The Silver Lining

Our plane landed in the town we were at and the bus was parked outside in the parking lot. Gerard greeted us at the door. When he first saw me he was confused, seeing as my stomach was now almost flat from where before it was extended in front of me, then all the colour drained from his face and he rubbed small circles on his temples.

We approached the bus and Gerard immediately pulled me into a hug. I sighed into his chest, knowing I'd have to tell him not only had I lost the baby he once though was his, but I was now in a relationship with his brother instead of him.

"So you can already guess what happened and why we were gone so long." I said, my voice muffled by his chest but audible.

"Yes. I'm sorry." He said. I felt something wet fall into the back of my head and I looked up to see he was crying. I wiped away his tears.

"Stop crying, please? Just- just stay strong, okay?" I said, still looking up at him. He started to lean towards my face, probably wanting a kiss but I turned my head and took a step back. He look unimaginably hurt by my gesture. "I'm sorry Gerard. Not now."

I walked led into the bus with Mikey close behind me and Frank immediately engulfed me into a huge hug.

"Wow, careful Frank, don't want to hurt the baby." Ray said from behind, pulling Frank off me. That was all I could take. All the bottled up emotions I had kept in my tear ducts were let lose. I turned to Mikey and hugged him as tight as I could. He held me as close as he could and let me sob loudly into his chest, completely soaking his grey shirt.

"Wow. What did I say?" Ray said, walking up behind us.

"I lost the baby. I lost it Ray. It's gone." I sobbed.

"Shit." He cursed. I could here his raw emotions clouding his voice.

I just cried into Mikey, not caring about everyone else's hands patting my back, and the kisses being left at the top of my head by the other guys. In that moment, I just ignored the world around me and let myself let everything out.

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