The band, Loss of Love and I are sitting in the lobby of Eyeball Studios waiting for Gerard to get his ass here. It took a year for us to get signed and he is late to the first session! I wrote a song for us to sing together and thats the first song we are going to be recording. I wrote it a few months ago, but i finally got the balls to show it to him. He said, "This is really good! I will enjoy singing it with you!"

The song is really about my first break-up. How i felt. Im just glad that he enjoyed it. I lost my crush on him months ago. I developed a crush on someone else though. Chris. I can talk to him about anything. I told him about my childhood and my cutting. He accepted me because he showed me im not alone. I became best friends with Cassie. I loved her cheerful personality and how she can make me smile all of the time!

The door bursts open and Gerard saunters into the room and exclaims, "Now whos ready to make some noise!"

I roll my eyes and we get up and head down the hall to our booth. A man in a chair was working on the buttons and knobs and stuff and we pile into the booth. I put on the headphones and position myself next to Gerard. He looks over at me and nods. He knows im nervous and just that nod encouages me. I take deep breaths as December starts strumming her bass. After a few seconds, we start singing.

you chased away all my demons and told me i was perfect
That i was strong and nothing could tear me down
My pain was gone but hearing you beautiful voice
but i feel them crawling back, trying to bring me to darkness
But i fight to be strong, to stay alive because

I listen to your every note
evry lyric and melody
your music made me who i am
who i have changed from
now its all falling apart now that your not here

well ive been wondering, why it fell through
why it had to end so fast
why did you have to disappear
but maybe it was for the best, maybe i will prevail because

I listen to your every note
evry lyric and melody
your music made me who i am
who i have changed from
now its all falling apart now that your not here

i feel like you did this for a reason, maybe i just dont know
i am starting to understand why you did this
maybe we both needed something new
maybe we all needed to change our ways!

I listen to your every note
evry lyric and melody
your music made me who i am
who i have changed from
now its all falling apart now that your not here

At the last note, i look to the rest of the band and smile. This is how it felt to be able to come together. Everything was happening perfectly! Gerard then says, "I guess thats good enough for today. Lets go!"

We leave and the giddiness is just radiatiing off of me. I was so happy. Happier than i have been in years. Chris nudges me and says, "Hey i want to talk to you."

"Okay."

He leads me in the opposite direction and i tell them, "ill meet you guys at the car."

Gerard nods and Chris leads me to an abandoned hallway. "Are you happy?"

I nod. I dont know where he is going with this. "Well, i was wondering...umm...i dont know how to say this so.."

He leans toward me and his lips crash into mine.

Notes

cliffhanger! mwahahahaha