Guitar Picks and Paper Cartoons

Gerard, being the type of person that he is, agreed to figure out rules that we were going by. We defiantly weren't dating but we weren't just friends. If people asked we weren't together but we agreed no new PDA such as holding hands, kissing, and no groping. Those things were only allowed when no one was around. After Gerard left I really began thinking about it. Am I his secret friend with benefits, I don't know if I really like this. But what was I supposed to do. Pretend like there nothing happened and take it all away. It's the only thing that was making me feel detached from this world. That's what I needed. A way to leave this place.

My alarm rang through loud as can be in the morning and I was so tied that I ripped it out of the wall and through it across the room. About an hour latter there was a knock on my window. I just groaned and stumbled to the window. Gerard looked in to find sleepy me looking back at him.

"No school?" he asked with his arms crossed from the cold weather.

"I hate school and it's to cold so yes no school." He laughed at my tired state.

"Okay well I'm gonna go and ditch Mikey at school. I'll be back in about a half hour. 'Kay?" I nodded and he walked away. I was confused at why he wanted to ditch with me but was to tired to care. I shut the window except for a crack and went to tell my mom I couldn't go to school. She bought the excuse I made and was gone from the house within 20 minutes. I was laying in bed half awake when I heard the window open up and a body climb through. The window shut and the person came over toward the bed. I heard him kick his shoes off and remove his sweatshirt and then climb into the bed next to me. As his cold hand slide around me, I jumped and turned around.

"You know I could have been a murderer," he smiled at me.

"Murderers don't shut the window or take off their shoes," I said smiling back. I gently kissed his lips. "Humm I don't want to move," I groaned.

"Then don't. We have all day to us." I smiled and rolled over. We spooned for awhile until I woke back up around 10:30. I rolled over to find Gerard missing. I sat up and looked around the room to find him no where.

"Gerard?" I yelled. No one answered. I quickly stood up and ran into the hallway, he wasn't there. I ran to the bathroom but he wasn't there either.

"Oh your up," his voice said from behind me. I quickly turned to see he was in fact there.

"I didn't know where you went sorry, I was..." He came up to me and put his arms around my waist.

"Worried?"

"No confused. I thought, I don't know that I had dreamt everything up." I put my arms around his neck and closed my eyes. I didn't want to leave this position. He finally pulled away.

"I was watching tv in the other room."

"I see well it's cold I'm going back in my warm room," I said as I turned around to leave. He smiled back and followed me into the room. I crawled back in bed and he followed throwing his arm around me. I turned over and faced him. "Why did you skip today I mean, wont you get in trouble," I asked him playing with the string on his sweatshirt.

"I don't know probably but whatever... I just wanted to be with you." He leaned in and kissed me softly. And again more roughly. I let my arms fall onto his chest which enticed him to roll on top of me. He propped his weight on his hands that were on either side of me. He licked my bottom lip begging for entrance. Remembering what happened last time I parted my lips for him. His tongue immediately taking dominancy. His hands slowly slide down my body to the bottom of my tank top. I twisted my fingers through his hair, indulging myself in him while I could. His hands lightly graced my skin sending shivers up my spine. I laughed and twisted in position.

"Your hands are so cold," I laughed. He smiled at this and touched me again. I pulled away more, his arms grasping around me to prevent me from going far.

"Then it's your job to warm them up," he laughed to me. I smiled back at him and pulled his hands up to my face and blew on them making him laugh. He lend over and kissed my forehead. I smiled back and him intertwining my hands in his. I lend forward and kissed him. We continued to kiss like that for a moment and then he rolled back on top of me but this time his hands went right under my shirt without hesitation. A wave of warmth passed through me and I smiled into the kiss. My hands traveled to his waist and I felt his hard on begin to grow again. He rolled us over making him fall on the bottom. I straddled him as his hands made there way to my bra clasp. I inhaled nervously and he must have sensed this because he pulled away.

"Do you want me to stop?" he asked in a rough voice that sounded like he needed water. I shock me head to scared to talk. He continued and unclipped my bra. He removed his lips from mine and placed them on my neck. I moaned and he began to kiss with a little more teeth than normal. His hands shifted to my boobs which were now easily reachable. His breathing increased and his member grew even more. I sat up allowing him to remove my shirt and lose bra. I could feel myself blushing and nervously look away. He sat up with me and wrapped his arms around me tight.

"You look beautiful," he whispered into my ears as I held back tears. I was scared no one had ever seen me like this before and especially not a guy. Our making out stopped at what it was and became more of a cuddling moment. About an hour passed before anything was said.

"How did you get them?" Gerard asked tracing the scars on my chest. They covered my entire right side from the top of my breast to the bottom of my rib cage. There was one solid scar down the center of my chest.

"I was in a car accident, two months and eleven days before I moved here," I said calmly. He lend down and kissed them.

"Must have been some car accident."

"You could say it was a life taker," I said barely above a whisper.

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~Nailsntacks