Clearwater [Mikey Way]

Everything in this fucking camp is really spread out so, again, it takes ages to get to the beach. This place is fucking massive!
The whole trip so far has been silent and we still have a while to go.
"So... Do you play anything?" I ask, desperately trying to break the awkward silence.
He nods and smiles at me a bit.
"Yeah. Bass." He says and I smile.
I wasn't gonna tell him this, but I find bassists so fucking hot.
So, instead, I just nod slightly.
"Cool." I say and he nods.
"Yeah. It's pretty cool." He says, flashing me a stupid smile that I can see almost perfectly in the amazing bright full moon. "Anyway, I know you said you play pretty much everything but what do you normally play?"
I shrug.
"Everything." I say again and smirk slightly.
He just rolls his eyes at my answer. "No, really. Tell me."
I chuckle and nod.
"If you insist. I play harp while riding on a magical unicorn with six legs and purple eyes." I say seriously and he just facepalms.
"I like unicorns. But teeell meeeee." He whines and I chuckle.
"Ugh, FIIINE." I say dramatically, making him chuckle. "Well, mainly I play guitar. But I sing and I play drums too. So, I'm basically a band in one person."
He chuckles and rolls his eyes. "Smart ass. You need a bassist to be a one person band. " He says and I chuckle.
"Well, you're a bassist. We could be a two person band." I say and he laughs.
"As much as that sounds fun, I'm actually already in a band with my brother and the guys." He says and I smile.
I sigh and look around.
"Nice night..." I say quietly to myself after a while.
Mikey looks at me and smiles slightly, nodding "yeah. It is huh." He says and looks away again.
Oh god...
See what you're doing there with your everything?
Yeah, that.
sTAHP IT.
LEGIT.
NO.
The rest of the way is silent (yet a-fucking-gain) until we make it to a hidden beach with beautiful white sand and perfect frothing white waves.
There's a stack of sticks and driftwood stacked up bang in the middle with Sammi just kinda sitting there, staring at it.
I chuckle and look at Mikey whop has stopped and is just watching Sammi, the girl who is quickly becoming my best friend.
"What is she doing?" I ask him and he smiles, not even looking away before saying "I stopped asking that question a long time ago."
I chuckle and start walking over to her.
"Yo bish! What in the fish nipples are you doing?!" I yell and she looks straight back at me.
She suddenly jumps straight up, running to me and hugging me tight, screaming "YOU KNOW DESTERY, I LOVE YOU FOREVER!" In my ear
I chuckle and let go, looking her dead in the eye and saying "Support our troops, buy my asparagus."
She just collapses in a fit of giggles, but manages to yell "I LOVE THIS CHICK" to the other guys who were gathering more wood.
I chuckle and help her up, walking back to where she was and plonking down on the sand.
She sits with me and we get into a debate over who's cuter, Des or Nate.
I'm arguing Des for obvious reasons, sand she's arguing Nate because he's so cute and weird.
We stay like that until it starts getting late and someone throws a match at the wood with no warning at all.
It lights up faster than Sammi devouring sugar.
I squeal and so does Sammi, looking back we see Pete with a box of matches and Andy, Joe and Patrick pissing themselves laughing at our reactions.
I roll my eyes and turn around, sitting cross-legged with my arms crossed, pouting and glaring at them at the same.
Sammi does the same.
They just laugh at island I suddenly feel someone wrap their arms around me and pulling me back onto their lap making me squeal slightly.
"Hello..." I hear them say and kiss my cheek.
I smile a bit, recognising the persons voice.
"Hello Patrick." I say and he chuckles, turning me to him whilst I'm sitting on his lap.
Out of the corner of my eye, I swear I can see Mikey watching us like a hawk...
Patrick doesn't seem to notice.
Or maybe he does and is just ignoring him.
Either way, Patrick kisses me softly on the lips and that's when Mikey finally looks away.
I try my best to ignore Mikey and kiss back, wrapping my arms around his neck with a soft smile on my face.
"Guys, can you, like, not right now?" I heard Sammi say and I chuckle slightly against his lips.
Patrick smirks slightly and begins to kiss me a lot more aggressive though, obviously just to spite Sammi.
I catch onto what he's doing ultra-fast and kiss back roughly.
He softly pushes my shoulder, telling me to lie down, and I do.
He climbs on top of me and I hear Sammi fake gag and someone just sigh.
I don't wanna think that was Mikey but I just can't help it.
Pushing all thoughts of Mikey out of my head, I focus on Patrick, tangling one hand in his hair.
He smirks and begins to play with the hem on the bottom of my dress when Sammi FINALLY steps in.
