Killing Them Softly- COMPLETED

What the fuck is wrong with me? What am I doing? I am losing control on myself and on this situation. Did I almost hit Kay just like our bastard father use to do? As I laid on my bed I could feel this pressure building up inside. I needed to release this anger, this tension before I snapped.

A soft knock came at my door, I opened my door fast to see Emily. She was standing there in nothing but a long shirt she used as a nightgown. It covered her enough, going just to her knees. "Are you okay?" Her voice filled with concern, I couldn't take this feeling any longer.

I grabbed her wrist, pulling her in my room and slammed the door behind her. Then I pushed her against it, a loud thud came from me pushing her too hard. I held her hands above her head with one hand as my mouth found its way to her neck. Using force I made my mark, my other hand ran up her shirt and grabbing her beautiful breasts.

"Gerard..." My name escaped her lips in a soft moan. I lifted the shirt above her head and kissed her lips, forcing my tongue inside without asking permission. She was getting weak, so I moved her toward the bed without breaking the kiss. Next I pulled down my pants as she lifted off my shirt.

After everything my mind started to flash in and out of reality. I heard Emily screaming but somehow my body was still able to function. My hand covered her mouth as I continued, everything finally went black.

When I woke up I was alone in my bed, quickly I on some pants and went to find Emily. I checked her room, there was quiet sobs coming from the closet. "Emily?" The closet door was locked, "Emily, please let me in." Her cries continued, what did I do to her?

I grabbed my set of keys and unlocked the closet door. There she was, sitting against the back wall, knees to her chest. "Emily?" Slowly I moved towards her, crouching to get to her level. "What happened?"

She looked up at me, tears falling rapidly, and then I saw the bruise. "What do you mean, what happened?"

"Emily, I blacked out last night. Whatever happened I didn't mean to do it, you know I would never hurt you.

"I'm leaving this place, I'm leaving you and you can't stop me." I couldn't let her leave, I grabbed her and pulled her up.

"You're not leaving me, ever." In my pocket I found my pocket knife, I opened it up and slid it across her throat. "If I can't have you, no one can." She fell to the floor, blood pouring out and I just watched. I even smiled, there laid the girl I loved bleeding and I smiled.

"Gerard? Gerard, wake up." My eyes opened abruptly, my breathing was coming out in bursts. Finally I saw her, my Emily staring at me with a concerned look.

"Emily? What time is it?"

"I think it's almost two in the afternoon, you've been sleeping al day."

"Did you come to my room last night?" She shook her head no, it was a dream, it was all a dream. I was so happy I didn't hurt her, I grabbed her tightly and pulled her on top of me.

She smiled and hugged me back, "Gerard, what's wrong? Bad dream?"

"Yeah, real bad. I'm just glad you're okay."

"Of course I am, and Kay explained everything to me this morning."

"What did she say?"

"She said she was the one screaming and that you two got in this really big fight." Why would Kay help me? After everything that happened last night, she would be pissed.

"Where is she now?"

"She left to go into town, said she wanted to go get some things." Again she smiled at me, I wanted to pull her close and never let her go. "It's snowing again, I was wondering if you wanted to go play with me."

"Of course, just let me get dressed."

"Okay, I made coffee too."

"You're perfect Emily." Happily she got off me and left downstairs. I took a deep breathe, it was a dream but how much of it was a dream? Emily did hear the screaming but did I really try to hit Kay? Guess I would find that out when she got home.

Emily and I were outside when Kay finally returned. We were building snowmen, three of them, one for each of us. "Hey Kaitlyn!" Emily was really happy today and I felt everything would be alright.

"Hey! Gerard I have some stuff I need your help to take down into the basement."

"Can I help?"

"No, you help out enough. Just stay and finish those snowmen, I'll have Gee return quick." I kissed Emily's cheek and went to the truck. There was several bags and I grabbed most of them, I only wanted to make one trip. Once Kay and I were down in the hidden room, it was time we talked.

"Kay, what happened last night?"

"You were about to hit me with your belt but stopped yourself. Don't worry I explained the screaming to your precious Emily."

"Why?"

"Why do you think I have a motive behind this?"

"Because when you get pissed off, you come up with a plan. I know how you think, now what is it?"

"Nothing, I swear it. You can leave now." She started to unpack the supplies and it made me wonder what she had planned. Rope, acid, duct tape, nails, and more. "Don't worry I'm not doing anything to them, not without you."

I headed back outside, still not trusting her completely. Until she made her move there wasn't anything I could do, but I would wait. Emily and I continued to play, kissing as the snow fell onto our faces.

Everything seemed like it was going smoothly. Everyday was as great as the other, Emily would stay home as Kay and I went to work. We had to make money somehow, she worked at the grocery store an I worked at the library.

Soon a couple months passed, Halloween and Thanksgiving going very well. On Halloween all three of us sat and watched scary movies all night long, and ate a ton of candy. Thanksgiving was peaceful and Emily and Kay cooked the dinner, the turkey was amazing. Kay and I would go downstairs and play together just like old times. She even convinced me to cut open Frank's mouth.

We were happy with our family downstairs. Another month passed and Christmas was in two days. Emily was sick, throwing up almost everyday. She laid in bed, I would bring her orange juice and soup but she couldn't keep it down. Finally I took her to the doctor's office, she went in as I went shopping.

When I picked her up, she wouldn't tell me what the doctor said but just stayed quiet. Christmas finally came, and we opened our presents. Kay got me a tool set, Emily thought it was for home improving but in reality it was for torture. I got Kay a journal and an Edgar Allen Poe book.

Next Kay gave Emily a locket, one side had a picture of me and the other side was Emily. "Kay this is beautiful, thank you so much." Emily handed Kay her gift which was a sketch pad and art pencils.

"Wow, this is amazing."

"I've seen you drawing, thought you would enjoy professional items." Kay hugged her tight and I actually saw a tear.

"Okay where's my gift?" Emily handed me a box, slowly I opened it. Inside there was picture, even though it didn't cost a thing this was the greatest present ever. I looked up at her and smiled. My gift this Christmas was finding out Emily was pregnant.

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