Struggling with more Ways than one

~Gerard's POV~
I sit in my chair at work during lunch and try not to think about Fletcher. I can't have her, I just can't. It's inappropriate and wrong. Even if we hid our relationship there'd still be the threat of witnesses and someone finding out. It's just too risky. I've spent the last two weeks diverting myself from her to see if limited interactions with her would lessen my affections for her. Boy was I wrong, it did the total opposite. Every morning at breakfast I had to inflict pain on myself to not talk to her or embrace her. I swear I have a hole in my cheek from where I bit myself so I wouldn't talk to her. Blood mixing in with my coffee was a common occurrence. Every time I think back to the kiss I die a little bit inside, knowing that our relationship could never work out in the way we want. Not that I didn't enjoy the kiss, I loved every minute of it; I never wanted it to end. The way her lips felt on mine was an inexplicable sensation. Everything about her is magnetic. I sigh and run my fingers through my shaggy hair and lean back in my seat, eyes wandering around the room from boredom. I throw away my sandwich and look outside to see a pair of flashing lights speeding down the road. My ears distinguish the siren as an ambulances and my mind begins to trail off to why one could be here at Belleville. My brain doesn't rack up an answer so I pay it no major significance and wait for my next class to take their seats. As I'm about to start the next lesson the phone rings, I pick it up and it's the school nurse.
"Yello?"
"Is this Mr. Way?" she asks.
"In the flesh."
"Mikey's had a servere asthma attack, we had to rush him to the hospital earlier today, the dctors would like you there immediately but I have informed them you still have to teach-"
"Get to the point." I demand though gritted teeth.
"You need to head to the hospital after school to sign sheets for your brother Michael."
"Thank you and have a good day." I spit angrily and slam the phone back onto the stand. Anger courses through my veins but not directed at one single person. I can't lose my baby brother, he's my best friend. I'll fall into an even deeper hell hole if he were to die. I clench my arm, digging my nails into my skin. I realize I'm making a scene and order the students to get to work.
"But you haven't given us an assignment-"
"Draw a symbol the represents the worst thing that has ever happened to you up to this moment in time." I seethe at the brown haired boy. I sit in my chair and try to figure out what the actual fuck I'm going to do about this...
*
Time seemed to go at a snails pace. The bell finally rung dismissing my last class and bringing in my final class of the day. This class is Fletcher's class. I'm on the brink of tears when I realize that Mikey is Fletcher's best friend too, she's going to be utterly devastated when I tell her what happened... I can't take it anymore. I go into the storage room and let the tears fall. They stick in my hair and slide down my face onto my shoes and the floor. I hear the bell ring and take a couple of minutes to clean myself up the best I could. I look the mirror and I look like a pile of shit.
Well that's what I feel like... I think to myself before coming out of the storage room.
I could hear Fletcher and the new girl chatting all the way from my desk but I'm too tired to reprimand them, and besides fletcher actually looks like she's enjoying herself for once.
If today had been a normal day I would have put aside some time to introduce the new girl to the class and take some time to catch her up, but today isn't a normal day so I lay my head down on my desk and try to calm down.
Class ends soon enough and the class files out of the classroom and I hear Fletcher say goodbye to her new friend.
"Later Kat!" She yells.
I hear her quiet footsteps walk behind me, she puts her small hand on my shoulder and I feel a little bit better. I want to wrap her arms around me and tell me everything's okay, she's my missing piece and I'll have been doing the past few weeks is putting her back in the box. When she asks what's wrong I come out and tell her. After al
Mikey's her best friend too.
"It's Mikey."
Her eyes fill with concern as she starts asking questions and when I finally tell her what happens she lets the tears fall and I cant resist her anymore. I let her sit on my lap as I stroke her hair and rest my head on her shoulder. How could something so beautiful be so wrong?
I just don't know... I let her finish crying and then I take her to the hospital with me. It's a longer drive than normal but we just sit in silence rather than getting things off of our chests. I quickly pull into the parking lot, park, lock the car, and run into the hospital almost forgetting Fletcher.
"Gerard wait!" She yells. I stop for her and she clings to my side, I don't mind it but I do question it.
"I've never been in a hospital before." I smile at her innocence and outstretch my hand, her small hand fits perfectly in mine.
We get Mikey's room number and Fletcher and I almost trip over our own feet rushing to the elevator. Some old people give us weird glances but we couldn't care less. I let Fletcher push the buttons and we sprint to Mikey's room when the elevator lets off.
"Hi guys." He mumbles when he sees us.
"MIKEY!" Fletcher cries jumping onto him and cuddling into his chest like a puppy.
He pats her head and smiles at me.
"Sup bro."
"Sup." I say as I sit down.
"Can I go home now? Hospitals kind of freak me out." Mikey says looking around nervously.
"Sure bro I just gotta sign a waver and you're a free man."
"Wewp Wewp!" Mikey shouts raising up his hands.
I sign the wavers and we all walk out to the car together.
"I'm so glad you're okay Mikes." Fletcher says.
"Me too." I chime in.
"Good thing I had my lucky keychain!" he beams and we all laugh.
I start the car and down the road Fletcher says something that brings tears to my eyes.
"I'm happy we have 3 car seats filled up."
"I couldn't agree more."

Notes

I was listening to ETF's 'Picture Perfect' and I felt like this kind of describes Gerard after he receives the call except maybe for the Death part, but of course he doesn't know that so maybe it does fit in it. Here's the link if you guys are interested in it ^-^
Escape the Fate 'Picture Perfect'
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