Living in the Light

Why is it so dark in here? I looked over to the clock on the TV and it was weird. It didn’t say the time but it said my name on it in green flashing letters. I got up off the couch and headed for the kitchen, I wonder if Gee is in there. I padded over to the kitchen and someone was in there but Im getting a strange vibe saying its not him. I was starting to feeling a panic attack coming but my body was forcing me towards the person in the kitchen.

“Frank, I see your awake.” The person still wasnt facing me.

“Yeah...”

All of a sudden my arms were wrapping themselves around the persons waist. But im not doing this I cant even control my movement right now. My headed snuggled its way into the side of this person. I felt a cold hand just like Gerard's caress my face to give me a kiss on the head. I finally jerked away from the kiss and let go all together. I started to step away and nod my head violently side to side. Thats when I noticed that the person had the black tail like the...guy I saw..

“No no no no” I kept repeating over and over again.

The person turned to face me and started walking slowly towards me. Wait...It looks like Gerard. But I know its not him. Gee doesnt have those red eyes....at least not like those ones.

“Frankie...I missed you...” He started to looks sad like I did something. “Babe please dont go...Please!! I fucking want you!” I was starting to give in I can feel it. Thats when my legs started to move me forward and my arms were stretching so I can give him a hug. "Now that I have you here...I never liked you for one second." He whispered into my ear. But I kept smiling and loving this pain. It was weird as hell though. "You were just another fuck for me..." My heart started breaking I can feel it. It hurt and I felt a tear falling. This isnt right. But thats when I noticed the tail again.

“No! Your not Gerard!” I started hissing at him and growling.

“Your right..Hmm..maybe I should try this...”

He looked pretty angry now. But this time he looked like the same figure I saw outside that day. He was a very sickly colored white with his red eyes looking to pop out of his head. I was starting to get scared he was scary looking. His tail moving back and forth he started to grow claws and his skin was ripping. It was gross. He opened his mouth and I saw the skin around his jaw rip and long white fangs shootted out. I ran. I couldnt stay there long. I just sensed it.

“COME BACK HERE YOU BITCH!!!”

“TRYING TO RUN AWAY FROM ME!! ILL KILL YOU!”

Thats when I felt a pair of teeth sink into my neck. I let out the loudest scream ever. I felt my blood running down my neck and it wasn't a good feeling not the way I felt when Gerard did that to me. I tried pushing him off but I felt my strength going. I couldnt do anything but scream.

“FRANK! FRANKIE WAKE UP!!!!”

I felt someone shaking the shit out of me. But I couldnt open my eyes. It was working so I moved my arms everywhere. I felt a pair of cold hands touching me now. Thats when I woke up. I opened my eyes and ran. I ran all the way to the bathroom not seeing anyone but the door to the bathroom. What if it was that thing touching me. I dont want to go back out there if it is. I slammed the door hard behind me and locked and sunk down to the ground. My shoulders were shuttering and I can feel the tears about to fall. A panic attack.

“Frank open the door!” I heard.

I couldnt. I was to scared to even try. I just sat there sobbing with my legs pushed up against my chest and my arms wrapped around them. I need something. I need my friend, the ones that keep my feeling high, the ones that make the pain go away. At least I was smart enough to bring some with me. I pulled a packet of downers out of my pocket and took two dry. I can already feel the narcotics working on me. But I wish Gerard was there to help me. I thought he said he would protect me. Why didn’t he do that in my dream. Im so scared now.

“Frankie I did say that. And I promised you but I cant save you from everything unless you tell me what happened in that episode back there.” Okay now Im certain thats Gerard.

“I was scared...Okay!?” I need you.

There was a bit of a silence until I got up and unlock the door. Gerard came rushing to me and giving me a hug pushing my head into the crook of his neck. He kept petting my hair to calm my emotions. Once I realized what he was doing I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tighter letting my tears fall onto his bare shoulder. We stayed like this until I stopped crying which was for a while.

I pulled away with my eyes closed still trying to catch my breath. I dont want to look and its that thing and everything in that dream was actually real. But if I dont open them Gerard will probably start to thinking that Im crazy and send me to some sort of asylum for vampires or some shit like that.

