Paging Dr. Way

I lay crying and unstable in my hospital bed, scarred even further by toays traigic turn of events.
Oli saved me from doing anything more with Austin which I will be forever grateful for but afterwards he sat down with me to talk.
"Why the hell were you in there Frank?" he asks sternly, obviously mad that he had to save my ass from danger, again.
"I- I don' know." I mumble.
You do know, the voice inside my head echos. You were in there to make Gerard jealous, you wanted to confirm your longing for Gerard by seeing if you had the same feelings around someone else. Now look what you've done. You've fucked yourself up again.
"Something tells me you do know frank."
Tell me about it.
"Fine, I was in there because I'm unsure about my feelings for Gerard. I wanted to see if I got the same pleasurable sensation from him around another person. My trial two failed miserably."
"Trial two?" Skyes asks.
Fuck I've said too much.
"Nothing, now can I just go to sleep?"
"No. What did you mean by trial two?"
"I said it was nothing."
"Well I say it's important so tell me."
"Gerard's my experiment."
"What?" Skyes says confused.
"Yea I'm just as confused about it myself as you are." I mutter.
"Explain now frank."
"I don't know if I like him or not okay, its fucking with my mind, its wrong but I like it."
"It seems like you like him."
"How?"
"I've seen the way you two act around each other, gerard's like a little puppy following you around, and for you he's like your medication."
"I've realized that too, but it still doesn't solve my problem."
"What's the main problem then?" he asks.
"I don't know if I like him or not."
"Well analyze yourself."
"How?" I ask.
"Whats your sexuality?"
Damn... even I cant answer that...
I mean I haven't dated a girl, ever, I never found them very pretty either...
But boys on the other hand, I've always found them more attractive than the girls..
so am I gay?
I guess so...
"I think I'm gay." I mumble.
"I'll let you in on a secret." Skyes whispers.
"What is it?"
"Gerard's Gay too."
"Really?!" I say more excitedly than I should have.
"Yea, he told me after he started looking at the patients funny."
"This is great." I giggle.
Oli laughs at my churlishness.
"Feeling better?"
"Now." I laugh.
"Why don't we go find Gerard then."
"I- I dont want to leave my room," I stutter, afraid of encountering Austin again.
"Dont worry, Austin's been deported to another institution. you're safe here frank." Oli smiles.
"Alright." J say hopping off my bed and leading the way down to the doctors area.
I wait impatiently for Oli to get there so he can scan his card, I walk happily to Gerard's door and knock on it.
I hear sobs from behind the door confused on why my beloved is crying.
"Gerard is everything okay?" I ask as I press my ear to the door.
I hear him shuffle to the door, he opens it quickly and wraps me in his embrace.
I inhale deeply, he smells like cigarettes and coffee.
His shirt is damp, stained with tears.
"Is everything okay?" I ask concerned, caressing his pale cheek.
He shakes his head and sobs into my neck.
I let him cry until he's comfortable with speaking again.
"Do you want to sit down?" I ask nodding towards the bed.
"Yeah." he sniffles.
I take his hand and lead him over to the bed, letting him climb in first then I cuddle into his chest.
"What's wrong Gee?"
"My grandma, she's sick, we don't know how longs shes gonna, last." He hiccups, squeezing my hand for support. I squeeze back and a small smile spread across his face.
"Everything's going to be okay, I'm here now." I stretch up and kiss his tear stained cheek. I feel his cheeks glow warm beneath me and I chuckle.
"You're turning the color of your hair." I grin. This causes him to blush more.
"Look it snowing." I say pointing to the window.
"I love snow." Gerard says, his face lighting up.
"Why don't we go play in it?" I say with a smirk.
"I'll race you to the lobby." He challenges.
"It's on!"

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