The Light Behind Your Eyes

I left Izzy's house and sat in my car trying to calm myself down, I feel truly broken, I don't understand how i'm supposed to live without her. She's my everything. I wasn't ready to go home because I knew Jess would be waiting for me so I decided to call to Gerard's house. When I got there I went straight into his room and found him in his usual spot at his desk sketching.
"Hey man what's up?" he asked. I couldn't reply properly, I just kept pacing and rambling about my problems randomly mentioning how I can't afford a kid and my life is over and what's the point of living without Izzy in my life.
"Snap out of it man!" Gerard said while grabbing me by the shoulders. I immediately shut up and began sobbing. Gee held me tightly and calmed me down.
"Okay what's going on?" Gerard asked when I stopped crying. I filled him in on the situation with Jess and how I had to end things with Izzy.
"You're an idiot" Was all he could say
"I know..." I replied already feeling sorry for myself
"No seriously, you're a fucking idiot! How can you do that to Izzy?"
"I didn't mean to! I slept with Jess before I even met Iz"
"Yeah I get that but you didn't have to fucking dump her! Especially since she said she;ll stand by you! Go back to hers right now and get on your fucking knees and beg her to take you back!"
"I can't Gerard, you know I can't"
"No, I don't know! Listen man you've royally fucked up, I can't believe you've done the one thing to Izzy you promised you wouldn't do and that's hurt her! Jesus fucking Christ man!"
"Don't you think I feel bad enough?"
"Look I appreciate that you're trying to be a noble man here and stepping up and taking responsibility, but that does not mean that you have to end it with the most perfect girl in the world who was actually WILLING to stay with you while you're having a kid with some slut. Do you know how rare it is to find a girl like Izzy?"
"Yeah, she's one in a million..."
"Even more rare than that man."
"That's why I need you to promise me something"
"What"
"Look out for her, please? I know you guys have gotten a lot closer now, I know she trusts you, she considers you as one of her best friends. Just please make sure she's okay for me, be there for her now that I can't"
"I will"
"Thanks dude...anyway I better get back to the house now, I don't like leaving my mom and Jess alone together for too long considering they hate each other's fucking guts."
"Why's Jess at your house?"
"Oh...she's uh moved in with me now"
"she WHAT?"
"Her mom kicked her out cause of the baby, what the fuck else was I supposed to do? Please don't tell Izzy, I think she should hear it from me"
"You have got to be fucking kidding me, you haven't even told her yet?"
"Well no I was too busy breaking mine and her hearts simultaneously to add that in!"
"Right."
"Promise me you wont say a thing"
"I can't fucking promise that, I don't want to tell her because I don't want to see her anymore hurt but if the opportunity arises, I might have to!"
"Fine. That sounds fair. Can you do me another favor?"
"What?"
"Can you tell the rest of the guys? I don't have the energy to keep telling people, it's literally chipping a little piece of me away each time..."
"Yeah man, i'll take care of it."
"Thanks...well guess I really gotta go now."
"Hey man, I'm here for you, whatever you need just call."
"Thanks I appreciate it Gee."

Gerard's POV
He's a fucking dickhead. How can he let Izzy go? She must be devastated. I need to see her, I need to make sure she's okay! I grabbed my jacket and went straight to her house, calling her on the way but she never picked up. When I got there I noticed that the house was in darkness, I rang the doorbell but there was no answer so I went around the back of her house. I noticed that there was one single light on upstairs, that must be her room. I started to scale the drainpipe and managed to reach the window, thank God it had a balcony. I looked through the netted curtains and seen poor Izzy lying curled up in a ball on the floor. I opened the balcony door, she didn't even flinch, I ran over to her

"Izzy! I'm so sorry!" I said lying down beside her
"Gee..." She cried, she was crying so hard she couldn't get any words out. So I put my arms around her and held her as tight as I could and just let her cry in my arms.
"What can I do to help?" I asked desperately.
"Sing.To.Me" She choked out. So I sang the only song that was in my head - kids from yesterday, it was a song I wrote a few weeks back.
"well now this could be the last of all the rides we take
So hold on tight and don't look back
We don't care about the message or the rules they make
We'll find you when the sun goes black
And you only live forever in the lights you make
When we were young we used to say
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break
Now we are the kids from yesterday"

The lyrics initially made her cry harder. So I decided to choose a better song, scarecrow - i sang it softly to her while stroking her back.
"Move your body when the sunlight dies
Everybody hide your body from the scarecrow
Everybody hide
Make a wish when your childhood dies
Hear the knock, knock, knock when she cries
We're all alone tonight
Hold your breath when a black bird flies
Count to seventeen and close your eyes
I'll keep you safe inside"

Seeing her like this was breaking my heart. She's the sweetest most amazing girl I've ever met, she doesn't deserve this and Frank never deserved her in the first place! He's taken her for granted. Something I never would have done if I had her. What the fuck am I thinking? I shouldn't be thinking this about my best friend's ex!
I continued to sing to her until she eventually drifted off to sleep, then I lifted her and lay her in bed, as I tucked her in and went to leave she clenched on to my shirt.
"Don't go" She croaked. He voice was hoarse from all the crying
"If you want me to stay, i'll never leave you" I said getting into bed next to her and spooning her. As we lay there I couldn't help but notice how perfectly she fit into my arms. No Gee stop thinking like this! She's your friend! Not to mention your best friend's ex!

Notes

Sorry it's short but I just wanted to get something up !
Poor Izzy :'(