The only Hope

Hope’s pov:

It had been exactly a week since Gerard had fallen off the roof. He wouldn’t leave his room unless he had to eat or shower. He kept cancelling trainings and hadn’t spoken a word to me. I was really getting worried.

Ray, Frank, Mikey and I were having dinner when Gerard came walking downstairs.

“Hey.” I greeted him. Nothing.

He walked over to the kitchen counter and made some coffee. It’s evening for fuck sake, what was he thinking?

“You know… It’s evening.” I spat sarcastically. Frank, Mikey and Ray looked at me.

“You know… I don’t give a fuck.” He said without looking at me. This was the first thing he had said to me in a week. Frank sighed. I know he was getting tired of Gerard too.

“Well maybe if you left your room once in a while, you would notice what part of the day it is.” I spat.

I heard he dropped something. He picked it up again and continued to make his coffee. He was pissed off, I knew that much…

I looked at Frank and mouthed “say something”. He nodded and sat straight up this time.

“Yo Gee, at least eat something man.” No respond.

Gerard was done making his coffee and went upstairs again.

“Well, it was worth the shot.” Mikey got up and started cleaning the table.

“What do you mean worth the shot? He has to eat! What is wrong with him!? Why is he acting like this lately!?” My voice sounded hysterically.

Ray also left the table and started doing the dishes. “Don’t know, he is like this sometimes though. He’ll just be in his room drawing, but… Never this long.”

“Yeah, that’s right.” Frank got up to help them. “But I think he’s just bummed out by a lot of things. He’s had a rough three months, okay? And falling off that roof? Well that was the straw that broke the camel’s back.”

Mikey nodded. “I mean my mom died too you know. The only thing is I wasn’t there to see it happen, Gerard was.” Wait, what?

Frank almost dropped a plate, but caught it. “Mikes…” He hissed.

“He saw his own mother die?” Well no fucking wonder he is acting like this.

Frank sighed and looked at Mikey, who was looking at Ray and Frank. His face confused. “Oh, she didn’t know?”

“Well now she does…” Ray muttered. “Look, Gerard doesn’t like it when we talk about it.”

Frank nodded. “That’s why I said “when the time is right”, but I guess you should wait just a bit longer…”

Ray looked at Frank. “What? You told her too?”

Frank shook his head. “No, she asked why he acted that way. I said to wait until the time was right and then she could ask about Donna.” Ray gave him a weird look.

“So Donna was your and Gerard’s mother?” I looked at Mikey. He nodded and dropped his eyes.

“What happened? Korse got to her didn’t he…?” I asked softly.

Mikey looked away. Ray was facing me now. “Look, let’s just drop it okay.”

“Yeah, and if you really want to know the story… You’ll have to ask Gerard.” Mikey faked a smile and went to the living room. Ray followed and soon after that I heard the radio.

I looked down at my plate. I had barely eaten.

Frank was done cleaning the kitchen and was about to go to the living room as well. “Hey kid, clean up after yourself when you’re done, okay? And you should probably eat that, people need food you know.” I nodded. Frank smiled and then walked away.

The truth was I wasn’t hungry. Some potatoes and peas were staring at me from my plate, but they weren’t persuading me.

Should I bring Gerard some food? Maybe that wasn’t the best idea, but he had to eat.

I grabbed the plate, a knife, fork and spoon and went upstairs. Gerard wasn’t really fond of me apparently and I was aware of it, so I took a deep breath as I stood right in front of his room. I knocked on the door.

Nothing.

I knocked again. Still nothing.

Okay, fuck this. I opened the door and saw Gerard sitting at his desk with only one small light on his left. I walked inside as he turned around.

“Please go away.” He spat.

“No, you need to eat. You haven’t eaten properly in…”

He interrupted me. “Please leave while I’m asking it nicely.”

I put the plate on his bed and placed my hands on my hips.

“I won’t leave until you finish that.”

“Leave now!” He started to get angry.

“Or else?” I narrowed my eyes.

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