Dead! - Frerard

I was lying on the sofa playing an old Gameboy I found when Mikey came and sat with me.
“Hey, Mikes.” I said.
“Hey Frank….” Mikey sounded sad. Oh shit I bet I’m gonna get a lecture. “Did you kiss Jamia?”
I did, but I didn’t want to tell him.
“N-no…” I mumbled.
“Stop lying Frank. I know you did. Gerard told me.” Fuck. He knew? Shit I was in for it now.
“Okay, yes I did…..I just wanted to try it, I’ve never kissed a girl and-“ I said all in one breath.
“Frank, stop, Gerard’s heartbroken dude.”
“No- no…I didn’t mean it, I didn’t, I didn’t, I didn’t I promise I didn’t!”
“Frank, listen.” Mikey said calmly. “Gerard’s upstairs in you guy’s room, um, crying…..a lot. He just needs an apology okay?”
“Okay…” I said, defeated. Mikey had ways; he was like a therapist, but better because he’s not a douchebag.
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I dragged myself off the sofa and up to Gerard’s room. I waited outside the door for a few minutes. Should I do it? Should I say I’m sorry? Or should I just leave it? I do feel bad, really bad actually…
I opened the door quietly and stood inside. He was lying with his face in the pillow, spread out and squeezing the sheets. I heard his muffled sobbing too.
“Gee….?”
“Go away, Frank.” He said, muffled by his tears and the pillow. I was slightly taken aback by his harsh tone. I walked over to him anyway.
“Gerard, I’m sorry. I di-“
“I don’t wanna hear it, Frank. Fuck off.”
“No! Just hear me out okay?”
“Fine, whatever.” I sighed and sat on the end of the bed.
“I didn’t mean it….I’m sorry. I just wanted to know what kissing a girl is like because I’ve only ever kissed you….” I said.
“Well, if you wanted to kiss someone else you could’ve just said. I would’ve understood, Frank.” Gerard mumbled. I sighed. I could have just done that. What an asshole, Frank. What an asshole.
I put my hands on Gerard’s shoulders and tugged him up. He sat with little resistance and he wiped his eyes on his sleeve. Fuck. Me. I had broken the thing that meant the most to me. I hate myself sometimes. I lifted Gerard’s head up and kissed his cheek before going onto kissing his neck. He whimpered quietly. Gerard knelt up and his body went limp as he flopped onto me. I fell back and pulled Gerard with me. He tucked his legs up either side of my hips and hummed. I hummed back. It meant he forgave me. I’m an asshole.
“I’m an asshole, Gee…” I said quietly.
“Yeah you are. You’re my asshole though.” He giggled that stupid fucking giggle that made me blush. I love him so much I can’t even take it. And the best part: He loves me back.

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