The only Hope

Gerard’s pov:

“Oh sorry, forgot to… Oh god.” I stuttered.

Hope quickly put her arms in front of her chest. I walked towards the door. Hope was just standing there, she had a scared look on her face.

“I’ll uhm… Let me… Let me get you some clothes.” I walked out of the bathroom.

God, this isn’t what I wanted. I scared the shit out of that girl, again! Fuck…

I entered my room and grabbed the clothes Ray and Mikey had brought. I walked back and knocked on the bathroom door.

“Can I come in?”

“Yeah…” She said softly.

I walked in and handed her the clothes. “Here you go, hope this fits.”

I was about to sit down.

“Thanks, but… I need your help again.”

“Uhm, sure. What do you need me to do?” I turned around again, she was still in the same position.

“Do you know how to put on a bandage?” She asked.

“Yeah of course, I forgot, I’m sorry…” God, I was distracted… I looked in some drawers and found bandage material.

I walked over to her and her body started to move away from me. I looked at her.

“I’m sorry…” She said. “I don’t know why I keep doing that, it’s just a reaction… Nothing personal.” She smiled. She had a beautiful smile, even though this was a fake one and she wasn’t comfortable with me at all.

“Don’t worry, not going to hurt you remember?” She nodded and relaxed a little.

She had cleaned her wound perfectly fine and I had put the bandage on in no-time, but the last bit was a struggle. I had to keep it in place and added some tape to my masterpiece on her arm. She hissed.

“Hey, what was that about not hurting me?” She joked.

I smiled. “Sorry, darling.” Did I just call her darling? She was looking at me now, but she was still smiling, so I guess that’s a good thing.

“Can you help me put on my clothes now?”

“Sure, choose.” Ray and Mikey had brought several piece of clothing, but she chose the blue top and some leggings.

“Okay, now I need you to put your arms out again. I’ll try not to look, okay? But still, I need to guide and stuff, so…” I blushed. I had already seen her naked, when I brought her here. She was perfect. So small and delicate, gorgeous body… Okay Gerard, stop.

“Don’t worry.” She smiled at me again. I guess that was a green light.

She put out her arms and I carefully pulled the shirt over her arms and head. The rest of it fell down and covered her torso. Everything went so gradually.

“You want to keep those pants on?” Secretly I hoped she wouldn’t.

“No, they got kind of filthy as well…” Not a problem at all.

I kneeled in front of her and started pulling down her pants, my eyes locked on hers.

The pants fell down easily. It were still my pants so they were way too big. I met her smooth, porcelain legs again. My hand automatically touched the side of her leg, as I pulled the pants away with the other. She stepped out of them, moving those beautiful legs.

I moved my hand up again and stood up. I smiled, she was still wearing my underwear.

“You wanna keep those on then? They brought you panties, you know.” I pointed at my boxershorts.

“Oh…” I had removed my hand already, but she was still bit distracted it seemed. “Uhm, I think I’ll change those in the morning. I’ll just sleep like this, it’s not that cold.”

She blushed and with that I couldn’t hold myself back anymore.

I pushed her against the sink with my body and looked down at her. I didn’t want to make her do things she wasn’t comfortable with. Her eyes widened, but not in a negative way. They were looking up at me. She didn’t look scared anymore.

I moved my head closer to hers and paused there. If she didn’t want to do this, this was her chance. She could push me away, but she didn’t. I leaned in and kissed her neck. She moaned softly.

“Shhh.” I moved my hands to her legs again. She shivered lightly.

“Oh…” She started to pant a bit.

I repeated to kiss her neck. Then I made my way up and put a kiss right in front of her ear. She shivered again.

This time I moved my hands up the boxershorts. My fingers touched her behind softly. I went back to her leg and pulled it up slowly. She wasn’t moving at all, so I thought I’d help her.

I looked into her eyes again, realizing that now… They showed fear in them. I immediately pushed myself away from her and stood right in front of her now. She was panting and unable to speak.

“I’m so sorry… I… I don’t know what… Why…” We stared at each other. She was holding back tears and I knew it.

“Look, you should get some rest…”

She interrupted me. “I… I can take it from here. I know the way to my room…”

She quickly started to gather the rest of the clothes Ray and Mikey had brought and ran out of the bathroom.

I stood there. Gerard. You just fucked up.

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