The Light Behind Your Eyes

Franks POV
We've only been back in school a few days and they're really piling on the work load already, guess that comes with the joys of being a senior! Bob, Izzy and I were in my piece of shit car having our lunchtime fag cause it's too cold to stand outside. I just watch Izzy as she inhales and exhales the smoke, as it gathers around her plump red lips I be gagging to just kiss her but I obviously contain myself with Bob around but I just think of what i'm gonna do to her later. She's incredible, I still wake up every morning wondering why the hell someone so nice, funny and beautiful is with me, she could have her pick of anyone!

I kiss her goodbye because we don't have class together in the afternoon but promise that i'll call round to hers later to celebrate the best 4 months of my life. As I turn to walk to History I see that Jess was behind me watching Izzy and I.
"Frank we need to talk." She says anxiously.
"About what?" i ask sighing and continuing to walk
"This needs to be in private..."
"No can do, I gotta get to class so it's now or never" I say raising my voice because I was getting further and further away from her
"Im pregnant!...And it's yours" - This stopped me dead in my tracks. I spin around to look at her
"Impossible" I simply say
"It's true! I swear!"
"Bullshit. We haven't slept together in-"
"4 months? yeah I know guess how far along I am?"
"No,"
"Frank I wouldn't lie to you about this!" She said now approaching me as I stood there in complete and utter disbelief
"I told you this needs to be in private" she said tugging on my arm pulling me into the closest unoccupied classroom
"You're lying"
"Frank i'm not! And I can prove it! HERE!" She said throwing a picture of a scan at me. I stood and looked at it in complete silence
"How do you know that it's mine?" I managed to choke out
"Well your dick was the only one inside me then" she said
"But but we used a condom!"
"They're not always 100% effective!"
"No you must have slept with someone else" I say and out of nowhere my cheek begins to burn and my eyes start to water. Shit she slapped me.
"why are you only telling me about this now?"
"Because I only found out over Christmas!"
"How the hell have you made it to 4 months without noticing?!"
"It's non of you GODDAMN BUSINESS"
"You've been fucking high the past 4 months haven't you?!"
"Frank don't start..."
"HAVEN'T YOU?"
"I'M CLEAN NOW"
"Now's too late"
"What do you mean?"
"When are you having the abortion?"
"WHAT?"
"Well we're not keeping it"
"You don't want it?"
"Of course I don't want it!"
"Oh that's right...it'll ruin your perfect little life with your perfect new girlfriend."
"Exactly! Plus you've been doing drugs since it's been conceived, what state is it even gonna come out in?" I blurted out. Then she left. I sat in the classroom staring at the picture of this unborn child. No it can't be mine. What the hell am I gonna do? I can't be in school right now so I bolt straight out of there and to my car as I was driving I saw Jess walking so I pulled over.
"Get in" She obeyed. I drove to her house so we could talk.

"I'm sorry please take no offence but how can I believe that this is mine? We were broken up AND we used a condom!"
"We slept together the very last weekend of summer and I already told you, condoms aren't always 100%! Plus we were both really drunk, I'm not even entirely sure you used one"
"Of course I used one. I always use one with you ever since you gave me...chlamydia. And that's another thing! You've cheated on me before, how can I believe that I was the only guy you slept with around then!"
"You're just gonna have to trust me." Then she let out a deep sigh "I understand why you wouldn't believe me...I wouldn't believe me either but I am promising you now that it is. I told you that you're the only guy for me. I love you...but that doesn't matter, just leave Frank." She made me feel so guilty. I don't know why but somehow I believed her.
"Jess think of this rationally. We can't raise this baby it's not fair on any of us especially the child! It needs to come from a good stable home! You don't have to abort it but we've got to give it up for adoption, it's the right thing to do."
"NO!" she screamed "I LOVE THIS BABY" she cried.
"Okay okay okay!" I said trying to calm her down
"Just go Frank, LEAVE! Just like YOUR dad!" That hit me like a ton of bricks. Shit my moms gonna kill me for being a teen parent just like she was after all she taught me! And I was being an ass just like my dad. No. I refuse to be like him! I'm gonna do the right thing.
"I'm not going anywhere Jess. I'm in this for the long run."
"Yeah right"
"I swear! I am, now everything I do will be to support you and the ba- I mean our baby"
"So every time you go to fuck your girlfriend instead of spending time with us, that's gonna be for me and our baby?" She had a point. Izzy and I can't be together, not now that i'm having a kid. She'll end it with me as soon as I tell her anyway
"Do you honestly me and her are gonna stay together after I tell her about the baby?"
"What about me?"
"What about you?"
"Well...I am the mother of your unborn baby and Frank you know I still love you! I made a lot of bad choices but I've changed now, this baby has changed me. I've stopped using drugs I swear I've grown up"
"Jess..."
Just Give me another chance!...please?" She said as tears escaped her eyes.
"I love Izzy, I'm sorry those feelings aren't goin anywhere, but I will be there for you and the baby and I know it's best for us to try and make it work...you know...for the baby's sake. But it's not gonna happen over night, it's gonna take a while and things between us will never be like the way they used to be. But...I am gonna try..."
"Thank you Frank!" She said clinging on to me and kissing me from my neck to my cheeks. I kept my face turned from her so she wouldn't reach my lips.
"I gotta go now..." I said, she stood up to show me out but when we opened her bedroom door we seen her mother standing there seething.
"You're PREGNANT?!" she bellowed. Jess nodded her head while I stood there terrified
"Pack your stuff. I want you out!"
"But mom?!"
"No Jessica. I've had enough! You have one hour to pack your things then I never want see you, EVER AGAIN!" She screamed and marched down stairs
"C'mon Jess, we don't have much time" I said as I scurried to her closet. We grabbed everything we thought were necessities and loaded them into my car.
"What happens now?" she asked
"You're gonna have to move in with me." I was actually a bit relieved that Jess was gonna have to live with me now. At least this way I could keep my eye on her, make sure she was eating right for our kid and not doing anymore drugs.

