True life of frerard

The smell of chemicals and drugs poisoned my nose but I had to put up with it. An hour or two later gerard came out of the operation theater, I sprung to my feet and ran over. "What's happened?!" I looked at gees still pale lifeless face.
"he needs to rest, you can come see him once he's settled" the doctor was looking through the notes not paying any attention to me. I got angry.
"How long?!" I smacked the oh-so-precious notes out of his hands and glared at him.
"g-give him half an hour." After that he swiftly walked off avoiding anything else, I sat back down and cried,
"Mikey...why did he do this?!" I hugged into him whether he wanted me to or not!
"I don't know Frankie...I wish he gave us some sort of sign! As sick as I sound..." He wrapped his arms around me unexpectedly, I nodded and cried.
half an hour passed and I ran down to see gee, who was now awake, scarily pale and looking at his hands disappointedly.
"g-geebear..." I tried not to make him jump and I walked over slowly.
"I'm so sorry..." He looked up and tears rolled down his cheeks and fell onto the hospital gown,
"SHH!! It's ok...don't be sorry!" I ran over and held him carefully in my arms which reminded me of earlier this morning, when he lay practically dead in my embrace. "But...why'd you do it gee?"
"it was all my fault, bert, the fight, the laughter...just everything. It was my fault!" Gerard looked back at his hands and held back his tears trying to act strong. I lifted his head back up and looked deep into his eyes.
"I love you...don't do that again!" I'd pleaded and begged a lot in the past few days but I didn't want anything as much as I wanted that!
"I won't...I promise..." He pulled me in slowly and placed a soft tender kiss to my lips "I'm so sorry"
"no. I'm sorry. I should've been there more and listened other than just thinking of myself!" I gently pulled up his sleeve to examine the stitchings on his left arm. "Your still beautiful to me." As the words slipped from my mouth I saw his face light up a little with a smile.
"You think so?!" His face was blushes red.
" No. I don't think so...I know so!" This time I kissed gee first, still not sure if I should be fine with what he did or angry or depressed about it. But I no longer cared, the only thing I cared about was that Gerard's ok.

Notes

This chapters not very good, sorry :/
~JadeWay XØ