The Silver Lining

It had been about a week since all the stuff happened between me and Frank. We had since pretty much gotten over it. Gerard was still pretty tense around Frank and Ray, but they were still the same on stage. I sighed out of my thoughts and look up to the stage from the mosh pit and started jumping around and singing again.

"Hey, have you ever crowd surfed?" A really tall guy asked over my shoulder.

"No-" I said, turning to him about to deny his offer when I was abruptly lifted and thrown over into the thousands of people.

Frank saw me and his eyes widened before he walked over to Ray and pointed me out to him. All the while, I was being thrashed around the crowd, feeling hundreds of hands gripping me and probably leaving bruises some places. It was pretty fun, until someone hit my stomach with extreme force. I cried out in pain and was put down near the front of the crowd

Thankfully, they wrapped up the last song and everyone started to disperse. I made my way backstage, slightly limping and clutching my arms over my stomach. I put on the best fake smile I could when I saw the guys and walked over.

"Lola!" Frank pulled me into a giant hug. He pulled away and looked at my face. "I thought we told you to stay on the side of the stage from now on?!"

"S-Sorry." I looked at my feet. "B-But I never really listened, I'm always down there because I can't see as well over here."

"Lo, really?!" Gerar turned to me. "Are you okay, atleast?"

I remembered red back to when someone's fist collided with my stomach and I registered the shooting pain that lingered. At first I panicked in my head a bit, but then I remembered I had an appointment with Felix tomorrow. I managed to choke out "I-I'm fine."

"Good." Mikey hugged me. I hugged him back tightly before Gerard pulled me away from him and picked me up bridal style, running to the bus as I yelled "You can't catch us."

Frank tackled us to the ground and they all laughed-
except for me.

i just put on a fake smile and stood up and ran to the bus. I got to the bathroom and threw up all the foodi had eaten that day. After about 20 minutes of intense vomiting and vomit coming out of my nose. I stood from the toilet, collapsing back to the ground from head rush. I layed there, hoping my head wasn't open again.

"L-Lola?" Mikey called in, still laughing from the fit they had outside.

"M-Mikey?" I called out, not expecting my voice to be as weak and desperate as it was. I heard Mikey run into the bathroom. His face appeared over mine with tears in his eyes. I smiled up at him before I felt him pick me up and lay me on the couch in the livingroom. The toilet flushed and he must have cleaned my mess before he walked into the living area and crouched infront of me and cleaned my face.

"Are you okay, Lola?" He asked as he pulled a few peices of my greasy hair behind my ear.

"I-I think so." I stuttered weakly.

He sighed and kissed my forehead, letting his lips linger for longer then needed and all I could think was 'please no, please no' because at this point, Mikey is my only stable relationship. He pulled his lips back and rested his forehead on mine. My heart started to beat faster and faster at his closeness.

He he must have felt my nervousness because he said "Don't worry, Lola. I'm not going to treat you like they do, acting just on their part and not your feelings."

After a long 10 minute silence all I could muster in my horrible state was "Thank you."

"Anytime, Lola." He pulled back and smiled down at me. I smiled back and pulled him into a bone crushing hug.

"L-Lo, can't, breath." I let him go, laughing. He laughed after he caught his breath and stood just as the guys stumbled in on their laughter high. Me and Mikey both looked at them and laughed. We all laughed ourselves out all over again and I stopped abruptly when I felt an extreme pain in my stomach.

"I-I think it's time for bed." I said, standing up cautiously.

"Haha, okay, I'll help you up tonight." Mikey smiled to me. I looked to Ray who was scowling at Mikey suddenly and I was turned by Mikey putting his arm around my shoulders and leading us back to the bunks.

He he helped me into mine and looked back to make sure no one had fallowed before jumping in with me. He sat in front of me and smiled.

"Mikey-" I started.

"I'm not here for that. I just wanted to talk to you." He replied simply. I was so happy he wasn't because I really couldn't stop him because he has been nothing but sweet and kind to me.

"What about?" I sat with my legs under me.

"Little spawn of Lola." He laughed. I laughed too, what an awkward name only Mikey could think of on the spot.

"What about them?" I put my hand over my stomach.

"Gerard can't make it to your appointment with you tomorrow because he had a meeting with Brian and someone, right?" He replied. My smile shrunk a bit, but it wasn't gone.

"Yeah." I looked down to my knees and brushed a piece of hair behind my ear.

"Would you mind if I went with you?" He looked awkwardly at my knees.

"That would be great." I smiled up at him. He met my eyes and smiled.

"Really?"

"Really."

"Great." He pulled me into a huge hug.

"Thanks, Mikey."

"For what?"

"For thinking of me and not just being an idiot like the others." I laughed. He smiled.

"Anytime." He pulled from the hug and jumped from my bunk and I swear I heard a low mumble that sounded something like 'love'. And I reaslised, Mikey was the only one that really did think of me before themselves. And I really do appreciate him for that.

