Struggling with more Ways than one

The car ride home was silent, an eerie silence. I didn't like it. We got home and Gerard immediately went upstairs to his room, not even a single goodbye or anything. This is so unlike him, I hope I didn't fuck things up between us by kissing back. Ugh I'm so stupid! This is why no one loves me! I cry silently into the couch until I realize there's someone who can love me. Or something rather...
My blades.
I search desperately through my bag until I find the sacred piece of metal that can take every bad thing away. I run into the bathroom and lock the door so nobody interrupts my processes. I let the blades tear through my skin and I sigh as it stings and lets out everything negative.
Not being loved.
Wendy.
Bullies.
Everything in general.
I stop the water and then wrap toilet paper around the cut even thought that didn't seem to work last time, thinking back to Gerard and I's first encounter. I change into the last pair of clean clothes I have stored in my backpack and make my way into bed, trying not to put pressure on my inflicted arm. I sigh and try not to cry myself to sleep.
~2 weeks later~
I walk to school alone again, the harsh fall weather rolling in sooner than expected. I pull up my hoodie and walk to school unguarded. Mikey's been heading to some school club in the mornings so I've been alone for about a week or so. I'm used to it by now, but it would be nice to have someone I can easily talk to like Mikey. Gerard's still giving me the cold shoulder so I haven't been riding with him to school in the mornings lately. I stroll into the building and head to biology on the look out for Rebeka's Bitchel squad. I'm genuinely surprised to not see them policing the hallways.
I walk into my biology class to see a girl in a checkerboard flannel button down, black skinnies, sky blue high-tops. Her hair is dyed a dark red with streaks of yellow at the ends. She turns around and greets me, jumping off the table she was sitting on.
"Sup," she says sticking out her hand. "I'm Kat."

Notes

Short chapter! Sorry guys It's late and I'm tired so I have to get to bed I'll try to update tomorrow as soon as I can!!!!! >_< I promise I'll go in depth with Kats character in the update as well and how she factors into the story. :)
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