The Silver Lining

Frank'a POV

I quickly took my key from Brian and walked towards where my room was, but instead of going to my room I went to the bar.

"The strongest you've got." I said as I sat on the stool at the bar. I know that Lola had broken my heart two weeks ago, but I couldn't help but be absolutely heartbroken. I also couldn't get her out of my head. Anything and everything reminded me of what we had and what I might never get back. It was a horrible feeling and my chest always ached with her not in my arms.

"Here you go." The bartender slid something down to me. I immediately drank it. Sip by sip she started to flow from my memories. I had almost forgot about why I was even at this bar. Until I started to wonder again and Lola slipped her way right back into my mind.

"Fuck. Here you go, keep the change." I said as I handed the bartender a 20 and stood up. I staggered over to the elevator and as I was about to press the floor my room was on, I quickly pressed three. I needed to ask Lola if she ever loved me. If I don't, I'll never be able to let her go completely.

I clambered out of the elevator and over to Lola's room. I knocked on the door and waited. I heard faint whispering and someone shuffling around the room. Lola opened the door, standing in front of me with Gerard's huge shirt over her frail body.

"L-Lola," I hiccuped "We need to talk."

She sighed before she turned to who I was guessing was Gerard and said "Brian needs to talk to me, i'll be right back."

i heard him hum a yes I response and she shut the door and stepped in front of me with her arms across her chest. "L-Listen Frank-"

"Lola. Did you ever love me?" I interrupted her and hoped for the best.

"Frank." She sighed in a 'Don't-make-me-answer-this' tone.

"Lola, I just, I need to know if you were lying when you said that you loved me." I looked down at me feet, now knowing that she was going to reject me.

"Frank. I wasn't lying. I do have feelings for you, it's just." She sighed. "They are different then what I have with Gerard. I feel more comfortable and safe around him."

I sighed a breath of release know that she didn't lie. I know how Gerard's relationships go. He steals the girl from me than breaks her heart. The girls usually leave us all alone after that, but this time is different. She doesn't have anywhere to go.

"Th-Thanks." I said as I stumbled back towards the elevator. I looked back down the hall way just before the doors closed to see her smile at me then go back into her room.

I clambered red down the hallways and into my room before collapsing into my bed.

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"So, what did Brian say last night?" Gee asked as he towel dried his hair after just getting out of the shower.

"Oh, um, just wanted to check on us." I said as I pulled my pants up all the way and buttoned then up. I quickly pulled my hair out of its towel and started to blow dry it.

"Okay." Gerard said, pulling me close to him from behind.

"Come'on, Gee." I laughed. "I need to blow dry my hair!"

"Okay, Okay. I'm going to go get some clothes on." He left a soft kiss on my cheek before walking into the bedroom.

I finished he's with my hair and applied my little bit of eyeliner I always wore.

"So, are you ready to go play this concert?" I asked Gee as I slipped out of the bathroom and over to him.

"As always." He lifter his head from his task of pulling up his socks and kissed my lips gently.

"Then let's go!" I said, jumping up and down, obviously excited for this concert. I was actually excited for every concert. Seeing the guys up there, putting all their energy into their passion always made me happy.

He he laughed at me before he picked me up and spun me around. When he put me down I ran to the door like a puppy excited to take a walk. "Let's go!" Brian said banging on the door.

We both walked to the elevator hand in hand and made our way to the tour bus. We all loaded the bus once again as we drove to the venue.

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They all ran off stage. This concert wasn't as exciting as the others so it gave me some time to think about what we could do after since we wouldn't be moving to the next city for a few hours.

"You guys were great!!!" I yelled. They all laughed and drank their water. "You know what we should do while we are here."

"What?" Frank asked. They all smiled and looked to me, waiting for an answer, well everyone but Ray who seemed to always distance himself from me.

"We should go to the beach!" All their eyes lit up along with the smiles on their faces.

"Great idea. It's just a walk away! Let go!" Gerard said, grabbing my arm and dragging us all to the beach.

We we got there at about 10 at night so everything was dark. All the guys quickly striped to their boxers and I just stood there for a second before Gerard noticed my uneasiness.

"Lola, it's okay. It's just like a bath suit. Your bra and panties are the same thing as your bikini." He assured me, kissing my lips softly before running into the water with the other guys.

I hesitantly took off my shirt and pants, thankful my underwear were boy shorts. Lacy ones, but boy shorts not the less. I ran to the water and jumped in with a splash. Gerard wiped the water from him eyes and splashed me back. We swam for about an hour before Mikey, Ray and Frank crawled out of the water and into the beach, complaining about their skin pruning. Me and Gerard laughed before he pulled me close to him.

"Lola, I love you." He whispered in my ear.

"I love you too." I said quietly, looking up into his eyes.

He picked me up bridal style as I giggled and we ran towards the other guys. He put me down and we all grabbed our clothes and ran towards the bus.

"What a great idea, thanks Lola." Mikey smiled over to me as we clambered into the bus. A chorus of 'yeah' and 'thanks you's came from the other guys before I yawned and replied.

"Well, I need to sleep." I stretched and stood and Ray added "I guess that means me too." I giggled.