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I woke up and changed quickly into an old Nirvana shirt and skinny dark blue jeans. i pulled my tangled, long faded hair into a tight bun. I jumped out of my bunk and walked into the kitchen for my morning coffee. I filled a plastic portable thing with the pot I made and waited for Mikey to come in. He walked in with his recently straightened hair and perfect clothes and grabbed a plastic cup too. He wrapped his arm around my waist and we walked off te bus and to the airport. Luckily we were only a few blocks away from it.

We were the last to make it to the Plane and we quickly got to our seats after we went through the usual shit.

"And you have to do this, like, every two weeks?" Mikey sighed and layed his head back into his seat.

"Yep." I said, popping the p.

After about a minute I had fallen asleep. I woke up and my head had fallen onto Mikey's shoulder. I looked up at him to see he had been looking at me. He looked up and blushed a bit. I giggled and sat up, looking at him as he avoided eye contact.

"Mikey, it's okay." I smiled at him. He looked up at me and blushed a bit.

"Sorry." He apologized. I rolled my eyes.

"You didn't do anything wrong. Now come on, I think we are almost there. " I was correct because the pilot soon announced that we were landing and to do your seatbelts if they were undone and standard procedures.

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"Lola Evans?" The nurse called me back. Me and Mikey walked with her to my usual room and I sat on the table while Mikey took the seat beside it. Soon Dr. Kjellburgh was there.

"Hello." He said, shutting the door behind him and sitting on his mini rolls chair by the table I was seated on and set his laptop beside me. "I guess I'll settle for this chair because a new guy took the other one."

I laughed at his accent and looked over to see he was referring to Mikey.

"Oh, sorry, haha, this is Mikey. Gee's brother." I introduced Mikey and they shook hands and Mikey awkwardly sat beside me on the table.

"Hi Mikey, I'm Felix." He smiled before walking over to me and doing our usual check up on me before Felix had a concerned look on his face.

"Would you mind doing an ultrasound today?" Felix asked, looking on his laptop.

"Sure." I beamed. Felix put on his fake smile.

We walked to the back room with all the equipment in it and Felix started to set up some stuff. "If I may ask, what was wrong last appointment?"

My breathing hitched. I looked at Mikey, pleading for him to tell him why happened with my eyes.

"Last appointment she found out that who she thought was the father, wasn't really the father." Mikey said awkwardly.

"And- … your the father?" Felix asked, confused.

"N-No." I said, rather quickly. i sighed as Felix looked to me for an answer. "You said your familiar with their band?"

"Mhm." He hummed in response as he set up the monitor so we could see.

"Well, Ray's the father." I said. Mikey hugged me from my side and then pulled back quickly.

"Damn, I'll have to meet him soon then." Felix smiled up at me. "Can't miss meeting my favourite patient's father."

i laughed and smiled back at him. "I'm your favourite?"

"Psh, no! Your baby." He joked as he finished putting the gel on my stomach.

I laughed and looked to the monitor as he looked for the baby.

"Hm." Felix sighed, a conserved look on his face.

"What?" Mikey asked hurriedly.

"N-Nothing. One second." He moved the screen away so once he could see and continued to look for the baby's heart beat. He called for a nurse and they came rushing in. They tried to find the baby too but with no avail. I let the tears fall from my eyes and layed my head back, staring at the ceiling.

"L-Lola. I-I'm sorry to say that we can't find your babies heart beat." Felix stuttered, rubbing his face with his hands. He wiped the gel off my stomach and pulled my shirt back down for me.

I stood up, not caring how many tears were falling at this point and Felix brought me into a huge hug. I cried into his chest, and he put his head on top of mine. I felt something wet on the back of my head and I looked up to see he was crying too.

"I'm so sorry." He sighed, chewing on his cheeks as to not let more tears fall onto me. He leaned down and kissed my forehead. I cried for a bit longer before Felix let me go. "You know lola, I'm not supposed to do this, but here."

I took the the small peice of paper he had just scribbled on to see he had written his personal phone number down for me. "I'd love to hear how your doing every once in a while." I smiled up at him before I brought him into another hug.

I walked led over to Mikey who was still dumbfounded and pulled him onto a hug. He hugged back before picking me up bridal stule, thanking Felix and brining me to a hotel. he checked us in and brought me up to the room. I had gotten drowsy from the recent news so he layed me in the bed.

He began to wak away and I couldn't take the thought of being alone right now. "M-M-Mikey?" I trembled.

"Yes?" He turned back around to me.

"P-Please-… c-can you just c-come lay down with me?" I pleaded, not caring how pissed Gerard would be.

"L-Lola." Mikey sighed. "I just can't do that to Gerard. Please."

I snuggled my knees as close to me as I could and let my body rack with sobs. No one fucking loves me.

I felt a warm pair of arms wrap around my waist I turned around and snuggled into his chest and cried harder.

"M-M-Mikey?" I sighed

"Yeah."

"Will you tell Gee"

"Of course."

Notes

Damn.