Sex and violence.

Frank's P.OV

So that's been a routine now.

Everyday after school we go to the hospital, my dad sits in the room with Gerard and I sit in the waiting room. I haven't seen him in about a month, it's becoming normal not seeing him.

I'm getting used to the fact that he hates me, and I don't protest against it.

He has every right too, but I still really want to see him. I miss him, school's been hell.

Donnie's still with Chelsea, Justin wont even look at me and I don't even know where Bob is.

Everything's just changing... and it's again.. all my fault.


Gerard's still really sick, my dad said he's already started radiation. The doctors apparently don't know what kind of cancer he even has, which is bullshit.

You guys are doctors.. you have to know what my brother has..

He can't die.. you can't let him die.
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My dad's just coming back out from Gerard's room, I guess we're going back home..

He stays silent as we walk our way back to the elevator, on the way down he's still quiet.

I seriously can't take this.. no one's talking to me...

"Dad.." I look up at him, he stares at the ground..

I wait for a response.. he's still silent..

"Frank.." My head shoots up to him when I finally hear him talk to me.

"Yeah?"

"Do you realize what''s going on?" He never faces me.

"Yeah.. Gerard's staying here so the doctors can fix him." I try to walk in front of him, desperate to feel my dad's eyes on me.

"He's coming home tomorrow, for a week before he comes back for treatment again.. he's going to be back and forth now.. I need you to.." He stops his words as we reach the first floor, we walk out together in sync before he finishes his words. "I need you to start helping him around the house.. He can't do much. He's..... fragile. I just need you to help with this."

My dad sounds so.. heart broken..

He knows something I don't...

"Dad, yeah no problem.. but he's going to live through this.. right?" We reach his car, I hop in while he takes his time.

He's silent again till after he starts the car..

"Let's just go home."

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The first thing I do when I get home is jump in the back yard, pulling out another cigarette.

I don't care if it's twenty degrees.. I need to calm down..

So I smoke a whole cigarette before pulling out another.

Inhaling and exhaling smoke for a half hour.

Gerard's coming home tomorrow... I can finally see him again.

But what is he going to do about me?

I don't know what I'm supposed to do if he ignores me in my own house.

I need to talk to him, I need to make everything up to him.

That's it.

I'll make it up to him.

I'll do something special just for him, I mean he deserves it.

Dad would be in it to help me with it.

Yeah, I'll do that.



Gerard's P.O.V

I'm going home tomorrow, for a week before I come back.

I'll sleep in my own bed, be able to see Drew again.

He's visited at least twice a week, but now I can finally go on a date with him again.

He looked so scared when he saw me here, but I think he understands my pain.

No shit, he has cancer too, of course he knows what it's likee.

But he's been supportive. He's sat with me through out the day when my dad was at work. He kept me company, we'd play cards. Tell jokes, stories.

Making me feel comfortable.. even if I was in the hospital, it didn't feel like it when Drew was here.

He even put his hair up for me, I've only seen it like that a couple of times cause most of the time I see him it's at work where he has to have it down, but it's cute.

He's cute, and now I can finally go hang out with him outside of here.

Notes

short update, next chapter I will cry. It's gonna be sad but OMG I NEED I GAVE YOU MY BULLETS OMG ITS NOT ON ITUNES I WILL CRY OMG