“You can open your eyes now, Frankie. Everything is fine Im here, okay?” He was still holding onto my waist. I took a deep breathe and opened them slowly. It was Gee. Thank fuck.

“How bad was it?”

“Really bad.”

“Was....he in there?”

I just nodded my head. I couldnt right now. I dont even want to think about that thing. It was just to much to handle at the moment.

“I understand...”

He let go of me and held my hand and we walked upstairs to his room. I can feel the downers already starting to kick in. I was already losing my balance as we were walking. I tripped, I stumbled, I did everything but walk straight. We finally made it to the room and Im already getting high. Thats when I was hit with a question.

“Is everything okay Frankie? You dont seem-”

“Im fine Gerard! Just t-t-tired...”

I walked right passed him and stretched out a bit and I can sense that Gerard knows whats going on.

“Why are your fangs popping out like that?” He said with a blank expression.

His arms were crossed and he was leaning on the door frame as he watched me. I lifted my hands up to my mouth and touched them for myself.

“You tell meeee?....” I started walking to him but I fell on my face. I muttered 'stupid fucking feet.' to myself. I rolled over on my back and looked over to Gerard who shut the door behind him and walked over to me. He started to eye my tattoos then looked over to my neck. He leaned down and took a good sniff at it. Then his eyes changed to a pale blue. Im in for it now.

“You bet your ass you are. What are you taking?”

I didn’t answer.

“Frankie, come one Im your boyfriend. Even if you dont tell me Im bound to find out some way or another.” He sat criss crossed in front of me. I decided to get up and walk to the door. But Gerard stopped me. He pushed me against a wall and cornered me. I can tell hes getting angry with me. I guess my guts better spill.

“Alright alright..” I let out a little chuckle. “You got me red handed you narc...But at least let me have my space..” Gee backed up off me. Finally room to breathe. “I took some of these.” I pulled them out of my pocket and gave them Gerard. He examined it at first.

“Ativan? Why? You dont have depression.” He looked at me puzzled it looked really cute though. I just want to- No. I walked to the other side of the room not really wanting to be bothered.

“I was taking them to get me high, jackass.”

“But sugar...You can get-”

“Addicted? I know. I already am and have been. Im just...ugh. Lets go somewhere. For a drive.”

I left Gerard in the room with my packets and went outside where he soon met me. I was already lighting up cigarette and feeling the drugs wearing off. It was still day time and Gerard handed me a pair of sunglasses. I just want my mind off of today right now and somewhere else. We walked to the car in silence once I was done. Gerard opened my door for me and closed it. Ugh! I hate when he acts like a gentlemen around me even though its so cute and sweet. He started the engine and we just sat there.

“Where do you wanna go?”

“I dont know. You choose.” I know Im being a bit stubborn but I need to be. I havent been that way in a while. I heard Gerard hit his hand on the stirring wheel. I looked over to him to see if hes okay. His hands went to his temples and his started rubbing them. I placed my hand on his leg and started rubbing it gently to calm him. Maybe he needs the downers.

“No I dont Frank.”

“It was just a thought....Whats wrong then?”

“Im fine..”

It was silent for a bit until I broke it. “How about we just drive downtown and do vampire shit."

Gerard laughed to himself a bit before leaning over and giving me a kiss on the cheek.

Notes

I think this was pretty long for me. Lol thats what she said. I seriously just called one of those on myself. Anyway. Hi everyone I hope your summer is going great. My high school just sent out a shit load of summer work to do before we go back and I only have about 2 or 3 weeks to do this and of course me being me I will procrastinate until the last minute. Yes, kids this is what happens when we are in high school. You save everything for the last minute that is how shit gets done.

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter its a very interesting one. The way Frank brings up his drug addictions and stuff but Gerard seems to shrug it off but dont worry he will pretty soon have enough. Petty fights everywhere!!!

Title Credit: Green Day 'Oh Love'.


P.S Im kinda running out of ideas for what to happen next so leave in the comments any suggestions on what you think should happen next so my brain can run on these new fresh ideas. THANK YOU!!!