I expected to wake up, cold in my bunk like every other night I had slept on the bus. Instead I woke up in Mikey's arms, warm and loved. I looked up at him, his eyes still closed and mouth slightly open. I had the urge to lean up and kiss him, but I didn't want to wake him up so I just layed there, in his arms, admiring him. I know, I'm really creepy.

After a few minutes my neck got tired of looking up to I layed it back down on his chest. I listened to his steady heart beat, my eyes getting heavy before he started to wake up, turning towards me a bit more.

This time he was clearly waking up, so I did lean forward and planted a soft kiss on his cheek. His eyes fluttered open and looked down at me. He smiled and kissed me back. We pulled from the kiss and he closed his eyes and brought me closer to him. This is the time I got a chance to look at our surroundings and I realized we were still in the living area, just sleeping on the couch.

"Lola?" Mikey asked quietly.

"Mhm?" I hummed in response lookin back up at him.

"I love you." He said barley audible, looking down at me.

"I love you too." I kissed his forehead before sitting up. He sat up too and I smiled at my feet.

"Would you like some coffee?" He over at me.

"Please?" I smiled. We stood up and walked into the kitchen. As we passed the bunks I listened and heard the other guys snoring. I giggled lightly to myself before walking into the kitchen and sitting at the table.

"So, what are you guys doing today?" I asked when Mikey handed me my coffee and sat across from me.

"We have a meeting then a show." He said.

"That's cool. I can still come to your show, right?" I asked with high hopes.

"I don't think you should come to this one, Lola. Your still recovering and stuff." He sighed, looking sorry.

"It's okay. I get it." I laughed.

"Okay. As long as your not mad." He smiled.

"How could I be mad at you?" I joked.

"I don't know." He laughed.

"Morning." Gerard said groggily, dragging himself to the coffee pot and getting himself a mug.

"Morning." I said. He smiled at me and came to sit down beside me. He put his arm around me and kissed the top of my head before taking a sip of his coffee.

i looked at Mikey, who didn't look mad, and sighed. He looked back at me before saying "I need to use the restroom."

"Okay." Gerard smiled at him. I nodded my head and studied my coffee.

After a few minutes of silence Gerard took his arm from around me and held his mug with two hands. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine, Gerard." I sighed, not looking up from my coffee.

It was quiet again until the guys slowly filed back into the kitchen, getting mugs of coffee and sitting at the table with us. I didn't look up at whole time as they talked about the show later and new songs they were thinking about. Apperently, a few hours passed by And they had to go to a meeting with Brian then strait to the show. They all walked off the bus, waving goodbye to me until it was just Mikey and me left on the bus.

He hugged me goodbye and kissed my forehead. "When are you telling Gee. Like, about us?" He looked into my eyes.

I sighed, thinking about an appropriate time to drop a bomb when I realized there wasn't. "Would he have time to come back to the bus between the meeting and the show?"

"Yeah, I'll tell him." He sighed. He kissed my cheek and ran off the bus.

I sighed, not knowing what to do now. After a half hour of just walking back and forth on the bus, I decided on watching a little kid's tv show. It was called Little Bear and I thought it was adorable.

After an hour of watching the show I decided to change into another outfit. Me being the only one on the bus I grabbed some clothes and just decided to change there. I was in just my underwear, picking up my new bra when Gerard walked into the bunk area.

"Gerard!" I covered my breasts with my bra in a panic.

He came behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and whispers in my ear "It's not like I haven't seen more then this before."

I sighed, pushing off his hands and putting on my bra. I pulled my shirt over my head and turned back to Gerard. He just looked confused and hurt with his hands crossed over his chest. "Gerard-"

"Let me guess, hmm, you've moved on from me to Frank again." He was scowling and his words dripped with venom.

"No. Actually if you want to just skip the snappiness of me apologizing and explaining why and jump to conclusions like that I'll just tell you. I'm with Mikey now. He is literally the only person who has ever actually cared for me and thought about my feelings before his actions." I spat at Gerard, pissed at his sassy attitude.

He looked dumbfounded for a few minutes. "Y-Your serious?" He stuttered. "I do care for you, Lola." He stepped forward and uncrossed his arms.

"Really?" I snickered. "Did you think about my situation when you kissed me? You knew I was interested I Frank and in a relationship with him, and yet you acted on your actions."

"Yeah, and then you admitted you fucking 'loved' me." He spat back.

"Gerard, when I'm in the spur of the moment, I say a lot of stuff, and I'm sorry for that. I really am, but I know Mikey loves me and I know I love Mikey." I explained.

"Whatever." He scoffed before walking off the bus. I sighed and grabbed my pants, pulling them on. They seemed very loose. The reason why suddenly rushed back into my mind and I broke down again. This time, no one was here to comfort me, so I walked into the living area and pulled my knees to my chest and let my tear ducts drain for hours.

The bus door opened and I wiped away my tears with my sleeve and looked towards the tv which was still playing Little Bear. Soon I felt a pair of arms wrap around me in a loving way and I turned to see Mikey. He was smiling, but it faded when he saw my eyes. I pulled him into a hug.

"What's wrong?" Mikey asked, patting my back.

