dear Roxy,

Roxanne Willows, how do I begin to explain you. I love every single thing about you, screw your flaws, you're beautiful. I love your black hair and how it drapes over you oh so perfect face.
I know how much you hate me but I can't handle it anymore, I love you and I miss you. I am so sorry. I am the shittiest person in the world, someone like you should never have to be hurt like that.
I am truly sorry and I know that you'll never going to love me again and that even though I keep saying sorry it's not going to change your feelings for me. Gerard really cares about you and I know now that you care about him too, My heart shatters every time I see you cry but when I see you with Gerard I feel happy because I know you're happy. The guys keep telling me to move on but the truth is, I can't, and I never will.
We all have glass hearts, drop them once and they'll be broken forever and I'll just never forget the fact that I broke yours, I shattered them into a million pieces and I'll never be able to fix it back for you, but Gerard will. he'll slowly pick up the pieces and rebuild your heart only this time, he'll do it stronger.
please don't ever try ending your life again. If you end yours, I'm ending mine. I am sorry.
I love you and I don't think you understand how much you mean to me and I know you never will. Just don't forget that you'll be the only person i'll ever love and I mean this forever.
- frank


I couldn't take this anymore. I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my body. Warm tears streamed down my face. A flash flood of memories came crashing into my mind. That second when I lifted my foot of the ledge at the water tank, the eternal happiness that it would have brought.
No, Roxy don't do it. If I left Frank would too, Gerard would be heart broken and so will the rest of the guys.
I couldn't be selfish this time.
But I mean every thing would be simpler. The guys could get on with they're lives without having to care for me. My parents wouldn't give a shit either.
My life was completely pointless. I didn't want to die anymore I just wanted to disappear for awhile, maybe even forever? I could start a new life. Pack my shit and leave but the only way they'll stop worrying about me is if I'm dead, can I fake it? I mean yeah it sounds crazy but what if I just left tonight leaving a suicide note as an explanation. That way they won't try and find me. This place is making me sick, I need to get away, Ah fuck everything I'm starting over and this time I'm not screwing up.

Notes

GUESS WHO JUST RISED FROM THE DEAD, HOLLA BITCHACHOS sorry I was just dealing with a lot of shit lately, ngehhh. And I just changed everything because I'm an indecisive prick. oH AND I GOT MAY DEATH NEVER STOP YOU SO I WAS BUSY WITH THAT TOO