Boy Division

On our way to Long Island, Gerard made sure to make it perfect. We packed all of our favorite snack, brought all our favorite music and sang along. It was the first time I had ever heard him sing. I was speechless.

"What?" He said, snapping me out of my gaze.
"Your voice.. Is just..." I couldn't help but smile when I said it. He started to blush. Then, when he sang again, he did it obnoxiously, to stop himself from blushing anymore. We laughed. He gripped the stearing wheel tighter. The way his arms looked was... Just so... You know...

"Monalee!" He yelled over the music, I snapped my eyes back up to his, leaving my thoughts about his hot arms. "What are we going to do?" He asked as I turned down the music.
"Hmmm, I guess I really didn't think about. It was the first thought that popped into me head earlier." I was lying but I didn't want him to know that.
"Well, think quick," he said pointing to the sign that welcomed us to Long Island, "because we're here."
"Let's find a resturant. A nice one."
"I know the perfect place." He looked at me and smiled.

When I came to the realization that we had stopped, Gerard was staring at me and was smiling. My head was pressed against the window and my hair was stuck to my face. I had fallen asleep. I felt very dazed.

"How long was I... ?"
"Not long," he smiled again and kissed my forehead. It was comforting.
"Are we here?" I sat up more and looked around.
"We have to turn and cross the street and walk a ways, but yeah." He said, still smiling. It was the kind of smile that made you melt.

We got out of his car and started walking. He wrapped his arms around my waist, making my body shiver with warmth. The way he held made me knew I was safe, that no one would ever hurt me, that he genually cared. Almost like he..

I shook my head, it was too soon, right? I knew what I felt, I felt like I did love him. But I knew that he wouldn't for long, every boy or man I ever loved, eventually left me sooner or later. Hence my brother and my father..

Whatever, it was me and him against the world right now and I loved him for standing by me. I loved him.

When we finally got to the restaurant, he opened the door and I felt the warm air in. I was whisked away by the sweet smell of something warm. When I realized where we were, I saw a sign that said The Sweet Parade. Ilooked up at Gerard for a hint at least. He shook his head and winked. He pulled me to a table at one of the big windows of the small place. We looked at our menus

I opened my menu to see what kind of place it was. Pastries. It was all I saw. I peeked over my menu and saw Gerard doing the same thing. He saw that I caught him and quickly went back to his menu. I laughed and felt his face burn with embarrassment.

I got a red velvet cupcake with cream cheese filling and frosting. Gerard got a small pumpkin spice cake, also with cream cheese filling and frosting. Both were so rich and yet so amazing.

"So why did you pick this place?" I finally asked, still mowing down on my huge cupcake.
"When I was little, my parents moved me and Mikey here. Every once in a while, my parents would take us here, for our birthdays, good grades... All that junk." He paused and gave an uneasy chuckle. "Before, you know.. There were, uhm.. Dead.." He fell silent. His head went down and he played with crumbs with his fork. I could see his eyes water and his red hair fall over his angelic, innocent face.

I pulled his chin up just like he did with me. His honey hazel eyes had more green specks than usual. I moved my hand and started to hold his cheek. He let his head lay there. I got up and brought him up with me. His body caved into mine as I pulled him close. He laid his head in my shoulder and started breathing heavier, which made me know he was crying. I felt a wave of a soft shock go up and down as he took each breath, but it wasn't the time for that.

"I'm sorry... I really tried to hold it in until I got home but as soon as I as walked in I felt them. I'm sorry.. I just.. I.." He paused in between sobs, "I... Just," he sighed, " miss them."
I pushed him off gently, only holding onto his shoulder, just like he did with me."Gee, you have nothing to be sorry about. You shouldn't ever feel guilty about missing someone," He gripped tighter on the back my shirt, " I promise, as long as you're with me, I will never make you feel that way. You are mine and I am yours." He kissed me and I could taste his pumpkin spice cake, leftover on his lips and on his tongue. I pulled away and licked my lips, so did he. We smiled, payed, and left. He gripped my hand and kissed my jawline. I sighed out of pleasure and smiled. He kissed me harder and moved me into the side of a building. He licked my bottom lip and I gave out another sigh. He eventually stopped and breathed into my neck. He knew I loved it and chuckled. He laid there for a moment and then we started walking again.

When we started driving again, I started to fall asleep again. Gerard pulled my head on to his shoulder and kissed it. I fell asleep, and stayed asleep until we pulled into my driveway. He carried me into my bed, and stayed for awhile. Then he left. I didn't know how he felt about me, but I knew I loved him.

Notes

*Awkwardly steps into spotlight*
So, haha funny story.
I didn't have any homework today.
Today sucked and I craved writing.
It usually happens when I'm not happy,
But whatever, I have to just push aside my feelings when it comes to talking to friends,
But you know whatever..
I hoped you liked this chapter. PLEASE KEEP READING!!
Do what you feel the urge to do.
Thanks,
Stay Ugly.