Behind The Words

Gerard's P.O.V

Beautiful, lively, joyful, soulful, Amazing, my rock, my... Everything. Dead. How could this be?

My mom called me last night with the words I never expected to her. "Gerard.... Your Gradmother... She... Died yesterday... Im sorry.

I had stood there. Frozen. Almost like I was dead myself. And then I realised what my mother just said and I cracked. Cracked into a million pieces. Like glass. I somehow ended up on the floor in a ball the phone on the ground in pieces, with tears streaming down my face, screaming obscenities to my empty apartment.

I didn't go to bed at all that night. The next morning wasnt much better either. The Funeral was on Monday. This being Sunday I decided I needed to buy something nice to wear to the funeral. So I half stumbled, half walked to my car and Drove to the closest store. Not caring what it was. I bought a suit and some new Cologne and went home. At home I lay on my bed in my clothes and thought of my Grandmother. After about an hour of doing that I started crying again. I was falling apart.... And no one could help me.

On the day of the funeral I sat with my parents. I cried. And cried. And cried. Until I thought my heart and body would collapse. I saw her beautiful face and I knew I had to do something to remember her by. So I went to my songbook and I wrote her a song.

Helena - My Chemical Romance

"Long ago, just like the hearse you died to get in again. We are, so very far from you......

I cried the whole way through the song an then cried some more after it was done.

I sent it to the rest of the band and told them to give it to our manager. I knew that I would never forget my grandma or would I be able to stop missing her. But through that song. She will be in the world. In other people's hearts. Just like mine. And I knew that she would be proud of me. No matter what. I was going to make her proud. And I did.

Notes

Wow! I cried writing that! Thanks for reading! Comment if you like it! Also tell me if there any mistakes! Thanks so much!