to go with it. I needed punishment for being such a worthless slut who is nothing but a wast of space, I needed something that would hurt a lot so I could make up for all the harm I caused the world. I looked at my list only to find I had one last idea: cutting. I had been my friend ever since I was ten and I figured it was my best bet. I'll make the cuts deep and wide so no one would be able to stop me from doing it, making sure I felt enough pain to satisfy my mind. My thoughts where interrupted by a knock at my door that must have made my heart jump, I quickly shoved my notebook under the white and black pillowcase that matched the bedding and walked to the door to answer it. It didn't surprise me when I saw Gerard waiting impatiently by the door.
His hair was messy as usual, he used his fingers to brush it out of his face as he walked into my room and plopped himself on the chair that sat right next to the bed, I could tell by the look on his frightened face that he wanted to talk to me and I was defiantly going to be about what my father did.
Honestly I didn't want to talk right now, expeshally about what happened earlier today. I just wanted to hug Gerard forever but from the way he looked he wasn't in the mood. He signaled me to come sit down on the bed and I sighed listen to his orders as I slowly positioned myself in the middle of the bed trying to avoid putting any pressure on my bruises. I looked around the room trying to wast time and take my mind off of things but it dident help much. Everything went completely quiet for a couple of seconds that felt like an eternity for me but as usual he was the one to break the silence.
"Katy,.." He was very hesitant with every word that he said but sadly that didn't stop him from continuing "what exactly did your father do to you?" I could heel my heart start to beat faster and he noticed it too. I really didn't want to answer that question, I wouldn't for anyone. If only I could pretend that today never happened and everyone els would too. I just stared deep into his beautiful hazel eyes that stared back into mine as I felt a tear roll down the side of my cheek.

**flashback**
By now I was at the top of the stairs and my dad still had a grip on my hair, choosing to stay close to him so He wouldn't be able to pull on it so hard. I still refused to cry as he shoved me full force onto the bed that was located in my room, everything went blurry for a second after realizing my head just smashed into the frame of the bed, I could feel it bleeding in the lower back of my head around where my neck is but I was too dizzy to even care at the moment. I felt rope that had many needles pierced threw it become tied around my wrists. He used this weapon on me once before and I found out that the only way the needles wouldn't dig deeper into my skin was if I stayed still and let him tie the other end of the rope to the bed. I started to scream at the top of my lungs as I felt him pull down my pants. This wasn't going to happen, I wouldn't let it.
"SHUT UP!" He screamed at me louder then I've ever heard him yell before, he always scared me before but now this was the worst kind of fear I've ever felt. My blood started to boil in my body But I didn't listen to him telling me to be quiet, I continued to yell hoping someone out there would hear me and come to my rescue.
The last thing I remember was him calling me a worthless slut as his hand smacked against my face knocking me out cold.
**end of flashback**

I completely forgot that I was still staring into Gerard's warm eyes when my mind was done of reminding me of all the horrors of tonight. I didn't even notice that I was crying until I felt Gerard's soft hand wipe my tears off of my cheek. I couldn't do this anymore. I would be scarred for the rest of my life constantly having those flashbacks, there was no point of me living, I wasn't helping anyone. More tears started to fill my eyes and escape as I took one last look at Gerard before I ran into the bathroom with a razor in my hand as I locked the door behind me.

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