Guitar Picks and Paper Cartoons

The rest of the day was weird. It didn't feel like us it felt like we were five years old and he just found out I slept with stuffed animals. We grabbed some food and then walked around town for a while. Finally to my relief Gerard had to go home when he remembered his grandma was coming over to make dinner. I lied saying that I needed to go do homework and we departed from each other.

I didn't know how I was feeling at this moment. I mean Gerard was Gerard and nothing could change that to me. I wanted to stop anything from happening, I had to or did I? I had no idea and I just wanted someone to talk to about it. But there was no one to talk to. Gerard was my best friend here and he was part of this. I couldn't talk to my mom or my dad the only family member I had ever talked to about these things was Hannah. I was missing her now more than ever before. I decided to go to sleep even though it was only 8. I laid down to find that sleep would never come. I sighed and through myself out of bed. It was about 11:30. I walked over to my guitar and pulled it out.

I woke up to sun shine in my face and my guitar discarded on the floor. I looked at the clock and realized that it was 2 in the afternoon. I groaned and got up to take a shower. After I felt refreshed from the shower, I looked at the phone, and saw that I missed a call from Gerard. I called him back while looking for my shoes.

"Hello?" It was mikey on the other end.

"Hey is Gerard there?"

"Yeah one second. Gerard, Anya's on the phone." I laughed a little as I heard what sounded like Gerard tripping to get to the phone.

"Hey," the familiar voice of Gerard echoed back.

"Hey I saw that I missed your call?"

"Oh yeah I wanted to know what you were doing today. I'm kinda bored."

"kay do you want me to come over?"

"Yeah I'll be by in 10 to come get you."

"I can walk Gerard."

"Anya remember what happened last time you said that?" I paused for a moment not wanting to admit he was? right.

"Fine I'll see you in a few." I looked out the window it was a typical october day out. I grabbed my guitar again and began to play it. In a few minuets I heard Gerard knock on the window. I put my guitar down and left out the window. Things seemed to be as they always were. Maybe last night I was just being crazy. We got to his place and walked downstairs to see Mikey and Ray sitting on the couch watching some movie.

"Hey guys what's up?" I asked sitting in the chair. There was a weird eye exchange between them.

"Um we are good. How are you Anya?" There was something in Ray's voice that was very out of character.

"Good?" I was getting very confused. What was going on.

"Umm Ray and I are going to leave and go to Another World." Mikey said standing up.

"Oh sweet lets go Gerard I want to see if they have the new Futures Enemies comic." I stated standing up and heading toward the stairs.

"Umm no... Sorry Anya, Guys only." Ray said as they passed me. I was completely aside myself. I had never been told no by Mikey and Ray. What was happening? I just watched them leave the basement.

"What do you want to watch Anya?" Gerard asked. I looked back at him. Did he really just ask me that question. I was pissed.

"Gerard what the hell is their problem?" I asked walking over to him. I was standing next to his legs. He looked up at me and smiled.

"Don't worry I think they are just trying to give us space or something stupid like that. Mikey just thinks that something happened between us that's all. I told him nothing did." He said turning on the TV.

"Oh," I said a little upset that Gerard would say that nothing is going on between us and stepped back a little. Wait why would I be upset. No I wasn't upset just confused. Yeah confused, right?

"Yeah Mikey just doesn't understand that we are just the way we were before. Like we talked about yesterday, we just mess around. It's nothing." Gerard looked a little annoyed like he wanted me to either go away or tell him it wasn't true. Either way I decided to go sit in the chair.

We watched some tv for a while. When Gerard came back with some popcorn, he patted the couch next to him. I smiled and went over and sat next to him. I eat all the popcorn and he placed the bowl on the table. We were watching Never Ending Story and I pulled my legs into my chest. I knew the part that was about to come and no matter how many times I watched this movie I still got scared. That fucking wolf is the worst character in the entire world. I could feel Gerard's stare on me. I tilted my head toward him. He was smiling at me.

"Are you okay?" he asked me half laughing.

"No I hate the part that is coming up." He laughed and put an arm around me. Then it happened, just like it always did the creepy wolf comes out of the cave. My eyes went wide and out of instinct I buried my head into Gerard's chest. He chuckled and his arm drop to my midsection pulling me closer.

"It's over, the wolf is gone," he said with a little laugh. I looked up at him not moving from my position. "What you don't trust me now?"

"No I do I'm just... nothing." Just say it Anya, say that you feel comfortable when your in his arms. But nothing came out of my mouth. In stead I slowly drew away. Gerard cleared his throat and I stood up. Gerard looked at me confused.

"I should go home... yeah home," I shouldn't be here or anywhere near him. I wanted to feel his lips on mine again. I wanted to feel his hair. I didn't want to sit across the room from each other like we used to. I wanted more or did I. Why should I want more, we are just friends right? Yeah and he kissed me first so why couldn't we just be friends that kissed... because that makes me sound like a slut.

I must have been making gestures in my frustration. "Are you fighting with yourself?" he asked looking at me with narrow eyes.

"Yes, No, I need to go home, I have work to do, laundry you know." I began to walk toward the stairs.

"Anya, stop, get back over here. Come on, come here." I turned and looked at Gerard. He was still sitting on the couch and one arm was repeatedly gesturing me over to him. I swayed over, my head dragging behind telling me to run. I stopped next to his legs, my right knee gently touched his left leg.

"What," I questioned with a hand on my hip.

"Stop being shy... and get over here," he pointed to his lap. I laughed, not sure if he wanted me to do what I was about to do. I rested my right knee on the couch and through my left leg over his lap, straddling him. His mouth opened a little as he rested his hands on my hips. I smiled at his shocked face, feeling like I won this one. I leaned down and kissed him softly. He began to kiss back quickly and my hands found there way to his hair. His hands gently graced my skin where my shirt had moved up. I inhaled a little with excitement. His touch was so soft, I wanted more. His mouth left my mouth and went to my neck. I let out a soft moan. I could feel him smile into the kiss and bit a little. I let out another moan a little louder.

"Gerard is everything okay?" his mom asked from up stairs. We quickly pulled away and I jumped off of his lap.

"Um yeah mom we're just watching a movie," He shouted back hanging his head. "I hate my house," he directed at me. I let out a little laugh and stood up holding out my hand for him to take. He stood up, following my lead.

"Like I said lots of laundry that needs to be done over at my house. Mainly because my Mom is working, she doesn't have time." He smiled at my comment and kissed me one last time before we began to walk up stairs.

"Mom we're going out for a while is that cool?" Gerard asked his mom when we got upstairs.

"Is your homework done?"

"That's what we're doing Anya has the class work I missed over at her house, we're gonna go do it now."

"Is one of your parents home Anya?" Gerard's dad asked me.

"Yeah, only my Mom is working. Don't worry we have supervision."

"Okay be back by ten please," His dad said as we walked out the front door. Gerard grabbed my hand gently rubbing it.

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~Nailsntacks