Just Sleep

After spending more then three days in the hospital, I was finally released. I had missed two days of school and was not ready to go back. Lidnsey said she talked to the school and said that they were giving me three weeks until I had to come back, or I could go back anytime I felt ready. I moved in with Lidnsey. Leaving felt bittersweet. I felt lonely, staying in my new room.

There was a knock on my door and someone came in. "Hey Fronk!" Lindsey jumped in my bed. "How do you like your new room?"
I sat with my back against the wall on my bed uncomfortably, "I love it. Feels just like home." I said weakly. She could tell I was lying. She pulled me in and the tears fell. I tried to suck it up so I wouldn't get her shirt all wet but I failed. She wrapped her arms around me and I collapsed into her chest. Her body was warm and comforting.
She gently brought me up by my shoulders. "You have to be strong." She said sternly. "No matter how hard it gets, Frank," she paused. She wipped away her tears and then mine, "you have to be strong. Not for anyone but yourself."
"Okay..." I whispered. She hugged me again. It was longer than our first.
"Now," she began, "let's go grab something to eat. You look like you haven't eaten in days."
" I haven't really, fatigue.. Plus the hospital food was nasty." I said smirking a little.
"Well, lets go fatten you up," her lips made a pop saund and she pulled me off my bed. We changed our salty clothes and left to find a burger joint. We ate like kings, and looked like them too. We both gained five pounds over our meal. We reminisced over memories of my mother. How beautiful she was. How ditzy she was. How innocent she looked when she did something wrong. We laughed and cried until we couldn't breath and our eyes were sucked dry. We got home and watched movies. We both crashed on the couch not daring to leave each other's side.

When school started again, Gerard insisted that he come by, even to skip school, to make sure I was okay. I told him I wanted him to go to school. He had already missed enough days because of me, and I didn't want him to miss more. I didn't go back to school until about two and half weeks. I felt as ready as I could be, or so I thought.

"Hey you little faggot." I heard a voice behind me. I already knew who it was. It was Ray.
"I said hey you little faggot!" His voice got louder as he pushed me into the wall. I hit my face on the wall which triggered pain from my temple.
"What Ray?" I turned to face him. I kept my head up, not letting anything break me down, eventhough, I already felt broken.
"Where the hell have you been?" He grabbed my collar an pushed me against the wall. I pushed him off me and walked away. He grabbed me by the shoulder and punched me in the face. I fell over instantly. I didn't even try to get up because I knew either way, I was gonna get the shit beaten out of me. Hot tears ran down my bruised face. I was broken. I felt like my whole world shattered into a million pieces. Not because I he was punching me, but because I wasn't strong. I wasn't strong enough to fight back. I wasn't strong enough to even have a voice.

"YOU FUCKING DICK!" I heard someone yell and then a thud to the ground. I rolled over to see Gerard beating the shit out of Ray. "Iero, go to the health room. I'll be in there soon." I got up and ran. I looked behind me to see Gerad sitting and yelling at Ray.

I got got to the health room and waited for the nurse. My nose was bleeding everywhere an it wouldn't stop. They told me to go back home. Lidnsey picked me up and dropped me off at the apartment. She told me she had to go back to school and said to sleep.

*tack* *tack* *tack*
My head shot up as something hit my window. My face was warm and red from my pillow. I waited and then something hit again and I went to my window. I looked down to see Gerard with a handful of rocks. He smiled widely and giggled. I looked down and realized I didn't have a shirt or pants on. I blushed and grabbed a shirt and pants. I met him when I opened the door.

"Are you okay?" I asked him as he entered the door.
"I'm fine. He didn't even touch me." He brushed it off like it was nothing.
"Did you get in trouble?"
"No, I told them the truth."
"Oh." I followed him onto the couch.
"Do you want some coffee?" I asked him.
"Mmmm YUS please." He smiled and the rest of body looked happy. I waited in the kitchen. He came in and stood across from me. We talked small as the coffee brewed. I didn't feel like talking so we didn't.

"How are you, Frank?" He sounded like a therapist an it kind of made me feel uncomfortable.
"My head hurts, but you know, what-"
"No that's not what I was talking about." He looked up at me, away from his coffee. His voice was deep and he gave a slight chuckle, trying to make it not so awkward. He failed.
".... I guess I feel numb. I know it's there but I can't feel a thing. I know it's numb, but it stings whenever I start to see her face," I paused and tried to suck it up, "or when start to remember the way she would hold me. How warm she was all the time. " I could feel myself breaking down again. Tears ran softly down my face. "I just miss her.." I cupped my face and just stood there. I felt horrible.
"Why did this happen to me? Why did she have to leave me? What did I do to desere this? Does God hate me? What the hell I wrong with me?" I yelled and sobbed. Gerard pulled me into him with my head in my hands. He held me as I sobbed. My knees felt weak and I fell to the floor. I brought him down with me. I sobbed for what felt like hours. And he stayed and held me for all that time. When I couldn't cry any longer, I released myself from his warm body. I regretted it.

Gerard was sitting about two feet away from me. I was sitting against a cabinate. We locked gazes and he started to crawl towards me. His hazel eyes fluttered and his crimson hair fell in front of them. He slowly moved his hands up my arms as I stayed perfectly still. I felt my heart race as his body came into mine. I grabbed the back of his head and had ahold of his hair. Our breathing became heavy as we melted into each other. His body was basically ontop of mine and my hands reached his waist. His lips brushed against my jawline and I gave a slight sigh. His lips met mine and I pulled him into me as close as I could. His lips tasted like coffee and nicotine, but sweet. His hand lingered on my neck and started to pull down the top of my shirt. He moved his lips down my face, down my neck, then to my collar bone. He kissed and nibbled at it and it made me moan slightly. I held his head there and ran my fingers through his hair.
"G-Gerard..." I bit my lip and groaned when he lightly licked me up my neck. He smirked and did it again. I pulled him off and started kissing at his jawline. I nibbled at him and then I bit a little harder when I was at the curve of his neck. He moaned and held me there. I started sucking and his breathing got heavier. I brought myself up to his lips. I bit his lip and he groaned loudly and bit me back. He moved his tounge into my lip ring and I made me moan and kiss him harder. His hands moved up and down my body. I felt his hands on my back, moving inside my shirt. I took of my shirt and took of his. My lips move up an down his body. I sucked his collar bone and..

"Oh, oh, oh my God. Um.." Lidnsey walked in. Our eyes widened and Gerard pulled away.
"Lidnsey? I thought you weren't going to be home until 8?" I said as I staggered to find my shirt and put it on. Gerard's face was bright red and left to the bathroom.
"Um, my shift ended early." She said with a reddened face. I giggled and so did she. We started laughing hysterically and Gerard stared at us with confusion.
"I think I'm going to go.." He said, still bright red.
"No!" Lidnsey ran to the door and blocked it. "You're staying for dinner!" She stated.
He looked at me and I shrugged my shoulders. He copied and Lidnsey jumped an hugged us. She ran off into the kitchen to make dinner.

Gerard and I made our way to the couch. He pulled my legs over his and stuck his hand in between my knees. He grabbes my chin and kissed me. I felt him linger was he pulled away. This moment was perfect and I actually had a reason to smile.

Notes

IT HAPPENED!!!!
IT FUCKING HAPPENED!!!
IM SORRY IF YOU DIDNT LIKE IT!!
I TRIED REALLY HARD TO TUG AT YOUR HEART STRINGS!
I LOVE YOU(:
STAY UGLY.