"I-I'm so fucking stupid. And I'm such a slut." I stuttered into his chest.

"Lola, don't you say that. You don't deserve anything bad that has been happening to you." he kissed the top of my forehead.

"Really? Because maybe if I had just listened to you and not went into the mosh pit, my baby could still be alive. Maybe if I didn't change my relationships every other day and just kept to myself on the bus everyone wouldn't hate me." I cried into his chest.

"Lola. Everything happens for a reason." He sighed.

"And no one hates you." Frank said from behind. "And I'm sorry."

I sighed into Mikey's chest. "Well, you should hate me."

"Stop. There is no reason to hate you." Ray chimed in.

"Ray, I fucking lost your baby, yes there is." I sobbed.

"It's not your fault." I felt the couch cushion go down beside me, meaning Ray had sat beside me.

I sighed. And pulled from Mikey's hug, pulling my knees to my chest again. "I'm sorry." I looked around and saw Frank was standing in front of me, Ray was sitting to my left and Mikey to my right. "W-Where is Gerard?" I hiccuped.

"He, um, he went to a bar." Frank said, scratching the back of his neck. I sighed and hugged my knees closer to my chest.

There was a few minutes where the only sound was the cute voice of Little Bear. "Well, I'm going to go to sleep now." Frank sighed, walking into the bunk area.

"Me too." Ray commented, standing up and clambering into his bunk. I leaned more onto Mikey and he wrapped his arm around me and kissed the top of my head. I sighed and watched little bear for a few more minutes before Mikey started snoring. I giggled and he woke up.

"You should go ahead to bed." I smiled at him.

"Your sure you'll be alright?" He asked.

"I'll be fine." I replied. He stood up and planted a small kiss on my lips before going off into his bunk.

I sighed and watched Little Bear for a while more before another show came on. It was okay, but i didn't like it as much, so I stood up and went to make coffee. I came back with the largest mug provided and kept watching the kids show.

A few few hours passed and I was now watching Max and Ruby when the bus doors flung open, revealing a drunken mess named Gerard.

"Lola!" He smiled at me. I sat back more on the couch, holding my coffee close to me and smiled back at him. "How are you?"

"Fine, Gerard." I sighed, looking back at the tv.

"Mm, I already knew that." He said, walking towards me.

"Gee, please stop. Your drunk." I sighed, looking at him, annoyed. His smell of beer and weed hit me in the face like a slap and I cringed back.

"So?" He laughed, throwing himself beside me on the couch. He tired to put his arm around me, but I shrugged it off. "Oh, come on babe."

"Gerard, no. You need to stop." He took my coffee and set it down on a table close by.

"Why?" He was inching closer to me and I was running out of room to scoot away.

"I'm with Mikey, not you." I was pushing him Back by his chest as he was hovering over me.

"So?" He had both hands on either side of me and was pinning me down on the couch. I was trying to push him off by his shoulders, but I was significantly smaller then him with no muscle.

"Please stop." I said, almost on the verge of tears as he trailed kisses down my jaw line.

"Shhh, you'll love it." He whispered in my ear. I got a sinking feeling in my stomach because I didn't want this. Mikey was nothing but good to me and now I'm going to ruin it.

He roughly connected his lips with mine. He tasted of alcohol and smoke. He forcefully slipped his tongue into my mouth, not caring that I wasn't kissing back, but trying to push him off. I clenched my eyes shut and wished for it to just be over.

He literally tore my shirt off my body and pulled my pants off roughly. I started to cry and try to push him off my lips once more, but finally gave up after countless attempts, only making my arms weaker. He pulled off his clothes, leaving him only in his boxers as he unhooked my bra and tore off my panties. He held my arms above my head as he planted little kisses all over my exposed body while I cried.

"Stop crying baby." He whispered in my ear before pulling off his boxers. He was already hard and pushed his entire length in me as hard and fast as he could while holding me down by my waist, causing me to scream. He covered my mouth and continued what he was doing as my whole body shook with my sobs and pain.

"Gerard, what the fuck are you doing?!" Mikey yelled at him, pulling him off of me. I curled back and covered myself the best I could, tears still steaming down my face.

"Get off, Mikes! We are just having some fun!" Gerard laughed.

"That was a scream of pure pain, fucktard! She wasn't enjoying it! You are raping her!" Mikey pushed Gerard back.

"She was enjoying it! How would you know?! Your still a fucking virgin aren't ya!" Gerard spat back, standing up and pulling on his boxers.

"Shut the fuck up, Gerard!" Mikey pushed Gerard towards the bunks. "Now go the fuck to sleep so we can talk about whether or not she'll be pressing charges in the morning!"

"What-ever." Gerard said, laying down in his bunk.

"Are you okay?" Mikey rushed over to me.

"N-No." I sobbed. Mikey pulled me into a hug. He pulled his shirt off and put it over me, kissing my head. He lifted me up bridal style and laid me in his bunk before climbing in and wrapping his arms lovingly around me. He smoothed my hair with his hands and kissed my forehead as I went limp and fell asleep in his arms.

Notes

Yeah. That took me a while for some reason.

But anyways, I'm sorry. I cried a little while writing this.