Desolation Row

I didn't have much time, I'm pretty sure the guys were coming over to check on me. "Where the fuck are my luggage's?" I frantically rummaged under my bed until I felt 2 big bags, I pulled them out and quickly threw almost all my clothes, I had to leave some after all I was dead right? I took all my CD's and posters because, fuck that took so long to collect. It was nearing midnight I wrote down my "suicide note" on some scrap piece of paper I found lying around. I don't know why but I started to cry but I wasn't sure why. Maybe it was the fact that I'm going to have to pretend I'm dead for the rest of my life and that I'm leaving the two people I love most in this world behind. I put the note on my pillow then grabbed my phone, bags, and all the hope I had left and headed for the nearest bus stop. Thank god there was already a bus waiting by the stop. I ran over to it and walked to the back. At that moment I got a text from Gerard "Are you okay? Frank told me what he gave you, i'm coming over to check on you, xx" I smiled as a single tear ran down my face and fell onto the screen of my phone, that reminded me, I need to change my number. Fuck where was I going to live, my parents left me with a shit ton of money but where was I going in the first place. I don't know where to go and I'm sure as hell i'm not going to live with my parents anymore, The bus driver ignited the engine as the last passenger walked in. I turned around taking one last glance at my house, my old life, my old bittersweet memories. When I turned to look at my house Gerard was banging on the door but there was someone else, It didn't look like Mikey, Ray or Bo- Frank? Oh right they both remembered how fucking mental I am and probably thought I'd do something stupid again. The bus moved forward as I took one last look at them knowing I wasn't going to see them for years. I blocked all my contacts so that no one could get in touch with me. I was falling asleep to Pierce The Veil as the bus left town. *time lapse to many many hours later* "Sweetie wake up" I felt someone shaking me gently, slowly my eyes fluttered open, what? it's still night? "uh um what time is it and where are we may I ask? My throat hurt like a bitch, "oh honey you've been asleep for a day or so I was very worried but I couldn't stop the drive," "A DAY?" Oh man what the fuck why didn't i wake up to pee or somethin "and we're in Florida by the way" "flORIDA!? I thought we just left New Jersey" "no darling you didn't say a specific place so I just brought you to the last stop where an old looking man got off, I hope you're not to far from ho-" "uhm no it's okay I don't exactly have a home" what the actual fuck. "I understand, there's a diner right outside if you want to eat and stuff, the next bus comes in about an hour or so" "Oh thank you here's your mon-" "no, no you look like you've had a rough time it's okay" Well then, so I hop on a bus at 12am on a monday night. Then I wake up on a Tuesday night. In Florida. That's a lot to take in. I thanked the lady, grabbed my shit and pulled it into the diner. It was like any other diner you'd find, greasy and unsanitary. But considering the state I'm in I couldn't give less of a fuck. I settled down in a booth at the back and rested my head on the table. i probably looked like a fucking mental patient, My eyes were red and puffy, my skin was beyond white, my hair looked like a bird's nest, torn skinny jeans and a baggy La dispute top. I felt so weak, My body felt like a was constantly being run over by a truck. "Hey are you gonna stay like that forever or do you want somethin...." "oh what, fuck sorry" I lifted my head up to see a young looking girl sitting in the booth on the opposite side, probably around my age, eyeliner piercings that kinda shit. "could I have two coffees please" "woah two? are you sure" I nodded my head and smiled "okay then two coffees coming right up" she got up from the seat and went into the kitchen. A few minutes later she came back holding two mugs, she placed them down and sat with me, "so...La Dispute huh? great band" "yeah i like Pierce The Veil too" I added trying to keep the conversation forward "what really!?" I smiled back, she seemed really surprised which was kind of odd "sorry it's just that no one here really likes this kind of music" woah that's fuckin weird back home the guys and I... Fuck Roxy stop it, you're dead, you have no home, the guys don't need you anymore. "uh dude are you okay" I do this thing now where I start crying yet I don't even realise it. "I've just been through some really bad shit lately...really bad shit" "tell me about it, I've got all night" wow really she actually wants to know about my fucked up life? that's new. *15 or something minutes later* "and now I'm here, so yeahhhh...." "wow, damn dude your life is fucked up" I chuckled softly, "oh right my name's Roxy or it was Roxy" I told her about my so called "suicide" and how I just ran away from my problems, "Bonnie" For the rest of the night we just talked about our hobbies and stuff we like. Turns out we have quite a lot in common, she's like the sister I never had. "I know this is kinda weird but do you want to stay with me?" I then only realised that I missed my bus by hours, "oh that's really kind of you but I don't want to get in the way or anythin-" she cut me off, "look you've been through so much shit okay, I don't want you to get hurt and no you wouldn't get in the way, I live alone in my parent's old huge ass house, It gets more lonely than you can imagine. Please stay...DUDE! you could even work here." she seemed pretty desperate for a roomate, plus I could work here and get more money so I said yes. Her eyes lit up while a huge grin spread across her face. "GREAT! We can leave now, my shift is over." Bonnie helped me carry my luggage into the backseat of her car, she blasted music and we sang the lyrics like complete idiots. She lived near the diner in a small neighborhood, She wasn't kidding when she meant 'huge ass house' Goddamn this place was like a palace. We got inside and she let me have choose what room I wanted, there were so many rooms to choose from but I ended up taking the attic since I liked being alone most of the time. I unpacked the few things I brought with me, only a few pairs of skinny jeans and over sized tee shirts and probably like a thousand vinyls and CD's. She saw my collection and started screaming, she ran out the room and came running back in with a Vinyl player. "I NEVER HAD VINYLS SO I JUST KEPT THIS IN THE BASEMENT, IT'S YOURS" she was so excited just looking at my CD's, I let her take some of them since she looked so happy. She hugged me while squealing "thankyouthankyouthankyou" She went out letting me finish unpacking, after that I went for a walk around the house, you know just to see the place. I was walking down the hallway filled with pictures of Bonnie when she was younger I guess. I came up to a picture of a cute little boy with his arm around Bonnie's neck, they must have been like 5 or something. There was just something oddly familiar about that little boy, I just couldn't put my finger on it, "Oh there you are Roxy" "oh yeah, sorry I just wanted to see the place and stuff......uh hey Bonnie who's this?" I pointed to that picture with the boy, "hmm oh that's my mother's best friend's son. They moved away a long time ago, We used to be friends-ish, didn't really like him. Ugh what was his name," she paused for awhile so she could think "Oh right his name's Frank....Iero I think"

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