It had been 2 days since we got news about the miscarriage. Since then, I had to have the surgery to remove the babies body. It was horrible before that. I was bleeding worse then I had ever had, which is what made them decide to go ahead with surgery. We burried what we found was a girl in a child's cemetary and were now sitting on the flight back to where the guys were on tour now.

"Are you sure you still want me to tell Gerard?" Mikey asked as we settled in our seats after the plane had taken off.

"Mikey. I don't know." I played with my nails.

"I really think you should be the one to tell Gerard and Ray. If you want i can tell Frank, but I think the ones that had such an influence on your pregnancy should be told be you." He explained. I chewed on the inside of my lip.

"Okay. I'll tell them." I sighed and put my head back on the seat.

"I'm not trying to be rude or anything. It's just-"

"No, No, I get it Mikey. Thank you." I looked over at him. And in that moment I forgot all about everything bad that had happened in my life. I really just forgot everything. In that moment, looking into his eyes, I felt te safest I had really been. Not even controlling myself anymore I started leaning in closer to him. I paused for a moment, making sure he was fine with it when he laced his slender fingers in my hair and pulled our lips together. My stomache stormed with butterflies and the world around me seemed to melt away as our lips moved together. I bit down gently against his bottom lip, causing him to moan and I quickly slipped my tongue into his mouth. We let our tongues explore each other's mouths before we pulled away for breath.

"Lola." Mikey sighed after a long comfortable silence.

"Mhm?" I looked over at him with a smile. It quickly faded when I saw he was serious.

"Lola. I-" he looked away, unable to look at me anymore. "I love you more then you could ever know." He said really quickly.

"Mikey." I sighed looking at my feet.

"I get it you love Gerard more-" he started. I interrupted him with a kiss. His eyes sprung open in surprise at first, but he quickly started to kiss me back.

"Mikey. I don't know exactly what I feel, but you make me feel the safest I can, you always think of me, and I know you love me. Your the only person I can say that about, and I know I have feeling for you too. Mikey, I think I love you." I said after I pulled away from the kiss. I started to tear up at the realization that came over me. "All my other relationships were really either chosen by the other person, or unintentional. I was drunk with Ray, Frank convinced me into a date, Gerard had to force himself into me before I realized I though I liked him. Your are the only one that I know I like. And-" It was Mikey's turn to interrupt me with a kiss. This one was by far the most meaningful. There was no tongue, just pure affection for one another. He was the first to pull away and he looked into my eyes. He brushed my hair out of my eyes and kissed my forehead. I pulled him into a tight hug, still not used to being able to hug him without a baby belly in between us.

I pulled from the hug and sat back in my chair. Just before I fell asleep, Mikey layed his hand on mine and put his fingers between mine. I was able to slightly pull the corners of my mouth up before I fell into a deep, dream filled sleep.

Notes

Sorry, but idk, I felt Mikey has been the best to her and I'm sorry.

thank you for reading my lovlies.