Sex and violence.

Gerard's P.O.V

After Wednesday at work.. I've been tired a lot more than I used to be. I don't know, it's probably cause I work two jobs and and I work everyday.. it's really draining the blood from me. But now it's Friday so I work with Drew today. This weekend's his last weekend for a week cause he'll be in the hospital getting treatment. But he should be back the week after all good and healthy.

Usually I'm excited to work with Drew. I mean he's really fun and helpful. And it's really just the two of us. but today.. I just don't feel so hot. I never eat anymore, food just makes me gag now.. All I do is drink these protein drink things my dad got. Still.. I rarely even drink those.. And the bruises still didn't go away.. Chris left a bruise on my back. Donnie caught it in the locker room and he flipped out. I can't see it so I guess it is pretty bad.. My guess to all this is just from stress. Stress from Mikey, stress from Chris and Bob. Stress from work.. So I guess I really got nothing to worry about right?

"Hey princess you look beautiful." Drew greets me as I slip behind the counter with him. But I still smile at his comment.

"Why thank you." I throw the best sarcastic look I can throw at him before a little girl and her mom ask for candy. I'm quick to fill their needs. I guess I really did get the hang of things. With that thought, I'm more "enthusiastic" when I work. Just cause I know I'm actually making something of myself for the first time.. It feels great too, I mean. I'm somebody now... Not just something.

"Hey Gerard, could you run to the back and get more kernels. We're seriously running low, man." I turn to him and notice how he's caring to like eight people, so I can't say no. With that, I grab the keys from his belt. I here him chuckle as I walk away smiling myself.
I've only been in the back room a few times, but Drew was always with me. But now it's the first time I'm actually in here myself, so it's a little weird... Weird or not, I find what Drew requested and I'm quick to hop back behind the counter. I hand him the box and in return he pats my back, only sending my body to cripple up in pain, I try my hardest to hide this one but Drew catches on.

"Woah dude, are you okay?" He tries catching me from falling, but his hand only lays on the bruise on my side. I can't hold back tears from leaking out of my eyes.. God dammit... I don't stop him as he peeks down my shirt. His gasps are loud as he pulls away.. then checking the one from my side.. "Gerard.. are you-"

"Yeah, I'm fine.. Just took a beating from one of Frank's friends.. I'll be okay." I focus on the way his eyes try to see through mine, studying me.. I just hope he takes my lie... Well not that much of a lie. One of them is from Chris.. the other one I don't know where it's from. But his eyes soon jump off mine and focus back on the people around us.. Soon I start to do the same.. Just focus Gee.. Just.. one more week, then you can quit if you want. just until Frank's birthday...



Frank's P.O.V

Gerard had work all night so I decided to invite Justin over. I mean, he's the only person I'm not pissed at besides Chelsea.. But now he tells me something that really pisses me off...

"Chris did it again." His voice is muffled as he sits on my floor.

"Did.. what?" I cock my head. You never know with Justin.

"He's messing with Gerard still! Just a few days ago.. we went over for pizza and he was at work and Chris dumped water and ice down his shirt... I'm getting real tired of this Frank." Justin's voice is filled with emotion.. I just stay silent as emotions suffocate me.. It's never gonna end.. I'm never gonna stop hearing about Gerard getting picked on..

"I am too. I am too..." I join in, but my voice is slow and steady.

"Then why don't we do something about it!" I jump up a few inches when I hear him yell..

"Justin.." I sigh.. "If we tried doing something, it wouldn't stop.. we'd just be caught up in the middle.."

"It still doesn't feel right! I mean, I had to watch you beat him up, Bob beat him up and now Chris.... From the start I felt bad about this and now... It's just making it worse. I don't know why I decided to hang out with them in the fist place.. Now.. we.. turned into the kids our parents warned us about.."

My body freezes as his words run through my head... and he's right.. all we did was turn out bad.. Look at me. I'm barely making it through high school... if my dad wasn't vice principle I'd be in Chris' spot..

"I got into college you know.. I just... I never told you guys... I was to scared you'd think I was some pussy or some nerd.... but I got into a college.." His words are meant to sound excited but they're coated with sadness..

"Justin, that's great. I mean, compared to the rest of us.. That's amazing.. I haven't even applied anywhere-" Justin cuts me off.

"I don't get why you did that.. I mean you're really smart and you don't know it. Don't deny it cause if you were dumb you'd be like Bob or in prison." He thinks I'm.. smart?


"Justin.. I.. Well..." I can't even find words right now... Things have just changed so much in the last month.. So much I'm losing myself..

Notes

sadness depression, this is sad. My mom's drunk and she's yelling at my dog omg help