Heaven Help Us

Dear Gerard,

Life and living is so new to us.

It seems like yesterday you found me sitting alone, hiding in my writing, you in your art. When I saw your drawings for the first time I remember vividly how transparent our similarities became; that our hearts new the same struggles and we where each others remedies for the toxic pasts we carried in our childhood.

Love was never an easy thing for us to find solace in, but where love failed us the need for understanding was enough. With lives beginning so fully dependent on the complications of a love like ours.

I only expected greatness from it, a constant fire lighting the way as we figured out what life truly meant for people like us.

But love is feeling that can only hold a person like me together for so long.
We should have never left the little home we made for ourselves,I feel so far from you now. Will we ever be as close as we where?

Hiding ourselves in that huge city making art and music, building a life so perfect that even now I feel as if this new beginning will never compare.

It is killing me even now.

This poison will reach you too, and I love you so terribly that I must amputate my soul from yours so that you can carry on whats left of us and survive.

Survive, prevail and live a life so full that what's left of us is not spent in the purgatory I am stuck in.
I will wait for you love, their is no need to look back.

I have left every good piece of myself with you for safe keeping, gain strength form it. She is my last gift to you, and our greatest work.
I love her
I love you
In that love I am not afraid.
I will not make excuses or give reason, life comes and life goes, and I am done.

In this ending everything is clear and here is where I must stay.
Say goodbye and be contented.

Goodnight.

Notes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3GewdfETcM
So here is the beginning, I am going to try and put a lot into this story so it might take a little longer to update. I'll make sure to keep going, hopefully with the encouragement and critique from you readers. Let me know if this is to dense, the rest of the story wont be as wordy...unless you want it to be.
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****I also would like to say that, I know a lot of people struggle with finding hope in the future and in themselves and the people around them.
I want to say that their is hope. Life is a struggle but the other side of that struggle is so beautiful and worth being fought.
Anyone who feels like they are alone, your not. If you ever need someone to talk to or whatever, this is the place to speak out.
This is what this band is about, a community where its okay to be the outsider, we are a community of outsiders.
This band has built an army that will save your life; and its up to us to continue that mission.
-Alba