He lifted me into my bunk and I smiled down at him with a thanks for helping.

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It's been about a week since we were in Miami and we ha made it through Georgia and we were on our way into Louisiana. Along the road, Mikey's girlfriend, Alicia, had joined us taking the extra bunk across from me because she missed Mikey too much. We had become close friends and all hang out together.

We were also reaching a 2 week break in the tour. On Monday we would be allowed to go back home and spend 2 weeks together. Gerard had already told me that I was welcome at him and Mikey's house, which was an offer I gratefully accepted.

It was about 8 am and I was sitting in the couch, snuggled in Gerard's chest when I got a horrible pain in my stomach. I calmly put my coffee on the nearest table and walked to the bathroom. I shut the door behind me before I just made it in time to throw up into the toilet. I emptied my stomach and stood up slowly to avoid a head rush. I flushed down my vomit before I rinsed my mouth out with bathroom water and looked in the mirror. I was disappointed once again to see I had gained weight. Since I came on your with them about two months ago I had seemed to gain at least a few pounds as my stomach was now bigger then it had ever been and was flat like I was always used to.

I looked away from my reflection and opened the door to see a concerned Gerard. "Are you okay? I heard you throwing up." He pulled me into a hug.

"Y-Yeah, I'm okay. I think I might have a little virus. I've been throwing up the past few days. " I smiled up to him. He smiled back down before his smile slowly faded away.

"L-Lola. You don't think your, um…" he trailed off before I came to the realization of what he was saying.

"No, Gee. I'm not Pregnant. It's nearly impossible. I have erm, problems with my lady parts." I looked up to him and saw him instantly relax.

"O-Oh, okay." His smile slowly came back. "Let's go sit back on the couch then."

We sat on the couch and watched the end of a show I've never heard of. Soon we were on our way to the show and I found myself on the side wing with Alicia.

"They are so funny." Alicia laughed as we etched then thrash around on stage. All of the sudden Gerard was walking over to Frank and Frank all of the sudden kicked Gerard in his crotch. Gerard just kept singing, ignoring the pain.

After another half an hour of the concert they all came off stage. Frank laughing and Gerard clutching his crotch. I immediately ran over to him and hugged him and kissed him. "Are you okay?" I frantically looked at him, ignoring Frank's insane laughter behind us.

"N-Not really." He groaned, glaring up at Frank.

"Then let's get you to the tour bus." I put my arm around his back and walked him out the back to the bus, leaving the others in the venue.

We climbed up the stairs and I laid him down in his bunk. I climbed in with him and shut the privacy curtain.

"Do you want me to check it, or?" I asked, looking down at his crotch nervously.

"I-If you don't want to you don't have to, but if you'd help and tell me if it's bleeding or not." He said in a strained voice, still holding his crotch.

I moved his his hands aside and undid his pants. I pulled them off him and threw them into the corner of the bunk. I pulled his boxers down to his knees and examined him. He was a little red, but wasn't bleeding and it didn't look serious. "It's a little red, but um, it doesn't look serious." I told him.

"Th-Thanks." I looked up and smiled at him.

"Mhm. But, um, what if you can't get like... An erection or anything?" I looked back up at him nervously.

His eyes opened wide and I could tell he just realized that too. soon his eyes went to their rightful size again and he sat up. "Why don't we check then?" He said seductively in my ear.

I smirked up at him before I connected our lips in a rough, hungry kiss. As our lips moved in sync before he bit down on my bottom lip, making me moan and allowing him to slip his tongue in my mouth. I felt his hands move up my back and into my hair as my hands moved down his chest. I quickly pulled his shirt off before sitting up in front of him. I pulled my shirt off slowly and pulled my pants off quickly. I could tell he didn't have to be worried about anything anymore, but I connected our lips again. Soon his hands were unhooking my bra and pulling off my panties.

I laid myself back and let him climb on too as he aligned us. It seemed like as quickly it started it was over. He breathed heavily as I snuggled up into his chest. I heard a chuckle come from inside the living area and my eyes grew wide.

"G-Gee." I whispered, looking up at him to see he was thinking the same thing as me.

"You guys finished in there?!" I heard Mikey call with a snicker. I quickly threw on my clothes as I handed Gee his. I finally was able to pull my pants up in a bunk. One we were fully clothed again Gerard fixed my hair and I fixed his before we both slowly crawled out.

"D-Done what?" I stammered.

"Fucking." Frank said, staring at his feet. If it was anyone else but me and Gerard he would be making fun, but I knew I just dig deeper into his wound.

"We weren't fucking." Gerard said quickly. Too quickly and Mikey and Alicia burst out laughing.

"Oh, Geeee, oh!" Mikey tried to imitate my moans as I blushed a deep crimson. I turned quickly and ran into the kitchen.

"H-Hey." Ray stammered as I ran into him in the kitchen.

"S-Sorry," I looked at my feet so he wouldn't see me blush. "Did you, um, hear?"

"Y-Yeah." He said. I looked up to see he had a hurt look on his face as he stared into the coffee he just made.

"Sorry." I brushed a few stray pieces of my hair out of my face.

Notes

Oh, goodness. Took way too long for this.

Thanks for for all the support I love you all.