I led Jess into my house and told my mom to sit at the kitchen table. When we broke the news my mom was devastated. She went through every emotion possible, from sadness to anger to pity to the worst of all - disappointment. She agreed that Jess could stay and thankfully she demanded that she had to stay in the guest room, she would've drove me insane if she had to sleep next to me every night. I brought in Jess's things from the car and left them in the guest room, I mean her room and went straight to my mom's room and collapsed on her bed in tears. She ran over to me and held me like I was 4.
"I'm so sorry" I choked out through my tears
"I know dear, I know you never meant for this to happen"
"I've ruined everything, I've fucked up my whole life now"
"No you haven't, having a child isn't the end of the world, I had you and you're the best thing that's ever happened to me sweetie."
"But now i'm gonna lose Izzy!"
"No, you wont lose her, she's a great girl, she's not stupid enough to let you go. Sure she'll be mad for a while but don't worry you'll pull through"
"No mom, we wont. I can#t be with her. I have to stand by Jess" My mom pulled away from our embrace and cupped my face in her hands
"You can be there for Jess and your baby without having to actually be with Jess."
"No I have to at least try and make it work!" I argued
"But Frank..."
"No buts mom! I refuse to be like dad!"
"You're nothing like your father"
"Which is why I have to try to make it work with Jess...for the baby."

Izzy's POV
It was getting late and Frank still hasn't come around like he said he would, I texted him and it took him an hour to reply saying that he can't because he's got 'too much homework' to do. I have a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach that something's wrong. I don't know whether or not to surprise him so I think i'll just give him his space and see how he is in school tomorrow. I did however call Gerard and asked him to drop Frank a text just to make sure he was alright.

Frank didn't show up for school, I texted him to see if he was feeling okay, he assured me that he's fine and that he'll definitely come and see me tonight...I just can't seem to shake this awful feeling and when I told the guys at school about my 'feeling' they all just said I was being a bit crazy and reading too much into things.

After school when my doorbell rang, I ran downstairs, swung opened the door and jumped into Franks arms and kissed him.
"I've missed you!" I said in between kisses.
"Missed you too" He said dishearteningly
"Is everything okay?" I asked concerned , he squeezed my hand and led me to my bedroom. There he sat me down on the bed and paced back and forth.
"Frank, you're really freaking me out. What's wrong?"
"I need you to just listen...don't interrupt okay?"
"Okay"
"I'd never lie to you Izzy, so please don't go ape shit at me until you hear everything" I nodded and he continued.
"I slept with Jess just before school started in September I swear that was the last time...Now she's...well...she's pregnant. And it's mine." I just stared at him blankly as he kept pacing. I was trying to process this information as calmly as possible.
"She wants to keep it too." he added. He stopped pacing and just stared at me, I assumed it was his way of telling me he was done so I took a deep breath and approached him. The closer I got I noticed tears were streaming down his face.
"I'm so sorry Izzy..." He whispered
"Shh...Shh It's okay..." I said while wiping his tears and kissing his quivering lips. After I kissed him he stared at me confused.
"We'll get through this Frank, It's okay, I love you and that means I'll stand by you know matter what. And I can hel-"
"No" He said shaking his head and walking away from me
"What?" I asked
"I need to be a better father than my dad was...so I've got to be there for them...I've got to try and make things worse...I mean really try." This made my heart shatter into a million pieces
"So you're saying...?"
"I'm saying that...we can't be together anymore...I have to be with Jess...we have to be a...family..."
I began sobbing heavily, I didn't understand. How can he choose her over me? He doesn't even love her! He loves me. We were made for each other.
"Please Izzy don't! Stop crying! Please? I love you" He said coming over to me and wrapping his arms around me crying almost as much as I was.
"You don't have to do this, please don't do this...don't leave me?" I begged
"I'm sorry, i'm truly sorry I don't want to but I have to...You'll be okay, I promise you'll realize soon enough that you're way to good for me anyway"
"No" Was all I could manage to choke out though the sobs
We stood like that for a while, crying in each others arms until he pulled away.
"As long as there's air in my lungs, I will never stop loving you Isabelle Dawson. I am just so sorry it had to be this way. I'll never forgive myself for this. I love you" He said in a shaky tone, then he kissed me softly on the lips and left.
"I love you too" I managed to squeak out before I fell to the floor and cried uncontrollably until I fell asleep.

Notes

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