Just Sleep

•Next Day•
*Frank's POV*
The minuet the doctor came into my room, I knew something bad was going to be said and I wasn't ready in anyway. Gerard saw the dreadful look on my face and held my hand. I gripped as tightly as my hand could. "Everything is going to be okay, I promise"His words played in my head. My head was held high, but my stomach and my heart, dragged my body down.

"Franklin, I have news for you, about your mother." He started. "We tried everything we could..." He trailed off. I felt my heart break into a million pieces. "Our sincerest apologies, Franklin. I wish we could have done more but-"
"No! There is no fucking buts in this situation! You obviously didn't fucking try hard enough! You are fucking coward! You're not fucking sorry!" I screamed as I sobbed. I got up and went into the bathroom. I slammed and locked the door behind me.
"Frank! Open the door!" Gerard said through the door. I sat in the corner of the bathroom. He kept calling over my sobs. "The doctor is gone, Frank. Please come out." He sighed. I hesitated and then unlocked the door. I crawled back to the corner.

When he came in, I had stopped crying and he closed the door behind him. "Frank..." He sighed.
"What? Are you gonna lie to me too? Just like everyone else, Gerard? Are you gonna say you'll be there for me and then leave just like everyone? Do you like seeing me in pain? Am I just another fucking pity party to you? Just another fucking charity case? Do you think it makes you better than me? Do you like lying to me? Because you are just like everyone in my fucking life, Gerard. Hurting me and then leaving me. You promised... Promised everything... Everything was... Was going... Going to be okay..." I said weakly. His face was vacant. His eyes looked watery, like my words hurt him. I instantly felt guilty.

He sat down in front of me. His eyes started blankly into mine. Everything was still but I could feel him breathing. He cupped my wet face and wipped my cheek. I let my head lay inside of his hand. I moved my hand up his arm again like I did earlier. I pushed myself into him, our foreheads and noses touching. He tilted my head up and closed his eyes. Our breathing was heavy as we became closer. His little lips brushed against mine again.

"Frank? Where are you?" There was someone in my room. I sighed as our moment left. I got up and cleaned myself up. The voice didn't sound very familiar. When I left Gerard in the bathroom, I found my cousin Lindsey, looking for me. "Oh my god, Frank!" She cupped her mouth and ran to me. "I'm so sorry." She held me and it was comforting. She was my favorite out of all my cousins because our age was so similar. She was only two and a half years older than me. She was in college and lived Belleville.
"I'm so sorry. You must be feeling like shit." She was like my mom when it came to being supportive.
"Yeah I guess."
"Who's that?" She whispered looking into the bathroom.
I turned around to glance over at Gerard, playing with his brilliant hair. "Is that your boyfriend?" She giggled.
"Uh, no. He's not. He's been the only person here for me though." I said turning the tables on Lindsey.
Her face went from interested in mine and Gerard's relationship, to guilty. "Frank, I'm sorry. I don't think school counts as an excuse. I should have came when I got the call that my dad was arrested for.. You know.." She was talking about him beating the shit out of me.
"Yeah.."
"So," I laid on my bed as she started to talk again. "Will you come stay with me?" Her question caught me off guard.
"What?" I asked. I saw Gerard's head turn in surprise as she asked.
"Will you come stay with me? I just got my own apartment and I have three bedrooms. I don't like being alone, I mean, you know that. You can stay as long as you want, I just want you to be somewhere, where I know you're safe, Frank. I'll let you think about for a while. I have to go take an exam for English. I love you Frank. I'll come by later." She waved good bye and left.
"Who was that?" Gerard stepped out of the bathroom with a q-tip in his ear.
"That was my older cousin Lindsey."
"Oh. She's kinda cute," I looked over at him and narrowed my eyes, "kinda like you." He said, trying to be quiet but fortunately failed. Even through my pain, he was trying his hardest to make me smile.

My pain. In the midst of almost kissing Gerard again and Lindsey arriving unexpectedly, the pain was almost unnoticed. Unnoticed until I wasn't in her presents or his arms. I started hyperventalating and my eyes blurred again. My mother was gone and there was no way she was coming back. The only person on this earth who ever loved me unconditionally was taken from me in a blink of an eye. My body started to shake in pain. Shocks of pain shot through me like I'd been shot a thousand times. I collapsed into my bed and buried my face into my pillow. I needed to be alone and asked Gerard to leave for awhile. I sobbed and begged for her to come back. I thought about all the good times and the bad times and started to feel guilty. Guilty for misbehaving. For being so reckless with my decisions. I felt guitly for every time I didn't say I was sorry for hurting her. It was my fault that I didn't fight against my uncle. If had fought, she wouldn't have gotten the call from the hospital. She wouldn't have had to leave work early and speed hospital. She wouldn't have crashed into the other victim because of me. It was all my fault, and I had to pay for it for the rest of my life.

•Hours later•
I woke up to the door being opened and closed softly. I hadn't realized I had fallen asleep and didn't feel like opening my eyes. I felt a body sit at the edge of my bed. It started rubbing the side of my leg and slowly gripping as it moved up and down my leg. A hand brushed hair out of my face and I felt lips, kiss the top of my head. It's head stayed with its lips pressed against my head then shift it's hands up my body. It's warm lips lightly pecked my forehead a couple times and then left me, leaving the spot cold. It laid next to me and I fell back asleep with my head on its chest. I could tell the way it's heart was beating, it was Gerard.

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