Sex and violence.

Gerard left with drew about an hour ago, so once again I stayed in the basement and started playing Earthbound again. Hoping the game would take everything off my mind, but it just failed. I can't forget the past three months, how much of a fucking dick I was. No wonder Chelsea left me and Justin just ignores me now.

My dad was at least nice enough to order me Chinese food and get a few more horror movies from the movie store. Hopefully Gerard will be home tonight so all of us can watch them, kinda like before but I won't freak out like the way I did.. I just never suspected anything like that to ever happen.
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Just as I started eating my second box of fried rice, the I heard someone knocking at the door. Knowing my dad was out and about I was the only one home, so I ran back up the stairs and checked the door.

Not even caring that I was just in my boxers and a Smashing Pumpkins shirt.
"Justin?" My heart flutters when I see him, no homo.

"Hi.. Frank."

"Here come in." I pull the door open some more as I invite him inside, he just drops himself on my couch.

"So, what's up?" I follow him as I walk over to the kitchen, throwing a hoodie on that was left on one of the chairs.

"I heard about Chelsea.. I didn't know man but now everything just makes sense.. I can't stay mad at you." His head just hangs over his lap as his hands pick at his nails.

My mouth opens, but no words come out.

"Dude, I know it's not like you to beat up on Gerard like that. I just don't know how I didn't realize that before, you're not like Bob or Chris. None of us are.."

"Justin.. About Gerard.." I try to go deeper I. The conversation still I'm just cut off.

"Did you hear what Bob and Chris did to them last month? They fucking raped him and his boyfriend.. Frank I don't wanna turn out like them." I turn my head to face Justin immediately and find him on the verge of tears.

His words repeat in my head... Chris and Bon fucking raped them....?

Anger just fills my body as my fists clench harder and harder, my veins almost jumping out from my skin. I'm gonna fucking kill them.

"Justin, who told you." I continue my way over to him, my foot steps echo around the empty house.

"They did... They told me this and how Gerard puked blood everywhere.. Is he even alive Frank? I haven't seen him in school or anything, Frank I'm scared." Tears start to slowly pour out from Justin's chocolate eyes, I just wrap my arm around him, holding him tight as anger and rage still riot in my body.

"Gerard's alive, Justin. Don't worry... But why didn't he tell me about that.."

"He didn't because Chris or Bob probably threatened them, you know how they are, how cruel they can be.. I'm just so sorry for leaving you and Gerard like that.. I just don't know what to do, Frank. I can't eat, I can't sleep... I just want to die." His body starts to shake as I hear him sob, I just hold him tighter in anger and fear.

"Justin, you're not.. Suicidal now are you...?" Me words become slow with the thought...

"No, I just. I'm just really confused..." His sobs don't seem to be stopping anytime soon.

"Here, Justin. Lets go back down to my room, alright?"

"O-okay." He sobs as he gets back up with me as I guide him back in the basement.
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Justin took about a good hour to calm down, and at the moment the two of us are just watching IT. When I still can't get Gerard out of my head.

Not just about seeing him with almost no hair, but the way he is. Everything he's been through and he always keeps a smile on his face, how he's the first to help someone out. He's always happy and seem to love everyone. His eyes.. His gorgeous green eyes that refuse to show the heart break in his soul. How his skin is so pale against his black hair. Pale and never pasty, how he was original. He was him, and I think I am in love with him...

"Justin.."

"Yeah." I watch him turn over to me, a noodle hanging out for. His mouth as we both sit in front if the tv.

"How do you know if you're gay or not?" I blurt out as I move my eyes back to the screen, looking over at the image of Pennywise.

"You're gay?" I see his head tilt from the corner of my eye.

"Well.. I'm not sure but I think I'm in love with Gerard."
I don't look over at him till I hear him choke in his food. "What?"

"Gave you a chance." I turn my head away from him and continue to watch the movie.

"No, Frank stop. It's fine I just never.. Suspected it. I mean you were so in love with Chelsea..." His words stutter as I look back at him, my nerves beginning to relax.

"I know.. That's why it took me a while to realize that I love Gerard."I can't help but feel my face blush as I say the words.

"Well, what do you like about him?" Justin turns his body around to face him, I laugh as I do the same.

"Um.. I'm not sure.. I mean, just the way he still tries to be happy after all the stuff he was thrown into, and how original he is.." My face tears up into a smile as I hear myself speak, I catch Justin smile too.

"Anything else?" I watch his eyebrow raise playfully, I only laugh once more.

"Well, he's cute. Just how he's pale and has black hair and green eyes, like... He's beautiful.."

"Awww." Justin cheers as I start laughing again.
My hands just play with the ground beneath me as I continue thinking, "I just don't know how to get him to talk to me again.."

Justin stays quiet for a little while too.

"Didn't you write him a song?"

Shit I totally forgot about that..

"Yeah.. But he doesn't even talk to me anymore."

"What about this.." Justin smile as he plants an idea in my head.

That kid is Einstein.

Notes

Guys, I'm back o track! Thank you all for your ideas and this idea was from Stitches, which I can't thank you enough for. And thank you to anyone else that helped out. I should be updating more often c:

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-Chelsea