Beautiful Distraction

it was the next morning at about 8 am. Brendon and Frank sat in the livingroom watching old episodes of Breaking Bad while Gerard and i sat at the kitchen table, talking. really talking. "so, we're leaving next week?" i asked.
"yeah. or until we have enough money for the next few months." he replied.
i paused for a second before asking,"would it be okay if i could maybe stay here?"
"absolutely not."
"why not?"
"you're mine. you go where i go. plus Brendon doesn't want you here. you're coming with me."
"but what if i don't want to go?"i asked.
"you're going and that's final." not to sound selfish but he was being unfair. he didn't seem himself and i knew something was up.
"what ever happened to the old you. the one who actually cared about me and my feelings?" I stated.
"Rose, you don't have a choice. you're coming with me. you do what i say. you. are. mine." he started to get frustrated.
"i was never yours!" i started to yell. "i want to make my own choices and be my own person, not just your toy that you use get off and make money. this past week has been one of the best i've had in a while and i want to stay here with Brendon!"
he stopped and smilied slightly."oh, so this is about Brendon is it? sweetheart, he doesn't love you. he may seem like he cares but it's all a part of a little trap he uses. see, once i'm gne, he'll become a whole new person. one who isn't as nice and will hurt you a lot more than you think. he just wants to use you."
"oh and you don't?" i was realy angry.
"you are coming with me and that's final." he stood up from the table and began to leave. "and if you try to stand up to me again like that, you'll fucking regret it."
"I was never yours..." i whispered to myself. but was Gerard right? maybe Brendon really just wanted to use me. if that was true, he was a hell of an actor.
slowly i made it up to the room Brendon and i were sharing. my bag was still in the corner and gladly i pulled out a little leather book and a pen then sat down on the bed and began to write.

hey,
so Gerard is being a complete asshole. of course, he won't let me stay here with Brendon. he says he just wants to use me once i'm his. but that can't be true... right? he's just to kind. i mean he really loves me. i think. but there is no way i'm leaving with Gerard. he doesn't treat me with enough respect. you know sometimes i wish he killed me that night we met or left me out in the rain to freeze. i used to think that i was happier with him but now i know that it is torture being with him. all his emotions towards me were always fake and i should've know. Brendon was right, Gerard doesn't love anyone. he's just an unconsiderate asshole who only cares about, money sex and drugs. screw him.
i might atleast be a little happier here with him. he treats me with some respect. maybe Brendon can talk some sence into him because i really think i might love him.
but if Gerard is right, life might be even worse than before...

"Rose?" a voice said. i looked up and saw Brendon standing in the door way. "i heard you and Gerard fighting." i closed the journal and sat it down on the bed. "i'm sorry he's acting like this-"
"is what Gerard said true?" i asked. "that you are just pretending to love me and just want to use me like everyone else?"
"darling," he crossed the room and sat down next to me wrapping an arm around my shoulder. "of course it's not. he just said that so you would think i'm a bad guy and go with him. i would never do that to you. i love you." i began to tear up.
"because now, i don't know who to trust. and i really want to stay here but Gerard won't let me and..." i began to sob.
Brendon hushed me. "don't cry. it's okay. i want you here too. i just have to talk to him."
"but he won't listen."
"i'll make him listen. i love you and sadly, love isn't a choice. and Rose, i know i love you."

Notes

ANOTHER CHAPTER!!!!!!!!!! title from This Is Gospel by Panic! At The Dicso. my message box is still open if anyone wants to suggest anything. well, what do you think is going to happen???? i still don't know but it's going to be dramatic... i hope. well anyways, rate, comment and if you like this story, please subscibe!!!! k luv yalls bai <3.