"Ay! No. Nonononooononononooooooooooo." She whines and I laugh, pulling away.
Patrick laughs and sits up too.
I, involuntarily, look over at a glum looking Mikey and sigh.
I want to go over and sit with him but as I'm about to stand, Patrick pulls me back onto his lap and kisses my cheek again.
I, again, glance at Mikey and see him shoot a glare at Patrick before looking down at the sand.
I sigh slightly to myself and look down as well.
"You okay, babe? You seem down." Patrick asked sincerely.
I smile a bit and nod.
"Yeah. I'm fine." I say and kiss his cheek.
He just smiles and goes back to his conversation with Pete.
I look around out little camp thing, then up at the stars.
It really is a nice night.
Beautiful actually.
I notice Mikey has gone missing.
He's the only thing missing from this perfect picture.
I kiss Patrick on the cheek again and stand up, smiling and answering "for a walk" politely when he asks where I'm going and shake my head when he asks if I want him to come with me.
I begin to walk away, looking for lonely little Mikey.
It takes me a while before I find him but I eventually do find him.
He's sitting alone on a small rock pile, looking like a shadow in the bright moonlight.
"What're you doing all on your lonesome up here?" I ask and he jumps slightly before turning around.
"I didn't hear you show up. When did you get here?" He asks, smiling slightly.
I shrug.
"Just now. And you can thank my brother for my ninja reflexes." I say then pull some sick ninja moves, making him laugh.
I smile and climb up next to him, sitting with him.
"What's wrong, Mikey?" I ask and he sighs.
"I don't know. I'm just... Confused." He says and I nod.
"Me too... " I mutter.
I do like Patrick.
A lot.
But Mikey...
I shake my head free of thoughts quickly and sigh. "Tell me?" I ask.
He nods slowly and sighs too.
It's like sigh central up in this place.
"I love Taylor. I really do. But... There's this other girl..." He says and I feel my heart break a little.
If only you knew...
"I like her too... I barely know her though. But we kinda just clicked. She's gorgeous too. Like, even prettier than Taylor. She's one of us..." He continues with a slight frown but also a smile, thinking of the girl he's describing I suppose.
I can't help but wonder if its me.
I don't know.
Maybe.
Maybe it's Sage or someone though.
That probably would have been the perfect time to tell Mikey about Taylor but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
I couldn't hurt him like that.
He shakes his head quickly and smiles slightly.
"Anyway, how are you and Patrick? You nearly made Sammi throw up with your little PDA before." He says with a small chuckle.
I laugh a little and sigh almost happily.
"I don't know... And I don't even care to be honest. I'm fine like this." I say and he smiles.
But it looks almost forced.
"Well, does he make you happy? He's really a sweet guy. You can't go wrong with him." He says and I smile.
"Yeah. He does. And I know. He's pretty sweet." I say and he smiled again.
Another forced smile.
"Yeah... Hey,... Can I ask you something?" He asks and I nod.
"Of course. Anything." I say and he smiles.
"I don't want to break up with Taylor, and I really want to tell... The other girl... How I feel about her but I think it's too late. There's someone else after her." He says and my breath catches in my throat but I don't let it show.
Could he mean me?
No...
He couldn't mean me...
Could he?
No. No he doesn't mean me.
Why would he mean me?
I sigh.
"I think you should just let your heart decide what it wants. Give it enough time, and it'll tell you." I say and he smiles.
"That's so cliche." He says and I laugh.
"I know. But it's true." I say and he nods, smiling.
He's about to say something else when we hear the bushes ruffle and I see an outline of a familiar figure.
"Hey, I was looking for you. I thought you'd gotten lost. But you found Mikey." Patrick says, coming into view. "Gerard's been looking for you, Mikes."
Out of the corner of my eye, I see Mikey wince when Patrick shows up.
Like, he knows something is gonna happen.
I shrug it off and nod, smiling at Patrick, even if its fake.
I climb down from the rock and over to Patrick, taking his hand.
He kisses my cheek with a smile and waves at Mikey before leading me back to the fire.
I walk in complete silence with him, sighing every now and then.
Patrick glances at me but I guess he just decides to leave the subject alone.
I sit with Patrick and Pete for the rest of the night.
I can't help but have the feeling that he's trying to keep me away from Mikey...
Maybe they have a past...
I don't know but I do know that when Mikey gets back, we sneak glances at each other.
Like, a lot.
I don't know if he meant me back there.
But I would love it if he did.
He couldn't though.
And I guess it doesn't matter now.
I have Patrick.
He has Taylor.
End of story, right?

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